My Past Stories

32. Continue to live (new)

Say something that will make me excited to live my life in the future. Promise me happiness at the end of a beautiful story in every line of my grief.

Lord. Just one door, happy him. Blessed are my two little angels whom You have shed with my tears.

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Trying to rise up, trying to make peace with fate and heart, trying to make everything ordinary. It was a hard struggle that I went through.

Now, after days, weeks and even months. I try to give my most beautiful smile to those who really love me, to those who are always there when I am sad.

"So when do you want to open your heart to Antoni ? As for him, this is the umpteenth time he's rejected !"

I fell silent not answering Rini's question which confused me so much.

"Why did diem ?" Ask me again.

"Gue doesn't know Rin. I still believe !"

"What makes you not sure about Des ? You know for several years he always and always succumbed for your happiness, until he willingly married Bunga because you asked. Though you know, if his heart only for lo, lo and lo. Even though he only considers the Flower rich, but he tried to make the Flowers happy and all for the sake of Lo Des !"

I can't answer.

What's he got to me ? Why I was blind all this time.

"Lo thought well of what I said Des. And I hope you can accept Antoni this time !"

Rini went to her room, and I still felt at home digesting everything.

"Not that I'm not sure of Antoni's love, Rin. But I'm not sure same myself what can I love me to him !"

"Dec. Why are you ?"

"Eh.. Mom ! Gapapa. Here ma'am, let Desi bring Adara to the room."

My mother just nodded and I immediately took Adara into my sling and brought her into the room. But in the room I lie down and think about what Rini said.

"What's this fast ?" Inner asked.

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"Why Des ?"

"Jay, at your place of employment is there a vacancy ?"

"Make it now there is no Des. But then I'll tell you again to lo ya !"

"Jay Gapapa. Thanks for before."

"Look easy. Rich as anyone. Later will find info also deh to the children, only time where they work again open lockers yes."

"Okay Jay. Thanks again, yes."

I also hung up my phone call with Jaya.

Not because my savings were up, but because I couldn't possibly just hope with the money Dillah sent. While not only Azka and Adara, but I also have needs for myself until I think to work.

Nor do I have the heart with Adara who still needs me with his age that has not even a year, but what is my day which is now a single parent.

"Well, what ?" Rini asked me who went straight into the room because my door was open.

I'm shaking. "Not yet my sustenance !" My solute.

"That's patient. It's still Dara's kasian, Des. He's still an ASI !"

"Yes. I'm also not in a hurry, my savings are still enough for the next two years. The tuition is also still covered by Dillah, Rin !"

"Front of the wind, let your brain fresh gabebul !"

"Damn lo !"

"Haha"

"Oh yes. He said he wanted a reunion for the kids ?"

"Dad next week. Come with me, be with me !"

"Let's go. The kids must also understand your situation. Not lo doang ko, there are also some who fared the same. One of them is Antoni !"

"Different he mah, lah if I am cerei 'live."

"There is alesan. There's no rame !"

"Uukkh.. Yes, I am coming. Uh, where's Alesha ?"

"Sleep too. That's why I'm relaxed !"

"oh.."

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Week pass. Now is the day I can't wait to arrive. Gather in one of the cafes that has become my classmate's choice to do a reunion. I lazily polish my face with powder, lipstick and mascara and slightly polish the blush-on so that my face does not look pale.

I turned my body which now looks skinny. I used short-sleeved t-shirts inserted and long jeans as well as sneakers. The hair I let break.

"Dec. You're finished yet ?" Shouted Rini from outside my room.

"In the meantime, I'll change Azka's clothes first !" My heart while changing Azka's clothes.

"Where are you going Mi ?" Ask Azka. "You're meeting Mimi and Aunt Rini, too. Azka can't be naughty, baby."

Azka nodded in understanding. He combed his hair which began to look long. He put on his favorite shoes, and then took his puffer bag that I had filled with some snacks for him later. Although I will definitely be there to free Azka to eat anything.

"Mom, sign Adara. Desi's leaving." My words kissed the back of my mother's hand and kissed the cheek of Adara's puffer who woke up.

"Azka don't be naughty, take care of Alesha !" Said my mother as Azka kissed the back of her hand. "yes grandma !" Legally.

Alva drove her car slowly, we waited for some of our friends who had invited her to leave together. Alva then drove back to the cafe.

Arriving there, Azka was immediately greeted by Jaya. Yes, indeed Azka began to be close to Jaya, Antoni, Adi and Sharif. Because they always took the time to come to visit my house just to ask for news.

"Udah Jay, you already pantes so the fathers. What are you waiting for try again ?" He mocked Jaya who is not married yet, even though she is 28 years old. A year older than me.

"Later Des, there's a ballom that fits. Let's go in. Come on bang !" he told me and immediately took Alva into the cafe.

Apparently there are already several people, one of them Lia and Maya. Rini and I immediately hugged Lia and Maya, followed by some of our female friends.

"It's very different to. Pangling I see God !" Said Rini paying attention to some of our friends.

"Lo is also more beautiful Rin. What else is Desi tuh, the more ouchai aja !"

"Gue Mah has always been a saucy." Smugly Sahutku.

"But baby I can't have !"

We looked at the source of the voice.

"Acie's cie.." Excited all the friends when they saw Antoni who was carrying Kania.

"Ante." Greet Kania to me, and I immediately carry Kania.

"Suit both of you. It's just been made !" Celtuk Syarif is behind Antoni.

"I want that anyway. But he's the one who doesn't want to !"

"You need to start. I just saw this again." Sahutku upset. "Azka, try grabbing a box of milk for Kania here !"

Azka gave me her bag and I immediately took the milk box that I handed to Azka, Kania and Alesha. (Alesha same age Kania yes, only a few months different doang!)

Azka looks happy when I take down Kania, and Rini who took down Alesha. Until the three of them can play. Followed by the children of my friends.

This event is just a dinner together, no karaoke, no games or talent show.

Antoni moved to sit near me when Kania played with Azka and Alesha. He grinned at me, then he turned to Adi, Jaya and Sharif who became his close friends.

"Udah gas !" Rizal shouted at him.

"DESI. MARRY YUK !"