My biggest mistake

sorry dad

"What do you want to come here" said Father in his Flat Tone. I felt like crying, one of the people I was disappointed in was now so cold to me.

I saw Dad sitting in the chair, I lowered my head earlier. I don't know if I don't dare to say anything even to see his face I don't dare.

"If there is nothing important, please leave here" Father said as if impatient.

"Yes.hm maksutku Mr. Prastio, I want to apologize for all my mistakes in the past" I said brickly. I dared to look at the face of my father who I had always missed. I think it's time to apologize well even though I will be expelled from here, at least I've tried to improve my relationship with my real father.

"huft, maybe you're embarrassed not even to consider me your daughter again but I want to apologize for all my mistakes. I am aware of my mistakes, there is not a single day of my life without regrets. Please forgive me, it feels so cramped to live a life full of regrets. I beg you to forgive me" I said, tears? don't ask me again, my tears have spilled.

I saw the father who did not move not even speak. I thought maybe what Rara said was a lie where my dad was always watching and looking after me was just a word to make me happy. It really hurt so much, even my real father wouldn't apologize.

"I beg your pardon, I just want to continue living with my son without this painful and deep regret. Please forgive me" I said unstoppably, I felt Rara rub my shoulder.

I think this is enough my stomach is already very painful due to the position of the bed that makes my legs numb. Maybe you don't want to forgive me, I laugh at myself.Where maybe for the mistakes I've made so much still expect an apology from father. I try to stand up, Rara helps me and I get ready to go from there.

"Sorry maybe I'm too dirty to get sorry from you, I won't interfere with your life anymore, I promise this time I will go as far as possible and I make sure you will not find me" I said before inviting Rara to go home.

Suddenly my hand was pulled until it hit the chest of the field that I always felt. Dad hugged me, my tears broke I tightened my arms.

"Where might be a father like that Alexa, you're the daughter of the only father. 3 months is enough time for the father regret all the abusive words of the father at that time. Sorry to make you hurt, I'm wrong here I'm the father who failed to protect the only daughter I have." My words so moved me.

"Alexa is the wrong father, Ale who can't take care of Ale" I said with a heavy cry.

"No, forgive me for noticing you until something like this happens forgive me" said Dad in a trembling voice. Just this time I saw a man as flat and as cold as my father crying.

"Pardon Alexa, sorry" I said again

"Dear, I'm sorry for your treatment"

I looked at Rara who was smiling now seeing us embrace, it really felt really relieved. Dad let go of my embrace and wiped the tears that drenched my cheeks he smiled at me

"Rest, I know you're tired. Invite Rara all" said the father who I asked nods. Rara and I went upstairs, "this waw is Alexa's room" Rara asked as soon as she entered my room.

"Yes Ra, I miss this room" I said

"Congratulations, you're finally at peace with your father" Rara said

"Thank you Ra, you have won me" said I who was asked to nod.

Due to fatigue as soon as I fell asleep immediately. Didn't expect me to be woken up by my aunt, when I was waiting for dinner. I took a shower and prepared to go downstairs I saw Rara who was not in the room can be sure that she was downstairs. After I finished the bath I started to come down, at the dinner table my father was waiting for me with various dishes served.

"I'm sorry to keep you waiting, I should have eaten first. Alexa has been sleeping since she's been pregnant so I'm sorry to keep you waiting" I told Dad, who now puts rice in a dish and shoves it in front of me.

"Calm down, I haven't eaten with my daughter in a long time. It's eating a lot to make my granddaughter fatter" said the father who made me smile. I still can't believe it, this whole thing feels like a dream. I suddenly remembered where Rara had gone, I looked to the right and left side

"Rara yeah" I said

"She was in the kitchen with Bibiu since then she did not want to be invited to eat together" said the father who I asked nods.

Dinner is over, I catch up with my father who is now in the reading room as well as his study room.

"Alexa can come in?" say

"Come in" after that I enter the room where Dad is.

"What's wrong? why not rest, you are pregnant should increase the rest" said the father while closing the book.

"Alexa wants to talk a lot about me, Alexa em.." My finger

"Well what is the daughter of the father" said the father as he slipped my hair in the ear.

"Father thank you already sorry Alexa, actually Alexa has felt very sinful on everyone and it managed to make Ale crowded. It hurts and tired, living in the shadow of everyone's regrets and disappointments. When everyone hates me so much I take pains to build my own happiness."

"Alexa wants to end this well, make peace with the past and live a new life with Alexa's children later"

"Sst. kid, don't think about all the things that aren't necessarily your fault. I know maybe you can feel sorry but remember dad here.think of the child in your womb baby, he can also be affected if you think a lot."

"Yes dad" I said

"What's dad's grandson? how many months has he been, son?" ask Dad.

"Udah 7 months father, do not feel approximately 2 months more Alexa so mother. Alexa can't wait to meet him, clutching his tiny hands tightly and cradling every growth" I said enthusiastically.

"Father also gasabar meet the granddaughter of father, you already know the gender?" ask Dad to me.

"I gamau know it really but Alexa herself seems to already know she's a girl what a guy" said the man who was asked to nod.

"When your mother was pregnant, she was so spoiled, whatever it was you did. Even the nyidam phase I think your mother is so pranking me, I'm sure if your mother is still there she will be so happy now her daughter will soon be a mother" said Dad while hugging me from the side.

"Did mommy get nauseous too?" ask me who was nodding

"yes and it's so bad that it's always in and out of the hospital" Dad said.

"Dad, why didn't you save your mom? why would you risk your life just to give birth to Alexa?" I made Dad take a deep breath.

"Yes, because your mother used to have a history of illness, so even though she didn't give birth to you, she didn't exist. so he always asked me to promise to always take care of you even though he married again. From the moment your mother left father and you who even then had not felt a mother's embrace, father had no spirit in life not even a thought at all to marry again."

"Till this time your father was single" I heard father's laughter break. Okay well it's enough time for you to rest again" said the father who I asked nods.