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Rayshaka Confession.

Kaina's PoV

I know this isn't true. Sleeping with the opposite sex who is not a husband is a forbidden sin both legally and religiously. I'm actually nervous, even though we've done it once, at a gathering a long time ago. But this time it was more difficult. My mind drifted out of the house. My paranoid appeared imagining that a neighbor had seen Ray come in here and never come out.

Ray was already sitting on the front sofa when I finished taking a shower. He watched his phone so closely that he did not notice my arrival.

"Ray," I called him, and he turned his head. In my hand there were two glasses of warm ginger milk which I then poured one on him.

"Thank you. You're done bathing apparently. Here," Ray patted next to him. I'm shaking. He'll kiss me again. I was full of her kiss.

"here. I told you not to go away from me anymore" Ray looked at me furiously.

"What the hell ? Very sentimental," I mengedumel but still obey his orders. I'm a real jerk.

Now he smiles broadly.

"Tomorrow, after a short time, I will go straight back to Bandung. We'll be LDR-an after this. You ready?"

"Who is what?" I'm a hypocrite, pretending to be innocent.

Ray then rubbed my face again, but didn't kiss me.

"Do I need to label that you're mine now?"

My face is flushed. Said his?

"Do I want to?" my challenge is courageous.

"Will you play hide and seek?" again his face turned hard. Suddenly serious. Scared me.

"But you haven't asked me to date officially" I replied timidly.

Ray suddenly flicked his finger at my forehead, making me scream in pain.

"Are you a Junior High kid who needs to be shot that way?"

I pushed his body away from me, and then I shifted the distance.

"Yes. But ... I'm afraid of heartbreak again if I'm too confident .. as I used to."

My words made the atmosphere quiet. Ray's gaze turned soft. I don't know what's on his mind. But I'm not afraid my words will offend him because he knows it's true.

"Here .." the man spoke softly, then wanted to pull my hand gently. I couldn't resist. He's too charming.

He made me sit on his lap.

"Listen to me carefully and don't cut my conversation."

What's he gonna talk to? Looks like it's going to be long. And should I sit on her thigh like this? Face to face anyway. It feels so perverted.

"I and Silvi were betrothed. At first you and I were not close. Still like a mortal enemy. I don't mind being betrothed because Silvi, hmm, she's not bad. When I found Sivi cheating on me, I was sad that I had started to open up to her. And then we got close. I'm starting to falter because I'm comfortable with you. I need you like I need oxygen. Until I'm far from you, I'm crazy. Especially when we kissed on the toilet and in the gathering at that time. At that time I was sure that I had moved on from Silvi."

Ray took a breath for a moment.

"Then you go to the hospital. I'm depressed. Can't be by your side because it collides with the Nirvana project. Your two weeks at Cisarua Hospital were a very torturous time for me. Then suddenly my mother called. Asking Silvi and I to come back. I obviously refused, because I already had you."

....

"But mama said that matchmaking has become the conversation of many of their business colleagues. If it's canceled, my mom and dad will be embarrassed. Inevitably I was forced to return to Silvi. I know I'm not the only one suffering here. You will suffer too. Therefore, I deliberately wanted to make you hate me and stay away from me by taking Silvi to the Hospital with me at that time."

I felt my heart begin to be affected by Ray's speech. My heart rate is starting to get abnormal.

"But instead of trying to make you jealous, I found myself furious when Hans visited you at the hospital the same day. I was devastated to see the ex who betrayed you as he hugged and kissed you on the forehead. I'm so mad. But I also have no right to ban you, because I know you need someone after I leave."

....

"I've convinced myself that this is the best way. You go back to Hans, I go back to Silvi for the sake of family. I made it seem as if I loved Silvi so much. Every day discuss Silvi to you, until you get bored. I know you are sad and heartbroken. But even then I was heartbroken. You're avoiding me. Always refuse a return home offer. No longer willing to join me in the room, always go to another room. I was sick when you avoided. But that's what I want."

....

Unknowingly my tears were dripping, but I quickly wiped them with the back of my hand.

"Time goes by so quickly, that you suddenly resign without my knowledge. Mr. Sebastian deliberately hid it because he knew you had suffered so much because of me. I'm shock. I feel a sense of deflection. I was too busy torturing you to forget that you also have a limit to face everything. That's why that night I came to your house to apologize."

....

"After you go .. I'm looking for new sales and telemarketing. For one week they train with me. After I was able to get rid of them, Sebastian called me to discuss the matter about you and Ferdi. He told me all his observations. Long story short I know if Ferdi ever intended to cheat me in Nirvana. Then I discovered the fact that Ferdi was going to poison me, working with Fany. But Fany wants to poison you. You know everyone's taking a risk by taking my drink."

Ray made my memory go back to the bitter times I had forgotten. My tears escaped from the dispute.

"I was devastated to learn that fact. I can't forgive myself. Moreover, I still have the heart to hurt you after that. I felt sinful and did not know myself to have released the girl who was willing to sacrifice herself for my sake. The girl who didn't care if it could be that the poison would damage her stomach completely. I'm looking for you to the lake. Want to bring you back into my life. But said the employee at your house, you've been to Jakarta with Hans."

....

"I have found no answer to your existence. Everyone I thought could help, didn't know where you were. I finally decided to be honest with my mother, if me and Silvi could not continue. I told my mom about you and I promised myself I'd wait for you to come back. Or rather, waiting for God to grant my prayers to bring us back together."

I rubbed my face with my wet hands.

"So, Kaina .. because God has reunited us. I'm not letting you go again. Fuck the love speech. Because if it's any certainty you want, I can marry you tomorrow and tie you to my name immediately."

I heard the man's last words. He's not kidding at all. I know her face suit when she's serious and she's in that mode right now. I admit I'm a little flattered.

"You?"

I quickly shook my head. It is impossible and unreasonable.

"But want LDR?" he continued while drying my face with his wide palm.

The way to ask a date is quite strange. But LDR Bandung - Bekasi is not too bad.

"Do I have a choice?" finally answered. Even without my consent, he would still chase me down to the ant hole. Like he said just now, he won't let me go right ?

"good. Here hug first," she pulled my body so that it fell in her arms. I again felt an immeasurable warmth. My heart that was frozen for two years was like melting every time it was with him.

"I love you" he whispered softly in my ear, followed by an old kiss on the crown. My fur stands. The words I never imagined I would hear from a man named Rayshaka, the man whose name I've always called in my prayers all these years.

"I love you, Ray .. "reply me. Almost helpless.

"I know darling ...."

*****

After Ray hugged me for a long time, I let go. We continued to talk in a normal sitting position.

Now I feel like there's something different about the two of us half an hour ago. Ray's detailed confession about our past made me very relieved. Relieved to know that my love did not clap one hand. Maybe because we just haven't had time together.

I'm also relieved to know that Ray didn't miss a single important line from the events of that time. I salute enough to hear Mr. Sebastian's analysis that managed to bring them to all the hidden facts.

Now I apologize to Ray for our bitter past. I admit, a little bit of everything became complicated because of my childish nature who chose to just leave, then hide from everyone. It made us suffer for too long, for two years.

"It's okay, baby. It is precisely this long time that has made me more ready again such as God suddenly brings us together. Like I said, if you want us to get married tomorrow, I'm ready."

I blinked my eyes and swallowed.

"Yes yes .. I believe. But can you not scare me like that?"

"Hahahaha .. Why should I be afraid? Sooner or later you'll marry me."

I shudder. Be married? Tomorrow then? No way's. But I have to say again, I'm flattered when he dared to promise me a definite future. It is not just an ordinary relationship that will end again.

Weddings.

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