Ninth Month

Intans

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"There's an urgent case that I have to deal with, as soon as it's over I'll go straight there" replied Dr. Randi from a phone connection. After hearing that Rayan immediately stepped out of Dr. Randi's office, if Rayan's arrival was to discuss the problem of his mother and hospital, just that the agreement with a doctor was certainly not always on time, just that, because the doctors always have something urgent to take precedence.

Waiting for Dr. Randi from his office is certainly boring, Rayan then went down to look for fresh air. The plan is to have dinner with Dr. Rayan. Randi but Rayan does not know when Dr. Randi is done with his duties so Rayan prefers dinner first.

The hospital canteen is quite crowded considering that it is currently dinner time. Cuisine in the hospital canteen will taste slightly different from conventional restaurants. So, Rayan chose the most common cuisine menu that tastes more or less the same for his tongue is fried rice. Although the taste of fried rice is different every restaurant but all fried rice is delicious for Rayan. It's clear because fried rice is his favorite dish.

Rayan finished her fried rice while looking around, there were so many tired faces there. Understandably, people who go to hospitals deal more with health problems, if not themselves, it could be the health of their loved ones. Health is everything, what is the meaning of rich treasure if his life must depend on treatment and medicine.

As soon as he was about to finish his fried rice Rayan found himself glued to someone very similar to Intan. This time is different from yesterday, if Rayan sees someone who looks like Intan, Rayan will turn her eyes and mutter in her heart if she is hallucinating. But not tonight.

The woman was wearing a light green hospital pajama whose outside was covered in a rather oversized white jacket standing up to buy a drink at the drink counter, although the jacket covered her body Rayan can still see her stomach bulging, for the sake of seeing the way she walked, Rayan estimates that the woman who looks very much like Intan is already in the third semester of pregnancy. It could be that the woman is in the hospital to give birth.

Rayan looked at the movements of the diamond-like woman with a sharp gaze describing each of her necks and juxtaposing with her version of memory Intan. Although different, Rayan's heart said they were the same person, especially when the woman brushed her short hair, just like the Intan she remembered. Intan never had short hair.

The woman passed her desk without paying attention around, Rayan's heart choked, it feels like she returned in the past Rayan left Intan during their honeymoon. Where at that time, Rayan was very close to Intan in the hotel cafe, Intan also passed by without paying attention to his surroundings. Without feeling Rayan set her foot following the woman. Seen a glass of drink in his left hand and his right hand occasionally holding his belly that bulged. The woman was limping, her stomach felt too big than usual pregnant women. Rayan was eager to lead him because she could not bear to see the woman walking limping.

Rayan followed the woman to the hospital garden, and then stopped under the dark shade of trees to disguise herself. The woman was sitting not far from Rayan hiding, strangely the woman chose to sit on a dim park bench, even though there was an empty bench near the lantern pole.

Rayan was quite close to the woman. However Rayan hesitates between approaching and making sure or waiting and noticing. The woman looked up at the sky. I don't know what's on his mind, to the point that when the night wind plays his hair, the woman doesn't pierce him in the least.

Suddenly Rayan's body shakes, the glass in her hand shakes and spills a little before she puts the glass on the bench next to him. The woman immediately covered her ears with her hands and began to cry. Even though in the dim Rayan could see clearly the tears that shone on the cheeks of the woman. Rayan could feel a heart-slicing glare. Sadness that is heartbreaking for anyone who sees it, not least Rayan.

The woman wiped her tears with her right hand and one more hand was placed on her stomach, the woman stroked her distended stomach while crying bitterly without making a sound. Rayan could not help but take her eyes off. His memory returns when he sees Intan crying alone on the beach sand where their honeymoon. Rayan could not deny. Although the figure of Intan at that time and this pregnant woman looks different but Rayan believes the woman sitting on the bench of this park is Intan, Intan lover, adoration of his heart, someone who has stolen his heart.

Rayan walked slowly towards the woman sitting down. The closer the more visible Intanya traits in the woman. There was a mole on the end of her left eye, just like the Intan, the woman also wore earrings with pearls of blue color exactly as Rayan gave Intan.

Rayan could no longer mention the details of Intan in his memory, painful if you have to remember Intan in the past if in front of him now is Intan. Even though his love is not the same. Even though his stomach was bulging out of whomever he belonged to, he did not care anymore. To him, Intan is still his Intan, his, his lover.

Rayan could only mutter calling Intan's name with her mouth trembling while limping to strengthen herself to meet the people she missed so much.

"Continent ... Intans... Intan..."

Rayan knelt in front of Intan. Rayan's hand shook with the turmoil in her chest when she had to meet Intan like this. He never expected to see Intan crying. Once Rayan wanted to see her beloved smiling happily.

Rayan looked up at Intan who was still crying. Even his crying became more and more when the eyes of the two lovebirds were clashing with each other, Rayan rubbed the remaining tears on Intan's cheeks gently. It was impossible for his heart to see Intan's tears. He was eager to kiss Intan to stop his crying but Rayan held back and could only touch the face in front of him which seemed like a dream.

"I miss you Mas Rayan." said Intan in between sobs.

Rayan closed her eyes permeating Intan's voice. Record it in memory. How Rayan misses this call, how in her deepest dreams, Rayan repeatedly wants Intan to say that he is still missed.

Intan then hugged Rayan tightly as if she no longer wanted to separate. Rayan rubbed Intan's back hoping to reduce Intan's sobs, but Rayan's hand immediately stopped when she heard Intan's words.

"Bring me away from here, Mas. Save us. Save me and our son"

Intan's words are like lightning that strikes in broad daylight when he hears that the baby in the womb Intan is his flesh blood, Rayan immediately cries. His cry was no less loud than Intan. Apparently on their first night, Rayan had left her seed of love to Intan. Although Rayan has hurt Intan, but Intan still takes care of the fruit of their love lovingly.

Now it is clear to Rayan why Intan was thrown out of the house. Apparently Intan prefers to keep the fruit of his love. Rayan could no longer imagine how cruel her treatment was to Intan. How evil he used to be. Not for mr. wibowo but all impact on Intan and his son.

Rayan realized how he had abandoned his wife and prospective baby. Although it is not too late to fix it, what he does is very bad. He was a bad father. He wept between regret and happiness.

Thank you, Lord, for still giving me the chance to meet them. Thank you for still giving me the opportunity to atone for this sin, Rayan's mind is full of gratitude.

"I'm sorry for all this time Intan," said Rayan stammered, her voice sounding stingy from crying. He always tried hard, but this fact really sliced his heart.

"I promise to take care of you and our son. I will not release you again no matter what happens, I will atone for all my sins. I still love you, Intan. I can't live without you. I also miss you so much," Rayan cried when she admitted how Intan is still the owner of the room in her heart.

Intan stopped his embrace and looked at Rayan. With his hand Intan wiped away the tears in Rayan's cheeks. His heart ached when he knew that all this time they loved each other. And it's wrong to stay away from Rayan without telling. However, God is Most Just, He gives them time to mutual self-introspection for their selfish attitude, God has made them realize to appreciate the gift God has given them.

Rayan still remains the same as last Intan saw her. It's just different from Intan who is getting fatter because of her pregnancy. Rayan getting here looks more and more taper. Intan can still see the rest of the sadness that still looms in Rayan's eyes.

Intan wants to erase that sadness.

Intan is powerless to land his kiss in Rayan's lips. Rayan could only be transfixed, a little surprised Intan kissed him. But just for a moment, Rayan had kissed Intan deeply and long. It was as if he was letting go of his desire all along. The kiss, which represents his longing, represents his love and represents a new leaf that stretches for them. Blessed love.

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