My biggest mistake

Advice from Mrs Ratri

I who was upset half to death passed into the kitchen, my mood was really destroyed this morning. The longer I felt the more disturbing, the selfish feeling of wanting to have always been present in my soul.

That's why I even hate myself, I've let the crowd down at least I want to atone for my sins with all the pain that might not be much compared to seeing how disappointed my best friend was at that time.

I breathed deeply into even the events that had been months gone by but the pain and regret always came to fill my life. I prepared some menus for caffe today, I don't know I don't care about the arrival of the president I'm tired the more I throw him out the more he always comes.

Not feel all the menu is done right, I take a chair and sit on it. the age of the seventh content of this month makes me always easily feel tired, he said, I massaged my feet that were slightly swollen due to the effects of pregnancy and probably also because I was standing too long.

At a time like this I know how difficult it is to find money, but in the past I only wrestled with a few files and schedule the president's schedule alone was able to make my money very abundant. I smiled wryly if all the things in the past did not happen maybe I would not feel too deep regret like this. But I believe in destiny, whatever God has outlined cannot make me more difficult, god knows what is best for his servant.

After finishing with my daily devotions, I began to go out of the kitchen to open the cafe and look for sustenance to support myself. I saw that the president was gone, let him go home by himself. I started to open the cafe the first gaze I went to was the street. I miss my father

I was shocked when Ms. Ratri patted me on the shoulder,

"Think what pregnant" said Ms Ratri

" mother just ngaggetin" I said as she rubbed my chest

"lagari mornings even daydream, nyariin mas handsome earlier huh?" said Mrs Ratri who made me a little eneg.

"Well, let's just him go Alexa all this time well peddled without him? it is precisely Alexa seneng finally she wants to go home without Alexa expelled" said I who was asked to gelengan.

"Mom knows how you feel, which woman is a good life if you only experienced severe morning sickness at the beginning of your pregnancy" said Ms. Ratri.

"huft, I know how you've been struggling and your most difficult time even when you're pregnant. Alexa I know maybe you're disappointed in her, but what I see is she's like a responsible person.want to when Alexa would avoid and not want to investigate the truth?" said Mrs ratri

"There's a reason why Alexa is acting this way and of course Alexa believes it's best for me and my son" she said, smiling.

"Mom knows not only you are injured but the man felt that way too, Alexa try to speak from the heart of heart and find your point of misunderstanding. If you're not going to be together, at least making peace with one of the past will ease the burden of your mind." Said Ms. Ratri saying goodbye to me.

ms Ratri's words were successful in making me think, is it true that what Ms Ratri said was able to solve my problem even though only one?

"Rubber... Miss Alexaa yuhuu." said Rara as she waved her hand in front of me.

"ish what Raa" I said weakly as I took a glass of milk that Rara gave me.

"Mbak Ale why else? badmood because Mr Azka came here? yaudah Rara promised that he would immediately step foot here" said Rara

"What the hell ra, Ra I'm tired of gini keep. Ms. Ratri she asked me to have a one-on-one conversation with the president so that it was all over. Do you think that's the right idea?" I said to Rara, I heard her sigh many times

"huft gini ya mbak Alexa I really know you are in the abyss of regret that should not be entirely your fault. Dann I think it's a very good idea so you know your problem and you can talk about all your heart including what steps you will take later." said Rara while hugging me.

"But back to mba Alexa, if mbak Alexa is not ready should not be forced I am confident in the ability mba Alexa if mba Alexa is strong" said Rara again

"Thank you, Ra, I'd like to meet my father. But I was too embarrassed to meet him" I began to shed tears.

"What if Dad kicked me out? I'm too embarrassed for Ra to say everything" I said

"Why is this pessimistic anyway bumil everything is not possible as we think. There must be one or two things that are not necessarily the same as that." said Rara while holding both hands.

"Trust me, God is forgiving. Mr. prastio will not hurt you, if it happens I will first protect you" Rara said with a smile.

"Well I will, please accompany me to Ra." I said to the girl in front of me.

"Siapp"

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In the morning I was preparing to return to the city, I deliberately brought my father's favorite food and some souvenirs that I brought. The journey that I will take approximately 3 hours, actually can take a plane but I refused because honestly I could not afford a plane ticket when the caffe was quiet. I decided to take public transportation and it made Rara a little chatty during the trip. She was so worried about me I could see how much she wanted to make me comfortable on the trip.

A few hours have passed, now I am home, home where I grew up and spent with my father. When you arrive at the gate don't ask how I feel, Fear and fear are so dominating that it makes my guts shrink.

Rara saw me holding my hand

"Ra, let's go home. I'm afraid of Ra" I said as I began to shed tears, I don't know I became a crybaby during my pregnancy.

"In time, a few more steps do not you waste mbak. Relax, I am always beside you. I will not leave you" Rara told me

we stepped in after being opened by the security guard on duty and then I entered and knocked on the door of the house. The first knock had no answer until the second I saw the same Aunt open the door.

"Non Alexa, Non anywhere aunt misses Non Alexa" said Auntie immediately hugged me tightly.

"ehem Bi, is Dad here?" I said slowly

"Master Prastio is there, he's inside let's go Miss I call" Bibi said as she pulled me into the house.

Somehow even though this house now feels foreign to me, the house that used to always provide comfort is now turned into a gripping atmosphere.

"Ra, I'm getting scared. Let's just go home Ra" I told Rara.

"sisti... sit still mbak" said Rara did not memggubrisku.

drap drapp drapp

the sound of shoes coming down the stairs, I made sure it was Dad. I looked up at the stairs and it was true that there was the man I had longed for, the only man I had and my first love. Now with a cold and flat face began to approach towards the living room where Rara and I were sitting.

"What do you want to come here" said Father in his Flat Tone. I felt like crying, one of the people I was disappointed in was now so cold to me.

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