My Clown Boy's

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"Not always life is about the word itself. Believe that among the painful things that come to you there will be a speck of hope that makes you smile even if only for a moment".

***

Fany reached out to the butterfly. And without a doubt the butterfly soon perched on his hands. Ali who saw that smiled.

"Still the same as before" he said.

***

Three years ago

"Bang Ali, can Fany ask for something?" ask the girl in her ponytail to her brother who is busy playing a bicycle. The girl was wearing a light blue shirt typical of patients.

Ali, her brother caught a glimpse of her before finally returning to observe the streets before her.

The girl pouted, making Ali inevitably have to stop his bike. If she can't die, she's on her mama's bushel.

"What?"

And for the sake of hearing that short answer, Fany's eyes sparkled.

"Fany saw a butterfly in the window. And I saw her fly over here. But Fany's pass to this place her butterflies disappeared!" it is long wide. Which made her brother look a little sleepy because of it.

"Continue?" Ali pretended**** because he knew where this conversation was going.

"Please!!!" please Fany with her puppy eyes.

Ali got off his bike and looked for a way to catch the butterfly that had caught his sister's attention.

"Gue seems to have been sick for too long so he has no friends other than the lo bang" Fany said with a slight teasing.

"Don't be lebay.mending you take real medicine so that it heals quickly. Then come to school with me. I'll see you as my maid!" Ali then laughed loudly.

Fany stretched out her hand to take a swing to beat her brother. But suddenly a small butterfly perched on his tiny hand.

And the girl did not continue her intentions. He looked in amazement at the butterfly while expressing his admiration. Ali who was preparing to run was also made agape on the spot.

"That's right! Do not think negative thoughts. Not having does not mean no one wants to" he grinned instead advised. And Fany could only listen to it with resignation. Because his attention was completely fixed on the butterfly in his hand.

"Woahhhh!!!" amazed he still felt a little amused in his hand because of the actions of the little animal.

"Gue to wc first" Ali said before finally leaving him alone.

Fany decided to sit on the round chair available in the hospital garden. The butterfly did not even intend to fly from his hand.

His eyes still sparkled in awe, observing the beautiful blend of colors on the wings of butterflies.

Without even realizing it, there was someone approaching him. But the closer his steps were to be heard clearly by Fany's ears.

"Hey!why is she so beautiful hmmmm.." asked Fany to the animal who was still faithful in her hands. Fany is already worried herself.

"But!you know why?"

The move came to a halt for a moment until Fany doubted whether it was really human or just a hallucinatory effect of the drug she had just taken.

But shortly afterwards the move was heard again which made Fany able to breathe a sigh of relief.

"Metamorphosis!" that answer made Fany who was smiling stop for a moment. The voice sounded strange in his ears. Until the girl looked.

He found someone tall enough for a kid his age. But clearly they are the same age. It was because of the uniform behind the boy's black hoodie.

"Lo who?" asked with a frown because the article was only this time the girl saw there was another child who entered this hospital.

"It doesn't matter!" ketus answer.

Fany who felt that she had no fault whatsoever wanted to protest let alone just this time they met.

"Lo sewot is very. Don't know **************" the girl is even now sniffing. Cussing and so on.

"Metamorphosis" the boy replied in the end, because his ears were already hot to hear it.

"Foolish base" he sneered and left Fany gawking.

Fany wants to curse. Moreover, the child looked relaxed and without burden. Mouthed and the answer was very short. There are still many unanswered explanations. But the boy's gone. The word metamorphosis answers everything. Even Fany until now at the age of fourteen years has never once felt the bench of education.

"Basic freak. WHAT DO I CARE WHAT A FOOL I'M NOT!I'M STILL MENDING HAVE SOME MANNERS BUT LO!IT SEEMS LIKE THE PERSON YOU DON'T EVEN KNOW!" Fany yelled, yelling at the boy's back that was getting away. Even he had to expend all his energy for it.

Because soon a sense of tightness approached him. Then his breathing became weak for a long time. He could not hold back his heavy eyes from exhaustion. Until he collapsed when Ali's shoes were right stepping towards him. He could see faintly, the butterfly flying above him before finally leaving.

***

The white room looked silent as Ratih walked into it. Doctor Fey looked at the concerned woman. It was clearly an anxious look on that beautiful face. Moreover, there was a black mark under his eyes that indicated the person was not sleeping well.

"What's the matter Fey?" tanyanya direct. There's no way Fey's doctor would have called him here if it wasn't something important to his daughter.

"OK it straight away! The state of Fany can not be predicted until now" said doctor Fey began.

"He could have been like now but only temporarily. And I'm afraid that the drug can make him dependent at any time. Moreover, the dose that Fany used was large enough for a child his age".

Ratih was shocked to hear the explanation of Dr. Ratih. This situation makes it really on the verge of confusion, and why it came back at a time like this.

"do your best Fey. If necessary, I will ask Farhan to bring in a doctor from abroad. So he can come back". Train looks fragile but strives to be strong.

Doctor Fey nodded his head in understanding. Of course he will do his best. But the problem is not that simple.

"There must be someone who can take away the trauma!"

Train was held back for a while, which Dr. Fey said just now he never even expected.

"But who? And what that someone has to do. Moreover, we as a family have done everything possible to make the trauma disappear" A tear managed to escape from the eye of Ratih. His chest rose and fell expressing how desperate he was now. The white room was for a moment.

Doctor Fey breathed. Before finally starting the explanation.

"Post-traumatic stress disorder (post-traumatic stress disorder/PTSD)

PTSD is a mental disorder that occurs after a person experiences a traumatic event, such as the sudden death of a loved one, sexual abuse, or natural disaster"

"Fany's having some kind of PTSD?" ask Ratih to make sure.

Doctor Fey nodded. "Yep, but in a more severe form".

"anxiety disorders

A person with an anxiety disorder responds to certain objects or situations with feelings of fear, panic, sweating, and a faster heartbeat. Called a disorder if the symptoms they can not control and have disrupted daily life. Anxiety disorders can also be phobias of certain situations, social anxiety disorders, or panic disorders. Some people also have specific phobias, such as phobias of blood, water (sinking), and phobia of heights". Doctor Fey closed his explanation carefully looking at Ratih's reaction. He was afraid that the woman would be devastated. But seeing the expression of Ratih who was still firm made Doctor Fey finally breathe a sigh of relief. At least Ratih strengthened himself.

"that's what makes Fany so hard to heal?" ask Ratih to make sure.

Doctor Fey nodded, confirming although a bit heavy but the truth he had to convey. Than later if it is too late it will certainly be more painful for Ratih and Farhan.

"So message. Find that person immediately. At least so Fany can keep smiling looking at the world without anyone bothering her". Doctor Fey takjim.

"I'll try Fey!"

"No. We'll all try!" Doctor Fey used the words of Ratih just now.

"How do you think Ali's work?" asked Ratih as he began to stand up and then walked slowly towards the clear glass of the house of doctor Fey's office.

And look down. Ratih smiled a little to see his two children laughing down there. And that makes him a little relieved.

Doctor Fey came closer and saw what Ratih had just seen. And inevitably she also smiled.

"If this wasn't temporary" Traini muttered to herself which made Doctor Fey again feel concerned.

"Wouldn't a little thing like this bring something big?" Doctor Fey asked, but there was a soothing tone from his voice.

Train nodded "I hope so".

But he was held back when he looked down and caught something strange Ali was not there but someone.

***

"Fan I went back!kebelt. I told nyamperin nyamperin to come here". Ali said before finally running away without waiting for an answer from his sister.

Fany scowled in disbelief, even now she was left alone. Errorat, two with butterflies in his hands.

Fany smiled to herself, no need to worry. Sisters will be coming soon.

"So now you're tamed into me?" said Fany squirming at the beautiful butterfly.

"Gue envies the same life you can freely fly wherever you want!" he looked at the butterfly in his hand. Her brown hair was spread by the wind. His eyes looked at the butterfly.

"Although you yourself can at least freely see the world!" he said trying doesn't sound weak.

The sound of footsteps approached until Fany was sure that the person behind her must have been the nurse that Ali sent her.

A flower is blown away by the wind and falls directly behind Fany. Until the butterfly flew towards the back, then alighted on the flower. Fany smiled when she saw the sight.

He intended to take the flower that the butterfly was holding but a shoe that he saw while crouching made him stop.

The girl rubbed her eyes a few times. Shouldn't the one who came was the nurse why the one standing in front of her felt like a man.

She had not expected her brother to come so quickly given her last message earlier.

"Bao. I thought you would be long" he said, looking up with a smile. Now he feels a little better.

But his smile gradually disappeared as his eyes met those black eyes.

He swallowed the saliva with great difficulty. Sweat slid from his temple.

"Ad...ly" his voice was slightly choked when he mentioned the name.

Tbc