Ninth Month
The Past 2
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Buag... Buag....
The sound of Rayan punching the samsak rang out loud filling the silence of his penthouse. He wants to release all the pressure and pressure on today's events. All things raged in his mind, with sweat pouring Rayan staring at the poster of a girl printed large on the wall of his personal space.
Portrait of a woman whose long hair is gently unraveled against the backdrop of the afternoon dock. A glass of drink in front of him seemed to be steaming. Her jet-black pupils lead Rayan astray in longing whenever she looks at her charm. The girl's smile was so sweetly intoxicating, moreover Rayan knew the smile when this photo was taken was aimed at her. This is the last photo of their meeting before marriage. She's the girl who stole her heart, Intan.
"Muild... Where are you?" rayan's cry broke while muttering Intan's name softly. Although he was a strong young man, but he could not resist the sadness of his decision to play love. Like playing with fire, eating will burn. Now he is burned by his love for Intan. The fire of love that gnaws him from within.
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Rayan rushed to drive his vehicle at full speed. He just got word from his informant that his real father died. The man he hated for hurting his mistress had died. There was a slight smile on his lips. He had to watch the old fucker's funeral himself.
The father who had been considered dead had given up on his illness. Rayan didn't have to visit her father when she was sick. He just needs to go to his funeral.
The burial process was almost complete when Rayan arrived. He was just standing in the distance with black glasses and a neat suit. Doesn't your son look cool, inner Rayan scoffs.
But when the mourners were gone, Rayan could not move from her place. Stiffened in his memory are as great as the stories of his childhood and the simple happiness his father had made at the time. When his father taught him to ride a bike every afternoon after work, no matter how tired his body was just for the sake of his little Rayan. Dad was also waiting for her when she was sick, keeping her from sleeping. The father who was never absent read a fairy tale and accompanied him to sleep. All those little stories that were too ordinary even Rayan herself had forgotten them. The beautiful story has been covered by the cruel behavior of the father to his mother. At this moment the nostalgic shadow danced in his eyes. Until he could not hold his feet not to step into his father's navel.
Rayan stood on his feet when he reached the grave of his father who was still red. Tears began to fill his eyes. He took a deep breath, he didn't want to cry. Is not here he is happy to see the people he hates die forever.
This time Rayan questioned her own inner self. Was he really happy with his father's death or was he sad. It turned out that at this time Rayan knew she felt really sorry and grieved.
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After pecking for some time in silence, Rayan then crouched down tidying up the flowers scattered in his father's grave, he sighed deeply to strengthen his heart and then stepped away and passed. Rayan stepped towards her car with a raging mind, not realizing that someone was following her.
Rayan suddenly stopped his steps when he realized there was someone behind him through the reflection of his car glass, seen an old woman in a row walking towards him. Rayan was still glued. Although the image of his reflection was not clear, Rayan knew who was coming towards him.
"Son Yayan..." Call Bude Siti. Bude Siti is the older sister of his father.
"Is that really you?" Bude Siti's question made sure when Rayan did not answer her call.
Bude Siti is small and medium. Her face used to be very beautiful like Javanese women in general. But now that her beautiful face was getting older, her face was already filled with wrinkles and her posture was already slightly bent.
"How are you doing Bude Siti?" Rayan asked while remaining silent on the spot and only nodding politely. Rayan deliberately did not approach to shake hands and kiss the back of her Budenya hand.
The old Bude Siti did not see her nephew, only able to look at her niece with her myopic eyes. Bude Siti saw her nephew had grown to be very tall and handsome. There was a sense of sadness because Yayan not only hated his father but still hated him as well.
"Don't you still hate your father?" bude Siti asked when they were in the cafe not far from the cemetery.
Rayan could not answer just nod.
"Bude, I'm sorry I just told you this story. Bude is waiting for you to visit your father. However, Bude knew that could not happen. This story will help you forgive and not blame each other"
"This story was a long time before your Mom and Dad met. Actually, your mother used to have a lover, who was handsome, simple, and hardworking but from the common people. The man tried so hard to be worthy of your mother, but that wasn't enough for your mother's family. Finally, to separate your mother and her lover. At the beginning of the misunderstanding, one whispers to your mother that her lover has given up on her and is engaged to another rich girl. They say that the man did not really choose your mother out of love but out of treasure," Budhe Siti said with a long sigh, it seemed heavy for him to tell this.
Rayan looked carefully. Could be the lover of his mother who was meant was Pak Wibowo, Papa Intan.
"Of course your mother doesn't believe it right away. It turns out that the one who was seduced was not only your mother but also that man. Whispers reached her lover's ear that her mother gave up on this relationship and chose to accept an arranged marriage with another rich man. Of course your mother and the man didn't believe it right away. Eventually the two men decided to meet. It was just that the meeting time was changed by the servant delivering the message. As a result even though the two of them came but they could not meet. The man waited all night for your mother until morning and your mother did not come and your mother waited from morning until night but her lover also did not come. That was the end they both believed the rumor."
"The heartbroken man, finally found someone else. Your mother, who heard that man was married to another girl, was really depressed and went crazy. He was treated in hospital. Your father, who worked in a hospital, fell in love with your mother. He took care of your mother until she recovered and married her. Of course your mother's family allowed it, because to them your mother was like Aib family. In order to keep him away from bad influences, your father settled in a quiet area away from the hustle and bustle and you lived happily."
"The next catastrophe begins when someone tells you that your mother cheated on you. Your father doesn't believe you, he goes through your mother's past. But one time your father saw your mother and you got off a fancy car, Ema was still in the womb. Your possessive father with his love began to get angry and hurt your mother not to turn away. Bude who does not have the heart of your misfortune to try so that your mother can be separated from my sister. After you flew off like a bird out of its cage, the three of you disappeared."
"Your father finally regretted that after you left, for a second he was not tired of looking, he sought you out to the point of not caring about his health. He was very sick a few years before he died."
This story Rayan knows from his informant, for years his father spread leaflets missing people to look for them. Her father put a photo of her school trip on the poster. Ema is still in the womb, her father and mother are also young, Rayan himself is still very small. He himself cursed his father who was so foolish and naive, What after so many years the toddler on the poster still remains the same? How could his father find them with that poster?
"Son yayan..." Call Bude while holding Rayan's hand. "I can't force you to forgive your father. But I want you to know, your father really loves you guys," Bude concluded.
After her Budenya, Rayan really cried. He had long known his father's whereabouts but instead chose to stay away from him. Until he died, his father was still looking for them. Why is his life full of regrets? What karma is happening to him?
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