Oi! Choco Velvet
A new Days
I have been home from the hospital since 3 days ago, but still told bedrest, my future husband and future in-laws love to over treat me like a helpless weak human being. I just woke up from my sleep, I saw Dani sitting at the end of the bed and her gaze was focusing on her screen probably because she was behind me.
I got up and looked over his shoulder. I put my head on his shoulder. It turns out that he was looking at the SBMPTN announcement.
"Honey my eyes dizzy to see a name as small as this, please help read the announcement yes, although I do not expect a hundred percent, hahaha because you know what my ability is like, you know what my ability is like, so if for example I didn't get away with it" he said, turning around and handing his phone to me.
"Yes, you must be optimistic dong, as long as you have done the best, surely you escaped, because I am confident in your abilities." I received a phone that showed a pdf of the download from the LTMPT link
I scroll there are 3040 pages, Wahh a lot, certainly fun if you can enter the University that we dream of. My eyes rolled into a scroll, and my heart started to gnaw when I found it on page 940
LIST OF PARTICIPANTS PASSED THE SBMPTN LINE SELECTION 2020
TEST PARTICIPANTS AT UTBK CENTER OF BRAWIJAYA-MALANG UNIVERSITY
I'm looking for Dani's name there. I opened my eyes wide, while Dani was agitated while occasionally exhaling her heavy breath, I had no idea what she was thinking. I'm afraid he's expecting too much and disappointed. But I was wrong.
"This is by.. you passed SBMPTN, this is really your name" I said showing his name. I jumped in excitement.
He rushes over and checks his numbers and prodi.
"Yes really.... Thank God." he said he was so happy, I never saw the bright look on his face before.
"Congratulations, dear.you deserve to be happy." I hugged her.
"Btw you know me yes... should be checked on the page SELMA UB enter name and date of birth can right?"
"Ooohh yes..ye Lordnnn know that not bother from earlier I read from the top down, sorry baby yes I actually forgot, you yourself if remember why not say the same to me?"
"Hehe I myself also forgot, but I'm proud of my chairman, or my brother, or my girlfriend, hihihi I don't know how proud I am of you."
"Dear, you know what I'm majoring in?"
"What?" manya curious.
"I'll take a double degree." Dani replied
my mouth is wide open.
"You willing?"
"Yes must be able, I want to have a good future so that you can be a husband that you can always rely on, so that later can get a good job, so that you can make enough of a living for your wife's children." the answer.
"Hmmmm ntar if you pass the double degree your taste is not me anymore." I said.
"Huuhhh when the hell you can think positive, even though I have been desperately testing two programs so that you can be a qualified graduate later, you still think about the non-no, all I've done for you, for our future, yes."
"Yes, I know, I'm joking, baby.."
"What major did you major in?" my continue.
"Master Joint Degree I took Computer Science, and Doctoral Joint Degree I took Chemistry, hehehe far yes, yes, no papa emang intentionally if already qualified I can keep you from danger both from cyber and poisons, so sweet is not it?" ask him while pulling me tighter in his arms.
"Ah you are - there are, others majored according to their interests and desires you majored because pingin protect me."
"Because I have no other goal than you" he replied.
"Ehmmm." my murmur responded with the spoiled I was making up.
"And, since you've been to college and we'll rarely meet intensely, may I hold my own medicine? Just in case, you're not with me at all times, are you?" ask me while releasing her embrace.
He seemed to take a deep breath and then exhale. His palms rest on both of my cheeks.
"Sorry baby, I can't always keep you, but I promise I won't make you lonely at home. As much as possible I'll keep going home when college is over."
"Yeah.you're focused on college, I'm safe at home." I replied.
"Udah don't think macem-macem yes." I continued.
"Yes baby.you also believe in me. There is no other woman I fight for more than you. I don't want another day you're nethink to me saying there's a new girl is what I don't want to hear anyway, it's just you.. ok?"
"OK.." I replied.
"Yes, I took the medicine first." she said, I nodded.
Moments later he came back, carrying my medicine bottle.
"The promise should no longer be misused, its function is to overcome panic attacks not anti-depressants." the message before taking the drug for me.
"Yeaha promise." I replied.
"You stay free to tell me whatever the problem is ok?"
"OK..."
"Don't feel like you're alone, ok?"
"OK.."
"Hmmm, I love you" he said, hugging me. I took the bottle from Dani's hand that was crossed on my back.
"I love you too." I said.
"Either why do you dread loving, call baby, call baby, it feels rich. I don't know, wherever you are, I'll find you" he said.
"Yeah yeah you're funny, used to be called baby, want dales baby, now I've done it all you think I'm weird." I said.
"Here's a hug." he said while hugging me.
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14 Days Passed
We and our family have been to Eyang's house, I had a tremendous fear when Papa Dani began to explain the purpose of our arrival. But unexpectedly we welcomed our intentions, and they set our marriage in 3 months. It feels so good. I tried to call my mom and dad's numbers, but they didn't respond to my calls at all.
Yes, I can do if they don't mind me anymore.
"You are not alone, even though your father Ariadi has left you, still eyeang you, you are no different from the other grandchildren, do not be sad." his words still ring in my ears.
I don't know how to behave, whether I should thank God or I should thank my biological mother who sent me to a loving family, I don't know what their hearts are made of, which is clear their hearts are very soft and loving.
I made Dani's favorite chrispy mushroom, lifted it from the tapestry and poured it on the plate. Soon he'll be home from college, so glad I made his favorite snack.
Tok...
I rushed to the door, I saw Dani standing at the door but she was not alone, there were 3 girls and 2 guys with her.
Although the look on my face changed immediately, I let them in.
"Honey they are my friends from chemistry class, want to study together at home papa ya." said Dani.
"Wiiihhhh, who's Dan, your sister?" ask the tall guy with the black t-shirt on Dani's right side.
"It's not my future wife." replied Dani. I returned it with a smile.
"Would you marry Dan?" ask the naked veiled chick on Dani's left side.
"Yes dong..yaudah sat down yuk." take Dani to all of them.
"I brought you a drink." I said.
"Dear what are you doing? I'm the same here, let me be the one who nyiapin." take Dani.
"Udah is not papa." I said.
in the wake of
"They're six, 3 guys 3 girls.can't my brain don't think weird."
I took a glass teapot and poured an orange-flavored drink into it, I took 6 glasses and I arranged neatly on the tray. When I was about to lift my tray I saw Dani walking up maybe pick up a book or something.
"Dani's wife, why didn't she go to college?"
"No idea, they're still living together in this house?"
"I don't know..just ask the person concerned."
"Darling beauty is locked up in a house."
"Yes why, good dong, I can nempelin Dani on campus."
"Anjirr wants to marry her."
"Yakann before the yellow janur curved, even though it has curved can also be removed replace the new one."
"Aseekkk..."
"Yes, it's not really me..."
"Yes really."
"How far do you like Dani?"
"So far...it's crazy.."
"Waaah bad you..."
"And I can always bring a guy to my knees."
Suddenly Dani appeared from behind me and took slowly the tray I was carrying.
"Let me help you, baby" he said.
"You learn yes, I want to go to the room first, there's your favorite chrysanthemum."
"Well thank you baby, you don't want me?" ask Dani later.
"You want to, but you don't know how tired it feels." I replied.
"Oh yeah you've rested later I'll say yes."
he said while landing his lips on the top of my head. I smiled and left him.
Until I cried in my room, why does it hurt my heart so much. I don't want to lose him, I don't want to. And the babbling of Dani's friends kept playing in my brain.
I took my bottle of Fluoxetine, I saw only 7 left, I poured it into my palm. I drink 3 at a time. Then I put the bottle with white water on the nightstand.
My emotions are not stable, my tears are flowing, my heart is torn to shreds. I want the quick effect of my medicine, I want to be calm and happy again.
I took another 3 and chugged it. I set myself aside so that when I open my eyes later my mind calms down my emotions are stable and not stressed anymore, it turns out I was wrong I just fell asleep for a while suddenly nauseous then it did not take long to immediately vomit
as much as I hold my stomach and try to regulate my short breath until it feels really tight. My head is dizzy.
I may have overdosed on the medication I was taking. My body temperature rose dramatically then I started hallucinating seeing Dani kissing with Adhisty but when I turned around not Adhis but Dani's girl friend earlier, my mind was getting messed up, I tried to get out of the room to call Dani, but I just got off my bed stiff and helpless and fell on the floor maybe I still left a little consciousness when I felt my whole body jerking over and over again.
"Darling.... O Allah you why can gini?" I felt a cold hand pat my cheek slowly and another hand clasping my hand. How many moments later my body seemed to float in the air and land in a comfortable place.
"Mama.. mah came home yes, Syaluna suddenly had a seizure earlier, her body had a high fever, she had a big shoot ma, I've called the doctor but have not come."
"Yes, yeah, yeah..."
"Udah no ma, now it's quiet but still unconscious too."
Of all the Indra in my body only my hearing is faintly functioning again, I have not been able to open my eyes.
After a while everything returned to my body, originally floating everywhere the energy in my body was now able to open my eyes slowly moving my fingers. I saw Dani so worried, her eyes couldn't get away from me.
As soon as I saw him open his eyes, he immediately grabbed me, I saw Dani sobbing.
"Why you?"
She loosened her arms and rubbed and tidied my messy hair. His eyes were fixed on the medicine bottle above the nightstand. He opened it and his eyes widened as soon as he saw that my medicine was gone, only one grain remained.
"You drink all that?"
"Dear you drink all this?"
"This is the danger of you overdose, you know this is a danger.", I...",
I tried to get up and I wanted to explain everything, he helped me while holding my back the next second.
"I've told you that if there's any story to me don't get rich gini, you could die from the medicine you're taking. You why giniin I am loveangg, you promise not to lose the use of medicine right."
"I'm sorry." Just one word I managed to say right now.
"I'm sorry baby, I'm sorry if maybe my friends made you uncomfortable, made you disappointed, sorry I, I won't take them home again."
My door opened and Mama Dani entered with a doctor. The doctor checked my heart rate, and my body temperature. Mama Dani looks like she's breathing heavily.
"What are you, your sister?" aunt Maya asked as soon as the doctor came out of my room, after checking and giving me the medicine.
"I didn't do anything." replied Dani.
"You don't miss out on Syaluna, she's not someone else, even if she's your future wife, but she's still your daughter. He can't overdose on his medication if you don't make a tantrum." said Mama Dani.
"Who's the girl who just came out, who's looking at you at the door?"ask mama Dani later.
"They're Dani ma's friends, one group in Chemistry class."
"Next time don't bring your girl friends home, mama doesn't like."
"If there's anything with your sister, mom won't forgive you, okay." An angry Mama Dani made me look like Dani.
"Auntie... Syaluna has no papa, sorry the wrong Syaluna is not Dani." I said.
"Don't believe him" said Aunt Maya.
"Dani dengerin mama yes, mama may have been wrong, by letting you sexuality harassment to your sister, mama know you kiss her, hug her, love sedain her mama justin aja, mama dari, but if you miss him, mama will separate you from him."
"Ma Dani is sorry, but Dani has no intention of harassing Syaluna, Dani loves her very much."
"Sorry Aunt... Dani is not wrong, because we do love each other, so Syaluna never feel harassed."
"Syaluna do not belain your brother, if he is wrong yes wrong do not look for his defense." said mama Dani.
"But... Auntie..."
"Dear you rest" said Mama Dani.
"Yes Aunty..." I lay back down and pulled my blanket.
"Jagain your sister well, don't make Mama angry again" said Aunt Maya, leaving us both.
"I'm sorry. You got scolded by Auntie." I said.
"Udah. don't think about it, I'm wrong can not take care of you, sorry baby, you also why the hell do not admit it to me, if you can not be helped how, how, you know I can't live without you." Dani grabbed my hand and clasped my finger tightly, she cried.
"And you don't cry, I feel guilty."
"I've never messed with you, you should know, whatever my friend said you should be cuekin, because I only love one woman and that's you, you're my woman, I'm just love one woman, and I have absolutely no intention of harassing you, because I love you" he explained
"Yes I understand. I'm sorry." I said. I held back his hand to make him calmer.
