My Past Stories

16. Contraception

Time passed so quickly and now I am confused because of my condition which has been two weeks late menstruation. You know, if I never wear safety every time we hook up.

It's been 8 months I've been through my silent marriage to Dillah without any of them knowing anything. The slightly panicked me immediately contacted Dillah and told everyone.

"Aren't you drinking fanta again ?" Ask Dillah to me.

I took a breath and immediately turned off my phone with my annoyance. I thought for a moment how stupid it would be for me and Dillah to actually think that soft drinks could delay pregnancy.

"Bego, moron, moron, dongo, bloon !!" My curse to myself. I threw my body on my bed and closed my eyes. Until I woke up because there was a phone call from sister Dina.

The call I told everything to sister Dina. And he said me and Dillah were very wrong to think it was all right. Brother Dina thinks, the File has prepared everything and even sister Dina thinks that me and Dillah never do anything, so sister Dina and her husband do not care about the actions of his sister.

"Yaudah gini aja, now Desi buy tespack only to the pharmacy. Tomorrow morning Desi try to use continue the results tell brother. If the result is a red line one means Desi is safe, but if the red line two means Desi is pregnant."

"Byeah !!" My surprise.

"Eatya Desi try first, if you are Desi ga pregnant later Desi buy kiranti aja continue to drink ya !"

After my conversation with sister Dina I became even more afraid. But I immediately went to the pharmacy to buy a tespack and hid it in my pants pocket. Unsuspecting my father and mother did not ask me anything because I always buy vitamins for myself every week.

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By morning, I had used the device and was waiting for the results. Fear and curiosity were mixed, my heart rate was racing very fast when I had to see the results of the device.

I breathed a very heavy breath when I found out. The taste of breadfruit because the tool only provides answers with a red line one. Relieved, this is how I feel now !

I prayed at dawn and climbed up the prayer to God. Asking to be given the best for me at this time, the guilt because as a wife does not want the presence of a child because now my status is still a student. It may be selfish, but that's what I don't want to disappoint my parents.

I immediately went to school when Antoni was in front of my house. Although I often refused his invitation but still he wanted to take me to school, he said so that he could always be close to me even without status. If the first thing to say TTM yes, it is again booming tuh song TTM from the duo Queen. Wkwkwk

And always, they always say that I'm dating Antoni even though they know that I never accepted Antoni's love. But Dillah never forbade Antoni directly to Antoni if he didn't like it, Dillah just told me not to get too close to Antoni.

Flashback a few months back when my birthday heart. Where Antoni was preparing a surprise with my classmates at school. He has prepared a cake with a special gift that will be given to me.

During the break, as usual, I will only leave food and drinks to my friends.

"Happy birthday to you.. Happy birthday to you..

Happy birthday, happy birthday, happy birthday Desi.."

My classmates continued to sing birthday songs to me while giving me hugs and cipika cipiki. Because it's my sweet seventheen, so they say they want to make an impression that will never be forgotten.

"Open, open, open !" Shouted friend.

I opened the box, and I was surprised to see a white gold necklace with an isinial DA pendant. It means Desiana Antoni.

"Sorry if I always disturb you and always make you uncomfortable. But I beg you, take a gift from me and put it on. I just want you to always remember me, even though maybe later you are not my soul mate !"

I'm moved. No, exactly feeling guilty for always rejecting the man in front of me. I cried and hugged Antoni tightly while saying sorry, sorry and sorry.

"Gue promise. I will continue to wear a necklace from Lo Ton. Sorry I never thought of being my guy. Hicks.."

After a long time I hugged Toni, I let go of my embrace. I cut the cake that Lia had brought. I frowned at Toni when I read the writing on the cake. The cake read "Happy birthday Antoni's favorite. A love that never returns."

"Maha." Antoni's laughter broke due to the expression on my face which turned out to be hopeless. Not as expected, I should have cut the cake first Antoni love the card. But this is upside down, we just cut the cake. Wkwkwkwkwk

And from here I was honest with Dillah about Antoni giving me a birthday present, and I started to be honest with Dillah who had liked me since Junior High. That's why Dillah forbade me to get close to Antoni. But I didn't do it because I felt bad.

Here's a little story about me and Antoni. Antoni may now think of me as his sister, but he still doesn't like to see me with Dillah.

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After a few days of using the tespack, I also get monthly guests. When I was done I was advised by Brother Dina to buy the contraceptive pill, and to follow the manner advised by Brother Dina.

A little safe, I feel no more afraid when I'm in touch with Dillah. As of now, we were in a hotel that Dillah had rented before.

Ah really, I'm tired of having to keep hiding like this. But how else, I have to keep everything until I'm ready and Dillah patiently waits. Obviously patient, because Dillah already has me completely, only status is still married sirih.

"Have you taken the pill ?"

I just nodded with resignation. I was rendered helpless by him because of our struggle just now. hahaha

"Des." I looked at Dillah. "Later to get married really if you have graduated or what ?"

"I want to do my job first, brother. Want to make my father and mother proud and can enjoy the results of my work first." My solute.

"Judek. If so go ahead and take the contraceptive pill."

I nodded Dillah's words and Dillah clasped back into my body tightly. He kissed my forehead so many times that I fell asleep in his arms.