Ninth Month

Gestation

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"Tok tock... "

Intan was awakened by a knock on the door of his hotel room. With a step gontai Intan saw who was visiting. A hotel maid delivered a package for him. Although Intan could already guess what it contained but he kept it open as well. As expected, the package contained divorce papers. Seeing the divorce papers so quickly up to his hand. Intan asked inwardly, could it be that Mas Rayan had married her just to divorce her?

Intan's heart crumbled knowing that reality. Why would Mas Rayan take that to him? what's wrong all this time? Why was Mas Rayan soaked it on him. Now his heart was filled with disgust. The first night for him turned out to be just for toys. Only for the lustful. Could it be that he was a betting item, which was so obtained could be directly thrown away. Is he worth nothing to Rayan?

Intan walked weakly towards the bathroom. He turned on the shower with intense pressure and rubbed his body repeatedly until it went numb. He wants to remove all traces of Rayan's touch on his body. A red scar that was still slightly colored made his heart claustrophobic. Intan was crying bitterly under the water that soaked his body. He wishes all about Rayan disappearing with the water and going away from his life.

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Intan is still in her hotel room. He did not want to leave his room. Although Intan knew this room bill would swell, he didn't care. He just daydreamed and looked at the outside world from behind the glass. Sitting hugging her knees and listening to soothing music.

Actually Intan hopes that Rayan will come to pick him up. Said that Rayan had done something wrong and felt sorry. He will definitely forgive her, he still hopes a lot, he still wants to fight for his love, but whatever the power, struggling to wake up from heartbreak is so difficult, so difficult, imagining the impossible happening like Rayan picking him up is like building an empty wishful thinking.

Intan's routine is now just every day at the same hour, he will go out to the hotel cafe to enjoy a glass of tea in silence. No matter the hustle and bustle of people around him. There is not the slightest desire to have fun here, although the sky is bright and the sea looks beautiful blue, spending time on the beach may be able to vent his emotions, but he prefers to see it without enjoying it.

When you want to look for sitting in a cafe suddenly Intan felt dizzy. Spontaneous Intan held the table in front of him because the dizziness that came suddenly made his body slightly staggered. Lately he has felt his condition is not good. A cafe waiter who saw Intan almost fall down immediately asked him how he was worried.

"Are you okay ma'am?"

Intan just nodded, while twitching a little of his head.

"Let me take you to the clinic. There are medical professionals here who can make you better."

"No need, thank you. I'm doing fine. I was just lacking rest" Intan said as he got up from his seat about to return to his hotel room. But just a few steps, Intan had fallen along with the screams of the cafe waiter. He was already preparing to feel the rigors of the floor until someone swiftly caught him. Intan wants to see who's helping him, but darkness takes over everything first.

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Rayan did not understand why he had to return to the resort where his honeymoon. As if there is an impetus in his heart that can not be bargained, when in fact he is busy preparing for the wedding of his only puppet sister, but the shadow of Intan haunts him. The girl had not yet checked out from the hotel room where they had been staying. Rayan knows because of the hotel reservation on her behalf and Rayan still has not received a check out notification. It's been almost a month. Rayan wondered what Intan was doing? isn't that girl sick of being there. The room must have reminded me of that night. 

Rayan wears a mask to avoid meeting Intan suddenly. Sure enough, Rayan saw Intan walking towards him. He stayed in place, although he did not want to be recognized, but in his heart, Rayan hoped Intan to recognize him. So close, Rayan was astonished, the girl did not even see him when they were this close. Intan looked straight and didn't care about anything around him.

Rayan followed Intan from behind. The girl was wearing a white knee-length dress with a pretty floral motif. Diamond's hair in a ponytail. It was rare for Rayan to see Intan tying her hair. Rayan already understands Intan's habit of only tying her hair when she does not have time to tidy her hair. At this time, Intan's hair looks irregular. From behind it is clear that Intan is a bit thin, his body is getting slimmer, even though a month ago Intan is not this straight. Rayan sighed panjan, in his shadow, Intan was engrossed in having fun, shopping and walking like other women when he wanted to forget about problems, but his assumption was wrong. Intan must be very depressed so he did not dare to go back to Indonesia. Rumors of divorce were deliberately exhaled by Rayan, therefore, he gave a home address so that Intan could hide.

Rayan sat not far from Intan while observing the girl silently.

Intan ordered a cup of tea while pensive in his chair.

Intan drank her tea occasionally then looked back at the window blankly. His eyes are black and concave. No smile etched. His face was as sad as someone who bore heavy sorrow.

Rayan saw Intan suddenly holding her head. Sontak Rayan stood closer. Rayan forgot that she should not show up, she was too worried to think long.

A cafe waiter is seen offering Intan something but the girl refuses. Intan then left. However, just a few steps the girl immediately shrugged off. Rayan who was behind him swiftly caught Intan's body before falling onto the floor.

Rayan carried Intan following the instructions of the cafe waiter to the resort clinic. A female doctor greeted them. Doctor Charlotte, written on the pin of her shirt, instructed Rayan to lay Intan on the cot. Rayan sees the Doctor swiftly giving first aid. Rayan stood looking at the doctor. However, a nurse politely told him to wait outside the room.

Rayan waited while pacing. The cafe waiter also waited, it seems he was deliberately waiting to give information to the doctor later. A few minutes later the doctor came out.

"How's the doctor doing?" ask Rayan quickly.

"Are you a patient?" investigate Charlotte's doctor before answering. Protecting a patient's medical information is his responsibility as a doctor so that he is not that easy to inform.

Rayan was furious.it felt like she was glaring at the waiter because she just wanted to claim to be Intan's husband. Even though, claiming to be her husband, she has no proof. Doctor charlotte seems to understand.

"Patients experience psychic trauma as well as fatigue. He should get enough rest. It's gonna be a fucking kiss soon."

"Oh, thank goodness!" rayan replied at last. Rayan hesitates to see Intan or not. But eventually, undo it, not meeting each other is the best for her and for Intan. He then came out, he could not see Intan who was lying there. Although, he understood that it was a consequence of his revenge, seeing the girl so helpless made his heart ache. Rayan who intends to hurt the feelings of Pak Wibowo even felt his own heart hurt. Before leaving, Rayan asked the hotel receptionist to inform the Intan family in Indonesia. He didn't let the girl get sick alone here.

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Intan felt his head heavy. Try opening your eyes and looking around. It all feels foreign. Intan then tried to get up and he realized there was an infusion hose in his right hand. He must be at the health clinic.

Seeing the Whimpering Intan a doctor wearing a white coat came to him. Beautiful woman with blonde hair and looks young.

"How are you feeling?"

"Well, what happened to me doctor?" ask Intan.

The doctor then approached the side of the bed. Intan looked at the pin in front of the young doctor's suit, Charlotte said.

"Just tired and maybe a lot of pressure. Oia, when was the last time you had your period, ma'am...?"

"Intan" Intan said.

"Yes, when did you last menstruate Miss Diamond" repeated Dr. Charlotte.

"About a month ago," replied Intan confused why the doctor asked about it.

"Are you late this month?"

Intan remembered for a moment, apparently, yes. And Intan nodded in confirming.

"I want to confirm my guess Mrs Intan. I'd like you to do a urine test to see if this is pregnancy or fatigue before I prescribe."

Hearing the word pregnant diamond can only chuckle in the heart. It's not that easy to get pregnant. It took her parents 6 years to get her. His parents adopted Mas Eka. Intan only did it once. She was sure that she could not be pregnant. Even so, Intan still did the test. A nurse helped her remove the infusion and gave her a container. Once done, Intan returns the container to the nurse to do the test. She waited and talked with the doctor. Not long after, the nurse came to bring the results. Doctor Charlotte briefly looked at the file before telling Intan the results.

"Congratulations Madam Intan, you're pregnant" said Charlotte's doctor.

The deg! Like lightning in broad daylight, Intan was completely shocked to hear the results. Intan shook his head in disbelief. He never vomited or bothered in the morning. Intan feels no signs of pregnancy, Intan only feels dizzy occasionally. Doctor charlotte showed the two-striped test to Intan. Intan nodded in his chair.

"You should go to the obstetrician to check for certainty. You should also get more rest, I'll prescribe vitamins and medications to reduce excessive dizziness and nausea,"

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Intan could no longer remember what her doctor said. He walked straight to the beach. It was already night and the wind was blowing violently to play with her hair. He sat in the sand crying in silence. It turns out that not enough suffering is being a widow. Now she is a mother-to-be who will raise her child alone. What's he gonna do?

Intan cried bitterly. What does the father say later? Her father must be so embarrassed. Her son is now a widow who has conceived a baby. A baby born without a father.

Far behind Intan, Rayan looked at the crying Intan. I want it to feel like Rayan hugged the girl and drove her pain away but, whatever the power, this is her only way of getting revenge. The more sick Intan, the more sick for Mr. Wibowo. In fact, the pain will not be able to pay for his mother's suffering in a mental hospital. Rayan also passed away without knowing the big reality that could change his life.

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