Not the Bride of Choice

Fainted

I've really been so frenetic since yesterday.

Every time I remember my mother-in-law's request, I cry again.

I'm slumped.

My appetite has disappeared.

After performing the congregational prayer, Mas Ali laid his head on my lap which was still sitting on the prayer mat.

I saw him close his eyes while slowly twitching his head.

I stroked her hair slowly, my eyes felt so warm, I could not contain this pain anymore.

I cried and hugged her tightly.

Kissed my soft forehead.

"Why you, baby? why crying? " ask her to me.

I was still crying and hugging him even tighter.

I'm gathering my powers to talk to him.

"Ica ridho and allowed Mas Ali to remarry Mas. "I said with my eyes closed.

Ali was shocked to hear my words.

"Don't worry you, don't think strange, Mas can't do it all, Mas just want to be with you forever no matter what" he said holding back anger.

"Ica knows Mas love Ica, Ica also loves Mas Ali very much, which is why Ica can not be selfish to Mas. The possibility of Ica being able to get pregnant again was a small sangar,!! Mas is his one-on-one hope in the family. Ica does not want because the selfishness of the Ica family is destroyed!!" I said while shedding tears.

Mas Ali was silent, then got up and walked up to the bed leaving me who was still sitting on the top crying sobbing.

Today Aisyah came to the plantation at my request.

Yesterday I called my mother asking permission for Aisyah to go to the plantation to accompany me because I was not feeling well.

I greeted Aisyah with a warm embrace.

Aisyah who is a jolly and friendly figure is certainly very easy to be close to anyone, including Mas Ali who is indeed a former husband candidate.

I let him say hello and serve Mas Ali dinner even though I'm a little jealous.

Then when Mas Ali asked me to make coffee for him, I asked Aisyah again to do it on the grounds that I was still not feeling well.

I will make room for them to fall back in love so that Mas Ali will marry Aisyah.

I think Aisyah is the one who deserves to be the second wife for Mas Ali than Mas Ali must marry the girl of his parents' choice that I do not know.

Aisyah is my sister who is the former wife of Mas Ali, so maybe it is time I return Mas Ali to her.

Because I'm just his replacement.

Mas Ali felt a change in my attitude that seemed to elude him.

He sat on my side watching me apply night lotion all over my body.

"Do you really want me to get married again? " he said to me.

I kept quiet not answering.

"You know, you're trying to get Mas closer to your sister, right? " he said to me again.

"Well, if that's what you want, Mas will follow. Next month Mas will ask your parents for permission to marry Aisyah as you wish. On one condition never ask for divorce from Mas, no matter what happens you will always be Mas's wife"., she said again by staring into my eyes wet with tears.

I can only nod.

My heart is very painful.

"Can I give it up? sharing my husband with my own sister?? "I cried in his arms.

My tears in the face with his cold finger in his kiss slowly my eyes were swollen. Then down my nose and lips and then into my neck.

We enjoyed the night in a blue taste.

"I really love you Mas.." I said slowly.