My Super Cool Boss's

Regrets that either mean something or not.

Rayshaka's PoV

I'm out of words.

How could I be this stupid?

How do I not know if anyone has ever risked his life for me?

How could my dark eyes vent my anger on him just because of my momentary jealousy?

How could I make her hurt and cry like that?

Kainac... Where are you?

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Author's PoV

Rayshaka drove his car to break up the heavy traffic in Bandung. This morning he had to race to the tollgate that would take him to Tasikmalaya.

As if understanding Ray's current needs, Sebastian sends him a sales visit to the Tasikmalaya area. If possible, to meet Kaina. Based on the information obtained from Rosa, Kaina has returned to her hometown and helped her mother's business there. Sebastian has sent an important message that Rayshaka must deliver to Kaina.

Ray's long journey takes about four hours. At least he did not feel tired, even he did not stop at the rest area to be able to meet Kaina as soon as possible.

Rayshaka did not understand what was on his mind at the moment. Today he and Silvi had an appointment for a suit and kebaya fittings, and Sebastian had allowed him to leave long ago. But right now, Kaina seems more important to find. Although actually Rayshaka is still awkward if he has to be faced with Kaina.

He still can't forget his last night when he meets Kaina at his boarding house. The girl ignored him. Not giving him a chance to apologize. Though Ray knew exactly, the girl was hurt with her own attitude. Kaina could not possibly intend to disappoint him. Kaina only chooses to protect herself from deeper pain if she has to open her heart to the man.

Rayshaka stopped in front of a simple house with a spacious courtyard. Based on the information he retrieved from the office employee database, this was Kaina's residence.

From inside the car Ray watches around him. The housing complex is not too crowded. The door of the house that was in front of him was also closed and there seemed to be no crowd heard from inside there.

Ray shuts off the car engine and goes down slowly. In a matter of seconds he took a strong breath to calm an unreasonable heartbeat. He stepped foot into the yard of the house and treaded on the porch carefully.

Ray knocked slowly three times.

There is no lawfulness.

He repeated it again.

From inside then came the sound of creaking slow steps.

Chequek. Door opens. A middle-aged woman poked her head from inside.

"Who are you looking for?" tanyanya slow.

"Good day, Mom. Sorry, is this really Kaina Larasati's house?"

"Oh right. Where are you from?"

Rayshaka involuntarily breathed a sigh of relief.

"I'm Kaina's friend from Bandung. Kaina's mother, huh?"

"No, I'm an employee here. It just so happens that everything's not home, sir."

Rayshaka nodded, she remembered Kaina's story about her mother and sister's taylor effort.

"Oh, if Non Kaina has not been here for a long time, sir. When is the day to come home from Bandung, but tomorrow it is directly to Jakarta. With his girlfriend, what's his name ... Oh, Hans, huh?"

Something as hard as pounding Ray's heart all of a sudden. Hans.

"Oh yeah, ma'am." he's out of words.

"Yes, Sir. You got a message to Non Kaina? I will tell Mom later, so that Mother conveys to Non Kaina. I don't have his cell phone number."

"Oh, no need, ma'am. I just happened to be on a job visit here. If I have time, I will play again."

"Oh, fine, sir."

"I'm saying yes, Mom. Let's..."

Ray stepped back into the car with a spirit that had evaporated without a trace.

He didn't run his car for ten minutes. Create your own imagination about Kaina and Hans who are together in Jakarta.

Ah yes ... remembering the name of the man makes Rayshaka repeat his old memory. He recalled the root of his quarrel with Kaina back then. Everything was no more just because of his unwarranted jealousy upon seeing Hans hug Kaina in the cinema that time. Though at that time he was holding Silvi in his grasp.

But, wait a minute. Not ...it wasn't the first time Ray was jealous of seeing Hans hug the girl.

There was a moment before that.

Yes ... when Kaina was still hospitalized. It was the first time Ray had met Silvi with Kaina. Ray has not forgotten the moment when he delivered Silvi to the parking lot because his lover wanted to go home first.

Upon her return to Kaina's room, she finds Kaina being hugged by someone, who makes her steps stop and breaks into the room. Hans. He memorized that figure.

Ray sees how Hans hugs and kisses the sobbing crying Kaina. After Kaina's cry subsided, they continued to joke, Kaina's face was very sparkling and could laugh freely with Hans, the man who was as fond as Ray had hurt her.

Ray concludes that Kaina and Hans are getting better and dating again. It was successful in making Rayshaka's heart hot and turned to leave the door of Kaina's room.

Some time later, they were accidentally reunited when he and Silvi were queuing to buy tickets to watch in the cinema of one of the malls. For the first time Ray watched with a mind that was not focused on the screen, but on a pair of people sitting next to his lover Silvi. Hans and Kaina.

That was the beginning of Ray's anger towards Kaina. She doesn't accept it because the girl easily accepts Hans back after secretly getting engaged to someone else. For Ray, Kaina is very stupid, weak and inconsistent. He promised not to go back to the man. Ray feels his efforts to help Kaina when she is down like a waste.

Instead of discussing it directly with Kaina, Rayshaka instead makes a silent act that he realizes is very childish. He hoped that Kaina understood the meaning of his anger which without her knowing it hurt the girl so deeply.

Kaina turned away from him, retaliating. There was no more tenderness, joy that a Kaina should have.

Kaina turned around to hate him. To the point of not accepting his visit that night.

Unknowingly, the flashback made Rayshaka's eyes slightly teary. Hope is dashed. Now his heart is getting hurt especially after knowing Kaina's sacrifice for him.

Rayshaka closed both of her eyes. Recalling the sweetness of the pseudo-story he had knitted with his work partner.

He never thought, a Kaina, telemarketing who works always wrong and upset him, one day it makes him dependent, can not miss a day without disturbing the peace of the girl. Making the girl pout, in pain, grimace was a happiness that Rayshaka could not describe.

Kaina's attention to him both in small things always managed to make Rayshaka amazed, not expecting the girl he previously considered annoying to be able to make himself dependent.

Rashhaka longs for the way they signal that they need each other through touch, sharing warmth through hugs and kisses.

Ray missed the girl.

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