My House At the Edge of the Cliff

Chapter 50 Letters From Mother

Coming home with an indeterminate feeling makes Dimas daydream in his mother's room, thinking of Kiki's words that make no sense to him. Amidst the daydream of the wooden box that he had wanted to see as if waving a request to be taken, immediately curiosity came to him.

"Maybe." he murmured thinking his mother had actually written many letters to him.

Dimas quickly took the box, and when he opened it it turned out to be letters as he suspected.

Instantly his hands shook, powerless to resist the cries and grief. The shadow of the face of the mother who was missing him and all this was the outpouring of her heart that was not delivered, making Dimas ashamed of the great sin that he had to bear.

"Mother." she lamented in useless regret.

By exerting all his strength he took one letter, trying to dare read the letter.

"Assalamu'alaikum wr. wb

Dimas son of mother, if only this tongue does not promise then of course all I will tell you. How happy my mother's heart was when she saw the birth of my granddaughter, it turned out that she was a handsome boy like you. If you were here, you would be the one to ring the Adhan in his ear, if you were here you would be the perfect family."

Dimas was confused, not understanding what he meant by his mother. So he took another letter to continue reading it.

"Assalamu'alaikum wr. wb

To Dimas' mother's son, every day I write you a letter. To explain that it's all my fault, if I knew you'd be angry when I came back, I'd say it all. It was my mother who had married Kiki to Fariz, sorry for this great sin that my mother had committed. As a fellow female mother sees herself in Kiki, that's why I don't want my daughter-in-law to feel the same way as my mother. Only to Fariz was I sure that Kiki would survive, either from the eyes of the world that sneered or the KDRT that we have ever experienced."

Brucks

This was beyond his reasoning, he really did not think his mother would act like that. Looking for the real answer Dimas ran to the car, today he was determined to know everything.

Tok Tok Tok Tok Tok Tok Tok

Impatiently upon reaching Kiki's house he knocked on the door.

Chequelek

"Dimas?" fariz said he found his best friend standing right behind the door.

"Tell me what I didn't know all this time" he said firmly.

When Fariz realized what Dimas meant, he told him to come in so he could speak properly.

"I found the letters that mom wrote, why do you want me to marry Kiki?" exclaim Dimas impatiently.

"I'll explain what I'm trying to tell you but you don't want to hear it, instead you're insulting us with all your bullshit accusations!" he continued to be emotionally disturbed.

"How am I not emotional? I took pains to change my fate for the better but when I came back even the wedding ring in your hand was welcoming!" reply Dimas.

"Enoughly Stamped! are you here to hear the truth or argue about your pain?" asked Fariz with disgust.

Dimas was silent, and so was Kiki.

"The only man who has touched me is you, even if Fariz and I are married we have never slept together. It's all because I only love you and Fariz is reluctant to tarnish my love, because of that... Atha is our son."

That's exactly what happened, four years ago Kiki realized she was pregnant with Dimas' child. To Haryati Dimas' mother he said this, really Haryati is very happy he will get a grandson and has planned to tell Dimas.

But Kiki forbids him, he does not want to disturb Dimas who is struggling to realize his dream. With duress, Haryati promises not to tell Dimas until he returns, but seeing Kiki's growing belly traumatizes Haryati.

He was afraid that Kiki would experience what he had experienced a long time ago, he did not want his daughter-in-law to experience the same suffering because of being pregnant out of wedlock.

Therefore he asked Fariz for help, pleading at his feet to save Kiki's dignity. As a friend of course he will not let this happen, Fariz also agreed to get married.

They agreed that Kiki would tell Dimas everything when he returned, but that day when Dimas returned it was anger that covered his ears so that this reality was difficult to reveal.

The anger made him leave again without looking back, to Haryati who tried to apologize and explain everything.

Infused with guilt Haryati was unable to withstand all these trials, slowly deteriorating health which eventually left him lying in bed.

As a daughter-in-law every day Kiki comes to treat her injuries, showing Atha's development which always makes Haryati smile. While Fariz continued to try to contact Dimas but was never successful, he sent various messages but no reply.

Until at the peak of his suffering Haryati was no longer able to, every day he wrote letters containing his guilt that he never sent.

"Mother.". "lament Dimas.

Brucks

His limp feet were unable to support his weight until he collapsed on the floor, apparently all was his fault. If he is able to keep his emotions may be now his dream to have a perfect family can be realized.

"I'm sorry." said Dimas regretfully.

Unable to bear Kiki ran over and hugged Dimas, crying right on his shoulder.