My Shoes My Love

25. Really Lost

When she found out that her mother was dead, Sheila immediately contacted her father who was still working. Sheila starts picking up her phone on the nightstand and soon searches for her father's name.

Tut. tut's..

📱"Assalamualaikum son."

📱 "Waalaikumsalam yah."

📱 "Mother well, mother is dead."

📱 "What? That's impossible, then I'll be there soon."

After the call ended Sheila immediately hung up. It feels powerless to see our loved ones gone forever. Sheila now has no one but her father.

Like it had fallen on the stairs anyway, that's what Sheila experienced. Not long ago broke up with Agam, now Sheila must lose her mother for good. Not many words came out of Sheila's mouth.

He can only cry. After being calm enough, Sheila immediately took ablution water and immediately took the Quran to teach yasin. Although in the middle of Sheila sobbed but she continued reading it.

The whole family and relatives began to arrive.

"Patient Sheila, everything that happens by God's will. This must have been the best way," said one of the brothers who tried to calm Sheila while sitting next to her mother.

Again, only tears came out. There was no answer from Sheila's mouth. His mouth felt locked and his chest felt so tight.

A few hours later, Sheila's father arrived. After all gathered the body that has been in the bath and prayer will immediately be taken to the final resting place.

The body of the Goddess was brought to the family tomb which was located in the middle of rice fields. His grave was also next to his son who had died a few years ago.

Maybe for the Goddess, she felt happy because she could meet her dead child. Not with Sheila. During the funeral, she kept crying.

And her husband felt so lost. The one he loved left first. Though yesterday Hermawan has seen if his wife looks healthier.

But once it is fate, we never know what will happen to our lives tomorrow.

"May be calm in nature there ma'am. May Allah forgive your sins and put you in the best place" murmured the recently finished Hermawan.

After being buried, the event continued by praying for the body led by one of the oustads.

A few minutes later, the funeral was finally over.

The whole family and neighbors who took the delivery began to go one by one. But Sheila still wants to be in her mother's navel.

"Mom, why would you leave me alone. I love mom very much. Now there will be no one who will love me like my mother" Sheila said, still in tears.

"Here son, patient. Your mother has calmed down in nature" said the father, hugging his son.

Sheila was crying in her father's arms. His tears seemed to be endless to let out.

There was no answer from Sheila's mouth, but she obeyed her father's words. Sheila and her father after there was no one else at the funeral. Arriving at Sheila's house still couldn't stop crying.

It feels so heavy today. Losing a mother is the hardest thing in life. Likewise with Grandma Widuri who felt very lost. Widuri also continued to cry for her daughter.

Though all this time the Goddess was a good child and never demanded anything. From the results of his efforts while working, Dewi has a house that is quite simple. It is simple but the house is very comfortable.

"You just stay here with grandma son" said Widuri a few days later.

"Can't be granny, I have to go to school. Besides, my school is also in order soon" Sheila added.

"Yes already then, later if you have graduated just stay here huh!" timpal grandma again.

"God willing, how will you! Then I have to go home, Grandma, because it's been a few days not going to school" Sheila said.

"Yes, be careful on the road! Sorry grandma can't take you home" said the grandmother.

"It's okay, grandma" Sheila said, starting to leave her grandmother's house.

Actually, Widuri did not have the heart to see the departure of her grandson. Now he has to live only with his father. But Widuri also could do nothing but pray for him.

A few hours later, Sheila arrived at her home. Arriving at home somehow feels so different. Looks like there's less. Sheila began to feel sad again at home.

Memories with her mother that made Sheila cry again. Sheila still can't believe her mother is leaving so soon. Even Sheila never imagined it would be like losing a mother.

The next day Sheila started going back to school. It felt very different when her mother was still around. No one is preparing breakfast anymore. Now there is no more conversation in the morning as usual which is always crowded.

Although there is still a father but it feels very different. A father tends to be indifferent and indifferent. There is no warmth like a mother. Sheila left without breakfast first.

Arriving at school some friends immediately approached Sheila because it had not entered school for several days. Some of my friends say condolences.

"Patiently, Sheila, you can definitely get through this" said Rose who immediately hugged Sheila.

"Yes Roses, thank you very much huh," Sheila's not so sad.

While from a distance Agam noticed Sheila. Actually he wants to be a solace in times like these. Agam wanted to be able to comfort her and make Sheila smile but it felt very unlikely.

Since parting ways with Sheila, a few days later, Agam was married to Vanes. Although Agam initially said it was impossible but in fact now they are in love.

"I'm sorry Sheila, I can't be in moments like this" murmured inner Agam who saw Sheila from a distance.

Unlike usual Sheila now looks more shy. Even Sheila who was usually cheerful and active, now became more quiet. Like a bird that has 2 wings, now the wings are only 1.

Since losing her mother, Sheila has been unable to laugh. Something was blocking his smile. It was a hard thing for Sheila.

Sheila really felt a very deep sorrow. I don't know when this grief will end and Sheila will be able to smile again. The days are clearly painful now. Even Sheila always cried after she finished praying.