My Love That's Not In Restui

Chapters. 83. Palau

After Ivory, Sitah's heart feels empty, the space in his heart now feels empty. His association with Ivory more and more days make him happy. He felt very dependent on the man. The worry begins to creep, how if one day. Ivory never came to see him. Or what if Ivory falls in love with another woman and marries her. It's only natural, he's not who he is. There is no special relationship between them.

"Why am I so afraid of losing that man, do I love him," said Sitah.

Sitah continued to stare at Ivory's back which continued to move away and was no longer visible. After that, Sitah entered his contract. Clean yourself in the bathroom, pray and cook immediately. As long as anything he did was contracted, Ivory's face and smile continued to be reflected in his eyes. Several times he sighed violently to drive away the fret that now afflicted him.

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Ivory continues to advance its vehicle at maximum speed. It felt like he wanted to quickly return to the Gilang apartment that he occupied.

Until diaparteman, security guards who stood guard at the post felt astonished. Ivory who used to be friendly and jolly now looks tense. After parking his vehicle he immediately stepped quickly past the guard post without a word thrown from his lips.

Until the front of the apartment was taken to take the keycard to open the door of the apartment. Door opens. Ivory hastily entered the bathroom and played solo there.

After half an hour he finally came out, with a body full of sweat.

"Finally mine can be domesticated again" he murmured. He sat down casually on the sofa in the middle room, his body felt weak. The shadow of Sitah's face continued to disturb his mind. His heart kept asking, why lately his heart was often stricken with longing, longing for Sitah, the exotic-skinned girl continued to shadow him. Physically he is attractive, although his face is not too beautiful but in body, many men like the body of a woman like Sitah who is large in some parts of his body.

Today after college, Ivory went straight to the office. Until at the office he continued to try to concentrate on work, he had to focus, college made his working hours reduced, but he continued the spirit of completing work on time like other employees. Gilang gave the same salary as other employees to Leni's granddaughter. Although his working hours were reduced because Ivory had to go to college. But he was able to complete all the work like an employee in general. Right at lunchtime, Ivory left his desk to the canteen, his stomach was sore, this morning he forgot breakfast. Sleeping too late because thinking about the continuation of his relationship with Sitah made him wake up late.

When going to enter the canteen, it turns out that Sitah will come out of the canteen because she just finished eating. The ivory hid behind the wall. His ultimate weapon that reacted when he met Sitah made him reluctant to meet the woman. Even though his misses are hotter. He only dared to look at Sitah from some distance away.

"Why should I avoid, when my heart is so long. Just yesterday we met and talked at your contract. But it feels like we haven't seen each other in a long time. This is the name of love, if far away I miss wanting to meet, if close I fear more captivated. After Sitah away she continued her intention to eat bagged while smiling herself.

Meanwhile the newly finished Sitah eating from the canteen felt the presence of Ivory. His heart was longing, when they had just met yesterday. Days passed, the hearts of Sitah and Ivory continued to be hit by longing because they did not meet.

Sitah feels Ivory is away from her, she suspects Ivory has forgotten her and may have had a better female lover than her. It was very desirable that he contacted Gading to ascertain how he was doing, what his assumption was. But the devil has no guts at all. He is aware of who he is, he is just a former sinner who has just repented and does not know whether his repentance is accepted by God or not.

Sitah was trying to muffle his feelings that are increasingly longing, in a way alone and crying in his room. Now he feels like he is being wasted. But he continues to think positively, not this cruel world, but the world is trying to strengthen him to be ready to face various tests and obstacles in life.

The ivory that he contracted continued to be hit by anxiety. His nostrils are growing. Shadows continue in his imagination about how it feels to caress delicate skin of exotic color. How wonderful life would be if his love for the Sitah was avenged.

When he returned pensive, his love for the exotic-skinned girl may be avenged because he also saw the shakes of love in every close to him, a happy twinkle full of love clearly visible in his beautiful eyes when talking with him. But the toughest challenge is his grandmother, the family of Mr. Gilang and the family of Mr. Soko, the figure of people who have become heroes in his life. They can't possibly approve. Need to convince with the evidence and a long journey full of drama in merai his blessing. It would all be possible if his love and his love were so strong. But how the love of Sitah will be strong while he never proves how much he loves her.

after pondering, he prayed istikharah asking for directions, Ivory decided to reveal his perception to Sitah. With trembling hands he presses the green application, searches for the name of Sitah and presses the call button.

"Hallo Ivory, how are you, long time no see, I miss ups.ma sorry Ivory, I'm just being happy today, sorry"

The voice across there sounded enthusiastic. He said he missed, didn't he?

"Old let's say we don't see you, sorry I didn't see you for a long time. I'm so busy, finishing college and work too, how about we meet now, I miss you too, ups....."

Ivory turned out to be lazy as well, he was unable to keep the longing gelora in the heart. Sitah certainly welcomed Ivory's desire to meet. This afternoon after returning from work, the two joli who were in love were driving to a cafe that seemed romantic in the city.

Along the way, Sitah could not condition his hand not to wrap it around the waist of the Ivory, the man did not mind that he was happy.

Ivory entered the cafe with Sitah's hand, making the exotic-skinned girl feel astonished. I don't usually behave sweet. Ivory shifted a chair and asked Sitah to sit down. So flattered and appreciated, around his eyes feel warm, his tears will seep out. But he held it all he could. After a short chat, they ordered food. They eat casually because the cafe does not look so crowded. After devouring food in front of him. Ivory clasped Sitah's hand to make the face of the cheetah blushing and his body cold hot unbecoming. Ivory tried to open his mute mouth to speak important things to the woman in front of him.

"Salah.I fell in love with you, will you be my lover," said Ivory, his hand clutching a rose which he kept behind his shirt.

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