Pursuing a 30 Day Widower

Chapter 49's

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As Dean said they both went shopping and visited the university where Zivana was going to continue her studies, there were many materials they bought deliberately to make stock so that Zivana would not have trouble later. Shopping for household needs in a new place, is not easy. Not only because his place is foreign, but what he bought was a little foreign.

Usually Zivana will use the ingredients in the kitchen of his house, without knowing where to buy it. The girl also did not know much about the herbs, and there were some vegetables that she did not know her name. Fortunately Dean knew quite a lot, the man was so patiently introducing some materials that the girl did not know.

"Om, that's enough for me." Zivana saw the shopping cart that Dean brought was full, if in look around also like nothing less.

"Hmmm, is there nothing left? Try to remember again." Said Dean.

Zivana thought for a moment, she didn't know but she felt that everything was enough nothing less. "Udah om, Ziva feels nothing less. If there's any, we can buy it here again, right?"

Dean agrees to end his shopping, both of them waiting in line to pay for groceries. After getting his turn Dean immediately paid him, and after that his two rushed to go to campus. The distance is not too far, they only travel about 15 minutes.

Zivana stared at her campus building, the girl felt hesitant to enter. Seeing so many people on campus it made Zivana a little hesitant, was she able to adjust? There must be a lot of people from different countries.

"Come on!" Dean took the girl by the hand, taking her in for a look. He also came to meet one of the lecturers there, a senior lecturer who had also become his lecturer.

"Om, Ziva is hesitant."

"Why? Don't worry about anything, everything is safe here. There are also many Asians here, there are even many students from Indonesia." Dean tried to give Zivana some understanding.

Dean kept forcing Zivana to come in, he kept holding the girl. Dean showed some people he knew were from Indonesia, he showed Zivana that not only was he from Indonesia but there were many and they were fine here. Continued college well, even had a lot of friends.

"Look, you can have a lot of friends and a lot of language learning. So, what to worry about, right?"

Zivana slowly begins to convince herself that she is no longer hiding behind Dean's burly body. He'll try, if anyone else can why not.

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Arzan just woke up from his sleep, he slept long enough because of taking the medicine. Arzan sat contemplating inside his room, the man was still thinking about what he had seen in the drugstore earlier. As if it was a dream, and he really hoped it was a dream.

Unfortunately, it was a reality, not a dream. His struggle all this time turned out to be useless, in the end all in vain. He had missed an opportunity to forget everything, at a time when he should have stepped forward without remembering anything Arzan actually stepped forward because he remembered that.

He worked hard for this man, for the man who no longer remembers him. Arzan's hopes were shattered, the time during these 5 years was meaningless. But, he was also very grateful that the person he wanted to be happy had been happy even if not with him.

"At least you're happy with your life, let me feel its own pain and be able to forget it all immediately."

Gladys name it a few years ago haunts Arzan, the man is eager to be able to meet her back. He used to be unfair to her for the sake of finding her parents, but now Arzan wants to make up for everything.

Unfortunately, Gladys who used to go to London just to continue his studies has now settled there. Gladys already had a family, and from what Arzan saw it seemed like he was living a happy life.

"Glad, I'm happy for you. I always pray for you the best." Arzan stared at his picture and Gladys, who was taken a few years ago, still keeps the photo well.

It's fair why Arzan had not been able to find the whereabouts of Gladys, it turns out that the girl changed her identity. She and Gladys are both children raised in an orphanage, but Arzan is lucky to meet Dean and work with him.

Arzan used to guarantee Gladys life from his work, until where the girl got a scholarship to continue college and Arzan wanted to find her parents. Gladys knew Arzan would not let her go far, so he left without Arzan's knowledge.

Of course Arzan was angry, so he ignored Gladys when the girl had returned to Indonesia. Arzan chooses to find his parents, and leaves Gladys with his wish. But, he never intended to forget Gladys and the promises they once made. He was only angry then, unfortunately he was late. Gladys had already decided to go far, the girl chose her own path.

Arzan sat down with his head down, he felt a growing dizziness at the thought of that. He also recalled someone who might feel disappointed in him at this moment, the girl who some time ago filled his days. He finds a new person, but his guilt at Gladys makes him ignore everything.

At the moment Arzan feels like he wants to disappear for a while from this complexity, he wants to calm himself and think about everything from the beginning. He also had to step forward without any more burden, and of course he also needed time to understand what his feelings wanted now.

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Dean and Zivana had just arrived at their apartment, after a day of coming to several places. Very tiring of course, Zivana even felt sleepy throughout the trip.

"Shake no sleep." Dean gives a warning when he sees Zivana sitting leaning against the soup, the man brings groceries to the kitchen.

"But, Ziva is sleepy om!"

Dean who was in the kitchen heard Zivana's voice, he saw a clock that showed it at 5 p.m. Dean is actually tired of having to tidy up groceries alone, but he also has pity on Zivana.

"Sleep, I'll wake you up at dinner." Dean said as he walked past Zivana to the room, the man would take a bath first and tidied up their groceries.

Of course without a second thought, Zivana immediately curled up in the soup. The girl fell asleep there. "Truly sleeping?" Dean snorted at the sight of it, he was always being bullied by his little wife.

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