Pride of Love

Realises

The atmosphere was already very dark when Andra and Yogi arrived simultaneously in a hall building where the AMP event that night.The place had begun to quiet only a few crew people who were still visible and then cleared the area events and sound system.

Amel, Mayra and Arin also came out from the door of the hall.

"Mad Amel and Ma'am Mayra I first yes, the buljol I ordered is already in front!" Arin cried while running small looking for a driver who had told him that he was at the pickup location.

"Ok you heart Rin!" Mayra called out in response.

Arin occasionally turns left right looking for an ojol he has not met. he continues to stare at the screen of his phone and try to contact the driver of the ojol again. He moved faster towards the parking area. Because he was too focused on what he was looking for he accidentally hit someone who was walking past him.

"Oh sorry my mother accidentally I was in a hurry to pick up my wife!" Arin hit Andra who was also walking quickly will approach Amel at the entrance of the hall building.

"I'm the one who apologizes, I'm heartless!" Arin bowed her body while covering both hands on her chest.

For a moment the two looked at each other.

 "Will?" Though faint under the dim light rays Andra could see the face of someone she had once known.

"Mas Jovan?" arin in the heart. But Arin did not give any response and immediately fell silent, he was very surprised because the person in front of him was the person who was always in his memory, the person he really wanted to meet in Jakarta. Arin immediately lowered his face as he recalled the photo he had seen at the Hadiwiguna residence earlier this afternoon.

"That means Mas Jovan is Andra's husband Bu Amel?" Mind ascertaining. Arin immediately turned his face and no longer wanted to look at Andra's face then immediately left Andra who was still standing there.

"Lo know that girl Ndra?" Yogi who was next to Andra asked him.

"So, she looks a lot like my old friend" Andra replied with her eyes still fixed on Arin who had already stepped away.

"He's Amel and Mayra's new team!" Yogi embraces Andra's shoulder and invites her to walk towards the door of the hall building where Amel and Mayra are already waiting for them.

The two couples then join hands together towards their respective vehicles. Andra opened her car door for Amel and as usual she always rubbed Amel's head while kissing his forehead before getting into the car. Both couples left the place.

Not far from there Arin was still standing watching them. "They're so friendly, Mas Jovan looks so happy with Miss Amel!"  muttered. Arin sighed deeply, there was a disappointment that now filled his heart.

"Bak Arini huh?" The driver who was waiting for him was in front of him, Arin quickly climbed on his bike and left the place.

On the way home Andra was still curious about the woman he had just met.

"Yes he's my team that I told you about yesterday, baby" Amel leaned his head on Andra's shoulder driving the car.

"His name is Arini, he just migrated to Jakarta, he was originally from Jogja" Amel continued his story then he also retold all the things he knew about Arin to Andra.

Andra was silent and unable to say anything. "I'm the one Arin's been looking for all this time!" there was guilt on his mind.

Andra let out her breath realizing everything that was happening. Memories of his life while in Jogja immediately appeared. Three years he was friends with Arin and during that time he never knew that Arin harbored a taste for him. For him Arin is his best friend during his time in Jogja, a friend who is always there and encourages him so that three years there become meaningful. But Andra is not the type of person who is easy to fall in love, he considers Arin is just an ordinary friend and there is never any other sense than just friendship.

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Arin arrived at his simple contract, he went straight into his room and threw his body on the mattress and hugged a pillow covering his face.

Tears were pouring down his cheeks. Disappointment in his heart. The only reason that brought him desperate to come to the capital himself without direction had been found but in conditions that were not very suitable to be expected.

You idiot! it's so stupid!

It was the only word that rained down on his feelings at this moment. "Mas Jovan it's Andra her husband Bu Amel. Jovan, Andra, her name is Jovandra, why did I realize that?" Arin continued to cry over his stupidity. "I also know that Mas Jovan never had any feelings for me, and I still go to this town looking for him, how stupid you are Arini!" Arin hit his pillow and shouted in a raucous voice as he sobbed, he got angry and cursed himself. His body shook with his increasingly unstoppable cry, the sadness and disappointment was increasingly afflicted.

"What am I supposed to do now? Am I still able to live here?" Arin asked himself. "The only passion for me being here is Mas Jovan, but I realized that he already belongs to someone else and I don't dare to dream that I can have him" Arin continued to think.

"Shall I just go back to Jogja and accept the match?" His heart was still wondering what he should do. "Pasrah" was the only solution he could find, for now he decided to continue living his life in Jakarta while continuing to think again what he would do later.

Slowly Arin got up from his bed but his legs felt weak, his head suddenly dizzy which caused him to fall again on his mattress. Arin chose not to get out of bed again, he grabbed the remaining bottle of mineral water he had drunk last night from the table near his bed and gulped it down. His sobs were still heard but he tried to close his eyes to sleep and for a moment forgot all the problems he faced.

The next day Arin woke up from his sleep and got sunlight already into his room. Too late in the grief last night, making him forget to close the window curtain until morning came. Arin got up and glanced at her watch that was still stuck to her wrist from last night.

"I've missed the dawn prayer time" he said. Then Arin got up from his bed to take ablution water and continued to perform dawn prayers even though the time had passed.

At 8:30 Arin is ready to go back to work, he wants to forget all his problems. "I'll find another job. I will not be able to continue working in Bu Amel's office, if I am still there I will not be able to continue my life, the shadow of Mas Jovan will certainly continue to block me" Arin muttered.

"In the meantime, inevitably, I have to work there until I get another job, I need a fee to stay here" his heart steadied again.

Arin grabs her phone and starts ordering an ojek online to drive her to the office.