My Past Stories

27. I fell (again)

The days I spent were the same as yesterday. Waking up to prepare breakfast after my morning prayers, taking my husband to the front when he left for work, taking Azka to the place where he was teaching because he was not old enough to go to school. In the afternoon Azka and I took a nap, Azka invited to play until the afternoon. Welcoming Dillah's return and of course serving Dillah as my husband.

Until one day I felt like I had fallen into a deep, dark hole. Knowing the truth about the true Dillah. The fact that I wasn't Dillah's only wife made me fall many times and many times had to be hospitalized.

Almost depressed. Maybe it is !

"Sorry Dec !" Her tears broke just then, when Dillah tried to explain everything to me two months ago.

I kept silent to digest all of his words. Kelu, my tongue feels muddy. My body shook violently and it felt like I could not say anything. My sobbing was heard, until Azka who was asleep woke up and immediately hugged me along crying.

"Just ka-pan sis ?" I asked while sobbing, when Azka had started to calm down and slept in my lap.

I walked with a body that was still shaking carrying Azka's body into the room. Dillah tried to take Azka away from me, but I brushed her off.

"Ja-wab !"

"Before we marry country."

Jeder !!

My chest feels more and more claustrophobic. My body is broken, it feels no longer strong my legs to support my body. I cried loudly while cupping my face.

Dillah sat down in front of me and said sorry, sorry and sorry. Only that was ejected from her trembling lips while crying.

Really, my world collapsed. He hid it all without my knowledge.

Wait !!

Am I the only one who doesn't know ? What about her family, did they also hide her from me ?

I spent the night just crying and Dillah woke up with me. He was so sorry for what he did, but I don't know if it was all true or not. But obviously right now my heart is completely broken by it.

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A week ago Dillah took a leave of absence. He just kept quiet at home not one bit left me, even Dillah also always accompanied me when delivering Azka teaching. Though really, I am still very angry and disappointed in him, but what is my day that really loves him too much and holds my heartache for Azka as well of course.

A few days ago, I forced Dillah to tell her family the truth. Because, indeed, his family really did not know anything. Even Andi's own office with him does not know about the relationship of Dillah and Elisha.

Is it really that neat Dillah hid it until no one knew ?

Dillah's parents and older sister told him to end his relationship with Elisha. But Dillah's answer was made my guess, he kept Elisha as his betel wife.

And this is where I really fell.

I still faithfully inhabit Dillah, although Dillah always and always looking for attention to me. Until I began to feel saturated, and to miss myself with his attention to me.

Mondays. Where I again feel crowded because of the arrival of Elisha who seeks the existence of Dillah to my house. Women really don't know themselves. Thought.

I forcefully let Elisha into my house, and let my husband talk to his betrothed wife. Really, it felt like I wanted to slam all the stuff in front of me protesting against it.

Fortunately, Azka was being taken away by Mr. Burhan and Ms. Nilam.

There was the voice of Elisha forcing Dillah to accompany him this afternoon, but Dillah rejected him by reason of being unwell. I could only tear up listening to their conversation from inside the room.

Hearing Elisha's very spoiled tone towards Dillah really made my heart hurt a lot. But I also could not forbid it, because Elisha was also the legal wife of my husband.

Elisha knocked on my door and pulled my hand out. I flinched, trying to let go of his hand. Dillah tried to hold Elisha back, but Elisha clutched my hand even harder until his nails slightly peeled off my skin.

"Please me !" My peek.

"Elisa, let alone Desi !" Snapped to Elisha, but Elisha did not care.

Really, if I hadn't restrained myself, I might have finished off Elisha by now.

"I'm not going to let him go, I want him to lose !" Reply Elisha.

Elisha threw my hands rough until I fell down. I wiped my tears and tried to get up, I looked at my wrist and smiled obliquely.

"You want what ?" I asked Elisa.

"I want to let go of Dillah, justin mas Dillah happy with me !" Follow it with to the point.

"Don't haphazardly you Sa !" Jerk Dillah.

I wiped the remains of my tears. It feels so precious now to see the true behavior of Elisha.

*Plak*

One slap I landed on Elisha's smooth cheek. Dillah gasped in surprise and yelled at me.

"desi. What the hell are you ?"

Dillah immediately stroked Elisha's flushed cheek. "It hurts !" Spoiled talk.

"You snapped at me brother ?" Ask me with a high note.

"You're outrageous Des. Look, Elisha's cheeks are red because of you !"

"Haha. You know if my heart is redder and maybe even bleeding because you're the same ? Now I just slap him on his cheeks red you wrong me sister !"

Dillah was silent looking at me. I looked at him sharply.

"Now take your second wife away from here before I admit to the same thing. Even I don't hesitate to kill him for the pain bales you created for me sister !"

I went inside and locked the door. Dillah banged and shouted calling my name. I covered my ears with my hands behind the door crying out to bring out everything that was stuck in my heart.

"Astaghfirullah's.. Asterghfirullah's.."

That's all I can say now.

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Nightfall. I picked up Azka at Nilam's and Burhan's. They already knew about the incident this afternoon from my story, when they delivered Azka.

"You used to stay here, son. Sleep here !" Persuade Mr. Burhan to me.

I shook my head while smiling wryly at Mr. Burhan.

"Yaudah biarin Azka tonight nginap here, you finished your problem first as well as Dillah. I hope you can make up the same as Dillah !"

"Yes, mom. Desi titip Azka ya make tonight. Sorry if Desi ngerepotin mom same father. Desi does not know what else to do, Desi does not want to make Dillah's parents more disappointed because of the actions of his son. Yesterday Desi clay mom crying, Desi's heart hurts so much mom !"

"patient, son. I'm sure, Desi's son can get through it all !"

I wiped away my tears that fell on both sides of my cheeks. I'm nodding.

"Yaudah yes sir, ma'am. Desi returns home, pick Azka !"