Rainbow At The End of Longing

16. The Subconscious Memory

I woke up again tonight at night. And as usual, I felt like eating fried rice when I woke up at night like this. I sat myself on the bed.

"Want to eat fried rice, huh? Yuk Bunda makein," I said as I gently rubbed my stomach which was already quite large.

I then lowered my legs off the bed. And my gaze immediately turned toward the photo located on the nightstand beside this bed. My photo along with Mas Awan and Keinan.

My eyes immediately returned to tears. I really know that at this time the baby in my stomach must miss the special fried rice made by his father, namely Mas Awan. And so do I, I miss my husband too much.

I wiped away the tears that had flowed unlicensed and soaked both of my cheeks. Taking a deep breath, I tried to strengthen my own heart.

Slowly, I stood up from my seat. I immediately rushed down to get down. Arriving in the kitchen, I then prepared the ingredients I needed to make fried rice. After that I immediately started cooking the fried rice that I wanted.

A few moments later my fried rice was ripe. I poured the fried rice on the plate and then took it to the dining table. I sat myself in one of the dining table chairs. After reading the do'a, I then started eating my fried rice.

Just one mouthful of fried rice entered my mouth, but I already felt nauseous. I closed my mouth with my right hand. I tried to swallow the fried rice in my mouth. After that, I immediately drank the water that I had poured into the glass.

I rubbed my mouth with my right hand. I looked at my stomach, the baby inside my stomach was kicking around right now. I smiled and rubbed my stomach full of love.

"Dear dear, eat fried rice made by Mother first, yes. Mommy is not good to wake up Oma. Oma must be tired. It's a shame, and Oma's resting, too, baby. So adek eat fried rice made by Mother first yes, baby," I said to talk to the baby who is currently in my stomach.

'The Cloud, ' my inner words, miss my husband dearly.

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"Damus!!!" said the Cloud instantly opened his eyes.

The cloud suddenly awoke from his sleep and reflexively called out the name 'Shofi'.

The breath of the clouds is a little dull. The clouds felt that in his sleep earlier he heard the sound of a woman crying calling his name. That's why Cloud suddenly woke up from his sleep and reflexively immediately called out the name 'Shofi.

The clouds sat themselves on the bed. His face was rough while rubbing slowly.

"Shofi?" the cloud asked himself.

The clouds are very familiar with the name. But somehow it is still very difficult for Cloud to be able to remember someone with the name 'Shofi.

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"Nisa must have expressed her love for you, Wan?" ask Rijal.

The clouds were surprised to hear Rijal's question. But inevitably, the cloud still has to answer the question. The cloud then tried to answer by remaining calm. Because during knowing Rijal a few months, Awan knows Rijal is a wise person. So he could definitely understand the decision of the Cloud.

"Yes, Kang," replied the Cloud.

"And you rejected Nisa?" asked Rijal again, still in his usual tone of voice.

"Sorry, Kang. But I thought Nisa was like my own sister. I love Nisa, but it is a sister's affection for her sister. I can't reciprocate Nisa's feelings for me, Kang," Awan replied explaining what they were.

"I know that. But I also know that there's another reason, right?" rijal asked with a look towards the clouds.

Clouds jerk. Didn't expect that Rijal would be able to know that as well.

"Try the same story. Don't feel sad because I'm Nisa's sister. Think of me as your own good friend. Let you be more free to make the same story what is being strange in your heart at this time," said Rijal sage.

The clouds take a deep breath, then exhale slowly. Try to make up his own heart first. Yes, right now the clouds are indeed in need of someone to share everything that has been a burden on his mind so far. And the Clouds felt that it seemed like he could share with Rijal. Finally, Awan decided to tell Rijal.

"That's why, but I feel like I have my own family out there, Kang. My heart felt certain that I actually had a wife, even a child. Regardless of my memory that has not yet returned, but I feel very confident that I am married, Kang," said Awan, with distant eyes looking ahead.

"I think it's like that too, Wan. I remember very well, when you were unconscious, you were a few times delirious and mentioned the name 'Shofi' in your subconscious," said Rijal responded to the Cloud story earlier.

"Shofi?" tanya Awan repeated Rijal's words earlier.

"Yes, 'Shofi'. It's as if it's a memory from your subconscious, Wan. That's why I have the same thought as you. It seems like you already have your own family out there, Wan," replied Rijal, expressing what he had been thinking all along as well.

Cloud silence. He tried to examine everything that had been said by Rijal earlier. 'Shofi', it's the same name that Awan mentioned last night when he suddenly woke up from his sleep.

And somehow the cloud felt his heart beating faster the moment he mentioned the name. Like this moment too.

The clouds try to remember aloud about the name 'Shofi. But the clouds still can't. Cloud Head actually often feels pain when he forces too hard himself to be able to recall what has happened in his past, especially related to the name 'Shofi.

But Awan is very hopeful, hopefully he can immediately remember about the woman named 'Shofi', and also about all her past.