My Fantasy Voice's

The taste that has disappeared

(Side story)

I know you've got the best intentions

I know you have good intentions

Just trying to find the right words to say

Just trying to find the right word to say

I promise, I've already learned my lesson

I promise, I've studied my problems

But right now I wanna be not okay

But now I want to feel not okay

I'm so tired, sitting here waiting

I'm so tired, waiting here

If I hear one more "Just be patient"

If I ever hear again “sabarlah”

It's always gonna stay the same

It's always the same thing

So let me just give up

So let me give up

So let me just let go

Let me let go

If this isn't good for me

If this isn't good for me

Well I don't wanna know

I don't want to know

Let me just stop trying

Let me stop trying

Let me just stop fighting

Let me stop fighting

I don't want your good advice

I don't want your good advice

Or reasons why I'm alright

Or the reason why I'm okay

You don't know what it's like

You don't know what it's like

You don't know what it's like

You don't know what it's like

The best patience is when you prefer to be silent, even though your emotions are asking to be listened to. And the best strength is when you choose to smile, even though the tears you didn't want to hold back.

The best patience is when you prefer silence, when your emotions are asking to be heard.And the best strength is when you choose to smile, even though the tears that have not been held since.

...

Broken home is a problematic word for a person.

Every human being is tested with great patience.

Rain's childhood wasn't easy for a little boy going through all the hard times.

He just hangs on to the word...

A dream.

But to answer him he was unable.

Diana then pushed the tiny body to its floor without caring about the child's pain.

He stared intently at his son.

"I told you, next time do it right, just mop you useless you're a really stupid kid!"said mother.

Aiden's head bowed to the hurtful words of his own mother.

He's a regular.

I am used to the pain.

How a mother could hire her child to be a babu at home even though she was still very small at that time.

"Hey, lift your head!listen to this!"diana said, then gripped Aiden's head until the boy's head looked up forcibly.

The pale little hand picked out her t-shirt, the blue eyes glazed over and the red lips bitten, looking alarming and sad but did not make Diana feel pity.

The human heart can be as strong as steel but also frozen, the brain can be diluted but it can be stone, the eyes can see the truth but he is blind.

One question for selfish people is?

Is there a conscience of theirs?

A day of conscience is someone who has sympathy and empathy.

But nevertheless...

Where is that sympathy?

Where to find him?

And where to look for it?

"Listen to this carefully, you are a disabled child!I'm ashamed to have a child like you, even when I was born I wanted to kill you but your father was still good at letting you grow up and live here! You're so different from your big brother who excels and boasts his parents while you're just a troublesome kid and sleepy eating here!so do the job right or I'll throw you into an orphanage, sell you out the price might be very low!"

The cruel words of a selfish man are indeed piercing the heart even though it has long been a new wound and a deep trauma to the point that his mentality has been destroyed.

Are you still able to accept everything?

...

Aiden was still sobbing in the closet, he did not expect his own mother would throw such cruel words at him.

Even though he can't talk, he still hears.

Even though she cannot smile, she can still cry.

And what kind of mother speaks that to her own flesh-blood child.

Although he was a child who had innocent thoughts but he had a mature feeling because of his independence.

When he felt sad and hurt, Aiden little would choose to hide in his big closet to hide his swollen face and wounds.

Aiden is grateful to have a family.

But how do you feel when you have a family that doesn't consider your presence in their midst.

Wasn't...

It's the same way you don't have a family.

'Why am I always blamed?why am I always being compared?why am I handicapped?there are many questions and complaints that I want to ask God but I know you will definitely give me a test to my limit and I can only continue to hope.

I'm tired, even when I was a child, it felt so broken and then what about when I grew up?

Will this suffering end in the future?'

...

Want a psychological genre film based on a journalist's true story?

Brain On Fire is based on the true story of Susannah Cahalan written in her book “Brain On Fire: My Month of Madness”. The story of Susannah Cahalan itself is when she suddenly attacked by a rare disease that is difficult to diagnose.

Brain On Fire premiered at the Toronto International Film Festival on September 14, 2016, and was released on Netflix on June 22, 2018. The film is directed by Irishman Gerard Barret.

Brain on Fire tells the story of Susannah Cahalan, a 21-year-old girl played by Chloe Grace Moretz, a New York Post journalist who is exposed to a rare and mysterious disease. One day, Susannah suddenly felt dizzy as if circling and she continued to hear something. Doctors diagnose fatigue while working to experience stress.

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