Not the Bride of Choice

Blissfulness

Two weeks Aisyah's been on this farm. His relationship with Mas Ali was getting more intense.

They often chat together in the family room and even Mas Ali was not reluctant to invite Aisya around the plantation using his motorbike.

My heart hurts so much to see them.

But I can't do anything.

Maybe this is all the best for us.

Next month Mas Ali promised to take me and Aisyah to the city while asking permission from Father and Mother to marry Aisyah as I wish.

I was devastated once.

Today is the wedding day of Yuli her son Bik Sumi held.

Me and Aisyah and the surrounding people came to congratulate the bride and groom.

Also on Bik Sumi and Pak Asep for the implementation of wedding celebration.

I saw Aisyah walking towards Mas Ali and bringing Mas Ali a cold drink.

My heart ached again to see them smile back at each other like a courtship.

I rushed home alone leaving everything with a deeply hurt heart.

I blame myself for everything that happened.

Miscarriage that caused me to lose my future child and made me unable to give birth again.

"Should I now allow myself to lose my beloved husband?"

I cried sobbing in the room contemplating my poor fate.

"Why did you suddenly disappear and go home this afternoon when Yuli's party wasn't over?" ask Mas Ali to get ready for bed.

"Lately also it seems like you always avoid when you see me with Aisyah. You jealous? isn't this all your wish? " he asked me.

"All I did was on the basis of your wishes. You asked me to get close to your sister and make her my second wife.you forgot?? " Said in a slightly raised tone.

"No. I didn't forget, I asked for it. What else can I do, Mom? I'm angry, I'm jealous but I can't do anything about it. It's forcing me.! I have to accept the fact that I have to lose my Son and the fact that I can't give birth anymore.!!.And now I have to accept the fact that soon I will lose my beloved husband and let him hug my own brother.!! Mas Pain... So sick!!. I thought I'd be willing to live it, but I wasn't. I'm not strong.. I'm asking for Divorce Mas, just divorce Me, I don't want to be a burden to you and continue to hurt myself pretending to be strong when I'm broken. Please divorce me Mas..!" I said to her with unstoppable tears.

He was shocked to hear my words.

"Don't I tell you I'm willing to marry your sister on the condition that you don't demand divorce from me. So it's clear I'll never divorce you at all times. Vivid!!! " he said, shouting and slamming the door and leaving.

I was shocked to see his reaction and then came back crying.

We arrived at Dad's house at 17:05 WIB.

We finished our prayers to the dining room and eat together. I saw Aisyah serving Mas Ali again with a smile.

My heart is really sad.

Since yesterday's quarrel my relationship with Mas Ali was not good.

We talk as necessary.

Until now, the situation is still so. We chose to keep quiet with each other.

After dinner I chose to go into my room and lock myself up.

I heard vaguely Mas Ali, Mother, Father and Aisyah talking while laughing together. My heart is so sore.

"There's something Ali wants to talk to Mom and Dad about. But maybe tomorrow morning after breakfast let us complete with Alisya as well, because if now Alisya Seems to have slept soy sauce." said Mas Ali explained.

Hearing Mas Ali's words outside, I really panicked.

I am sure that tomorrow Mas Ali will convey his desire to marry Aisyah on the basis of my request.

What am I supposed to do? I won't be able to face all this.