
I'm far from sanity, why I enjoy it.
"Damn, now you win Pras, I give up, do whatever you want" my mind resigned in Prasetyo stimulation.
Prasetyo stopped suddenly, I was surprised, but I enjoyed it.
"Are you hungry?"
"yes" he got out of bed and went out. Not long after he was back in the room. But this time did not continue the action, maybe he was disappointed, because I just resigned like a banana hedgehog. He needs a fight.
I'm still stiff. When it comes to bed, I can say I am very innocent and innocent. But about everything else, I'm better and better than him. I think he understood my thoughts, the atmosphere was frozen, stiff as nails. He began to invite me to chat nggalor ngidul, ngetan ngulon, in interspersed with silly words, which made me a little relaxed and could already smile to see his silly behavior. He told me to take a shower, he said I smelled bad. Well, dare to tell him to me, every day I am a candidate for beauty for body care, but that was before. The atmosphere was warm and melting, there was no awkward or stiff feeling to me, instead I enjoyed this togetherness. True said the saying, "Unknown then not dear, if it is dear do not leave."
Prasetyo continued to chatter, many naughty words were thrown, I cut it from the bathroom, smiling amusedly. Out of the bathroom, I saw two servings of fried rice and a cold drink. Prasetyo's eyes were round, burning with flames of romance when he saw that my body was wrapped in a thick sheet of water-absorbing cloth. Towels.
"Can I do it now?"
Deg... so fast? my heart skipped a beat, Prasetyo said asking for his ration according to our agreement. Without cue or command, Prasetyo carried me to the bed, Like me, I felt Prasetyo also his heart rumbled, his eyes reddened with heat. I still can't believe that my virginity will be taken away by her, a man with a family. I'm still not sincere, the crown that I've been guarding all this time is taken by a man, who I think is very perverted. I do not want the honor that I maintain now in the ruins of a brengshyek boy, whom I have been humbling and despising. But, what can I do? I'm helpless, it's of my own accord. Now I'm embarrassing myself, now I'm humiliating myself. And, this heart wound, this shame, this contemptible disgrace, I will carry it all my life.
"BIGMAAAAAKKK!!" my cry was jolted in shock, something broke into my body, instantly collapsed was my fortress, collapsed was my future. What I felt was not like my heart. Hot melt spring, flowing gently wet the eye fertilizer. The world seemed to mock me, - whichever Viska used to be, who was always a pretentious and arrogant whore of the heavens - I closed my eyes tightly, I was so ashamed, I hope this is just a dream, I hope this is a dream, which will soon disappear when I wake up. But unfortunately this is not a dream, this is the reality of life that I am living right now.
"Ohhhh!" for the second time I gasped in shock, something exploded violently, a powerful burst into the body. Which I don't want, but it's gonna happen. A strong spray, which requires me to grip the bed linen firmly. Thus with Prasetyo, the sound of bellowing ended the dance Prasetyo. Our bodies are still stuck together, Pras's sweat drips on my body, our breaths go on hunting fast. Tiredness is replaced by pleasure. I still hope, hopefully this is just a dream, I don't want to accept this reality. Until finally I slept in the deck Prasetyo, which has now fully mastered my body.
My heart wounds myself down on the way home, my bones crumpled.
"He's a human or a robot! sampe battered like my body" murmured to myself. So beringas kayak kaambet.
"Good down and down to four times, is he not tired huh? I just, which just collapsed, felt lilu all my bones" hiss did not believe, but I experienced it myself. Sorry, definitely. How else, it all happened. Like rice has become porridge.
"Where's Vis? this afternoon just came home" I just stepped foot, ignoring Mamak's question that was sweeping the yard. My tears are no longer able I can stand, feel tight on the chest. Until the room, I lay down on the pillow, my tears scattered out, I was as reluctant to lament my fate, I wanted to scream as loud as possible, so that relief could release the sensation on the chest.
I don't know how long I've been crying, I don't know how many litres of tears I've shed. Until the sound of knocking on the door of the room was heard, not just once, but repeatedly Mamak knocked and called my name.
"Why are you, son? you're crying?" After I opened the door, my mother followed me sitting on the edge of my bed. Like I'm worried about myself, I haven't been out of my room yet.
"It's mak! Mama needs it, right?" Mamak confused and surprised, I put the money that Prasetyo gave to mamak. Mama just fell silent.
"i sold my body, Mommy! I had to do this, because my mother always pressured me. Because I'm the first child, I have to help the family economy, right Mak? since I have come out of your womb, I must serve and obey all your commands. Is it Mak? the holiness that I have been keeping with my life, now only in exchange for these sheets of paper mak!" I put money on my mother's lap, I covered my face with my palms, my sobs became more and more.
"Say Mom, what else do I do tomorrow? hang out at the crossroads, or find a customer who will sleep with me! that way, Mamak will easily scoop the rupiah coffers. I've ruined Mak! tell Mak! let me be crushed. huuuu" Mamak grabbed my shoulder, then hugged me with a guilty feeling.
"Sorry Mamak son, I'm guilty of you" said the apology, sobbing Mamak, didn't change my situation. I was still in Mamak's arms, slowly letting go of Mamak's arms.
"Already Mak, everything has happened, there is no need to regret"
"again, I'm sorry Mamak ya Vis" Mamak held my hand, pleading with me to forgive him. Who would have seen his parents suffer, maybe this is just a trial for my family.
"Yes Mak, I'm tired Mak, I want to rest first"
"but you haven't eaten yet, will you get it?" I agree with Mamak's words.
A week, two weeks passed. Since that incident, every time I went to work, I went the other way not through the front of Prasetyo's house. I was ashamed of him a few times he sent a message, I didn't ignore it. Until one day I suddenly did not feel well, my head was a little dizzy, my body had a little fever.
"hukk,huikk"
"why are you Vis?"
"don't know Mama"
"are you sick?" Mamak saw me vomiting in the bathroom, rushed up to me and his hand was stuck to my forehead.
"you've had your period yet Vis?"
"not yet Mak, it should have been ten days ago"
"you're pregnant Vis"
Mamak's statement made me stupefied in disbelief, impossible, this cannot happen. I have a fiancee, I'm not married either. How could I be pregnant! this must be the seed of that damn Prasetyo. I squeezed my head mad, feeling more and more dizzy. I have to find Prasetyo as soon as possible, this I can't let go for long. It was as if I planted a seed in my womb. Just watch if I meet, I'll twist his head.