Not the Bride of Choice

Phone From Ferel

I couldn't sleep all night.

I was nervous and afraid to wait for the morning.

"What should I do? I'm not ready to face all this" I whispered softly in my heart.

It was heard from the family room the sound of a wall clock that signaled that it was now 4:00 am.

Slowly I get out of the room.

I packed some of my clothes and important things into a blue backpack.

I went out to the door and escaped to Mia's contract.

Knock on the door of Mia's rented house several times.

There was a sound of footsteps from inside the house

"who's outside? " ask Mia from the inside.

"I'm Mi... Ica" answered.

Mia immediately opened the door of her house and invited me inside.

"Why is it this early morning that you're here Ca?" ask her to me.

I answered her question and told her everything that had happened to me while crying.

Ica calmed me down by bringing me a glass of warm water.

"Go wash your face and rest. tomorrow morning we think of a way out together. OK? " he said to me again.

I nodded in agreement.

I threw my body next to Mia and turned her back to the wall. I was getting more restless considering it was about to be morning.

I took my phone and sent Mas Ali a message:

"Pardon Me, it turns out I can't handle all this. I let you marry Aisyah but I'm sorry I won't be able to see her. So I decided to leave. Say sorry to Mom and Dad and to your family. Sorry I let everything down."

And a message was sent.

After that, I turned off my phone so that no one could contact him.

"Thank you Mi, you are my best friend." I said to Mia.

"I'm leaving today, I want to go to Bukde and Pakdeku's place in the village to calm down.

Right now I need peace to think clearly" I told Mia again.

"I'll take you to the terminal before I leave for work" Mia told me. I nodded slowly.

I Ride the Bus to my father's hometown where Bukde and Pakdeku live.

My heart really hurts.

My tears don't stop dripping.

I looked straight out the window imagining my next days would be very heavy.

I arrived at Pakde and Bukde's house at 16:10 Wib.

Bukde welcomed me happily. While Pakde is still in the rice fields Bukde explained.

The next night after dinner we talked to three of them.

"Pardon Ica yes Pakde and Bukde, Ica so troublesome Pakde and Bukde. It took me a while to calm down here" I explained to them.

They returned me with a smile.

"Let's stay here as long as you want, Pakde and Bukde will never mind. But if Pakde may give advice, whatever your problem with the husband should be solved not his run away son" said Pakde advising.

"Later after feeling calm and have full strength, Ica must go home to solve all the problems that Pakde has." I said again to him.

He nodded and told me to go to the room to rest.

I stared at the ceiling of the room with my eyes.

It's all that's happened.

Why can everything be like this? it hurts so bad.

"I love you Mas.. I'm sorry Mas, I'm really not ready to share you with another woman even if it's my own sister. From the beginning of our marriage, I was indeed just a surrogate woman who took the position of Aisha in your life. And maybe now is the time for me to return that position to Aisyah as your companion. Because I'm not your bride of choice" I whispered in an unstoppable cry.