Not the Bride of Choice

Chapter 42

A sprig of red roses Gavin put on top of that mound of earth. Her lips tried to smile, strengthening her heart that she could get through the days without the Queen.

"Assalamualaikum my wife, this is me bringing red roses for you" she said in a soft voice.

"If you ask why I always carry red roses, because red symbolizes courage like you who so dare to leave me"

"Darling, occasionally come dong to my dreams ! I want to hug you !"

Over time Gavin's voice grew increasingly raucous, holding back the increasingly tight feeling that hit his chest. His hand clasped tightly onto the signboard, talking to Queen's grave as if giving her a calmness.

"Vin"

Gavin raised his head, looking at Nara's sad face.

"I don't think you're going to be here today, so I'm here" Nara sat down next to the belly button, a second later her tears came down looking at the sign with the name of her sister.

"I'm Queen myself, why do you all leave me in this cruel world ?" nara's cries began to break, lamenting her painful life like this.

Now that Nara is living alone in this world, a month after Queen's death, Aaron follows. The middle-aged man was in an accident when he finished visiting Queen's grave. When it was raining heavily, Aaron was too fast to drive his car to hit a large trunk and his car overturned.

"I want to leave the deck" said Nara again.

Gavin immediately turned his head, hearing Nara's saying.

"Where are you going ?" ask Gavin.

"I'm going to Germany, I'm going to stay with Aunt Hesti there. She will be my mother" answered Nara.

"Please take the Queen and the graves of my parents, because I don't know when I'll be back"

Gavin fell silent, he understood it was very difficult so Nara lost all her family members. Just like he lost the woman he loved so much.

After a while Nara stood up again, leaving Gavin still at home in the navel of her sister.

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Now back there is only Gavin there, the man has not budged even though the day is getting dark. He kept holding the nameplate tightly.

The phone in his pants pocket kept vibrating, but Gavin ignored it. She knew it was Mama Medina. Maybe the woman was worried because Gavin hadn't come home yet.

"People sick"

"Can't ask God to bring you back"

"I really can't live without you"

Losing a loved one is the hardest thing for everyone including Gavin. It felt like a nightmare that Gavin wanted to avoid.

Those beautiful eyelashes blinked beautifully, then went back to deep-seated. Replay memories with Queen first. Still vividly remembered how Queen smiled as she welcomed him home from work.

And now that everything is empty, there is no longer a woman who always smiles when she comes home tired. No more appetizing smells. And the painful thing will no longer be there who will call him Mas with a spoiled tone.

"Don't you fuck with me baby"

"Look now, I'm ruined"

Gavin wanted to be angry, but did not know who he was angry with. Until it does not feel the time has shown at 09 pm. But Gavin is reluctant to leave, but now he sleeps while hugging the wife's belly button tightly.

Over time the man's eyes closed, but soon had to open again because he felt glare with the light that hit his face.

"Why sleep in a grave ? it's late at night, mending mas go home first, tomorrow mas here again" said a man in charge of guarding the tomb.

"My wife is back sir" Gavin replied

"People who have gone cannot return Mas, learn sincerely so as not to get sick"

Gavin was silent, he chose to stand up and leave the tomb. Making the tomb guard's father shake his head.

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Upon arriving home, Gavin was immediately greeted by Mama Medina, the look of a worried face so clearly seen.

"Where are you from, boy ? why are your clothes so dirty ?" mama Medina asked when she saw the shirt Gavin was wearing full of red earth.

"I finished Queen Ma, she was afraid to be alone"

"Astaghfirullah" Mama Medina stroked her chest.

"Please don't be like this, son ! Queen's calm down there, she's not sick anymore"

"Queen's still alive Ma, he needs Gavin"

Mama Medina cried, Gavin's attitude is completely different now.

"Because Queen doesn't exist"

"Enough Ma" Gavin snapped "Why does everyone say that the Queen doesn't exist. He's still there Ma, he's coming"

Mama Medina hugged her son tightly, she did not expect that Gavin would become like this.

"Sick Ma" Gavin was sitting limply on the floor.

"Honey Mama knows"

"I want Queen Ma, I don't want anything else"..

After saying that Gavin laughed out loud, making Mama Medina sick but also scared.

"Like her you have to be down to doctor son, you have to be cured" mummified Mama Medina quietly.