Mute Girl Heart Enthusiast
129. All Not Ended (Ending Actually)
The sky that had been faintly gray, was now increasingly visible. Even the darkness of the night had already surrounded the center of Jakarta with rain that fell very rapidly.
For some reason these last two days the sky has so faithfully lowered the water droplets. Is it all due to the date that has entered April? Or did God deliberately send down this water to accompany a man who is currently walking in an uncertain direction in the midst of the torrential rain and darkness of the night.
The honking sound of the passing car did not make the man pass from the middle of the road. Instead he kept his way straight ahead and he cared about his hearing for the surrounding area.
"If you want to die, don't be here" scolded one of the drivers and immediately speeded on a quiet road that was out of nowhere.
While the man who looked chaotic in all-black wet clothes could only sing an ironic smile, "I also want to die quickly, my wife is already waiting up there," he replied in a whisper, his right hand pointing towards the sky, which tonight is not decorated by stars other than the dense cloud of cloud that is accompanied by the appearance of lightning.
The gloomy-faced man moved his palm to wipe away the tears that were fused with the grains of rainwater.
life is still long
"That's not true. Everything you say is not true. My life is dead, everything is dead and it's with you leaving to go where I can no longer go." Kavin fended off Mika's spirit words earlier with a tone that sounded firm even the tightened jaw.
"Our relationship is short, but let it be. I did it with all my heart and now my heart is no longer with me, because you have taken it away" he said as he continued to walk in an uncertain direction.
Kavin had been walking like this for hours, or even he had done it from coming home from a common eater where his wife was buried.
He said he would let his wife go this afternoon, but it was all nonsense. Proof, look at it now. He was like a madman walking in the middle of the street.
Lucky tonight the streets aren't too crowded, "I'm raising you to come back, baby. I miss you "Kavin said softly and along with that dai immediately sat down right in the middle of the crossroads.
Again and again Kavin cried with his head lowered and both hands covering his face. This is not the first time the man has felt the loss.
It was the first time she cried, when her mother died, then she also cried when Miguel I was eaten by Miranda I, and now this is the last and also gives a very deep mark.
"hello viewers of R.H FM radio listeners wherever you are. How are you tonight? of course you guys are okay, right? but oh but the song we're going to play tonight doesn't seem okay. This song sounds like a person who is losing and this song is requested by Mbak Ela who is in east Jakarta, what's the news mbak, hopefully the husband mbak calm overcome there well. let's just play a song for Ela. These are the green leaves, I And Your Water Eyes."
Kavin looked at the radio attached to a pole that stood towering. The man smiled, as if he felt that it was not only him who was currently grieving.
The sound of soft-pitched music began to fill the women's area, making Kavin a little more comfortable there. Even he to the point of changing the position from sitting down to a raised leg with his hands above the knee.
Kavin closed his eyes when the tone for a sad tone entered his ears to make the memories of good memories with Mika twisted.
"Fell my tears
Iringi crumbles my heart
When I lost you and only
The rain that accompanied me.
When I survive
I've been holding out all this time
Pass all night
The coldness I see is only your step.
Oh, you are my tears
You are the only witness of my life
When I lost it
When I lost it."
The strand of lyrics sung by green leaves brings memories for the sweet memories of Kavin and Mika. Whether it's togetherness when you go out first or when you're married. All twisted in Kavin's memory.
***
Ten o'clock in the evening Kavin just got to his apartment building. Now the man was standing at the door of his dwelling. Kavin just stared at the door with a blank look.
The man who was all soaking wet began to move to raise his right hand and move to knock on the door.
Three beats he did without any happy expression as usual, "Honey, open the door." Kavin shed tears, but not as hard as before.
Feeling no response, Kavin turned the doorknob and directly pushed it inside. Loneliness immediately welcomes the arrival of Kavin when he enters the apartment.
At most his ears only hear the sound of Mira meowing and is currently circling his legs. Even the cat did not hesitate to stick his fur in Kavin's wet pants.
While Kavin who already had no spirit to live, could only walk with a blank look. Suddenly the man's footsteps came to a halt as he had already set his foot in the central room.
"wow this corn parchment food. This food is my favorite to know, thank you. I take a shower, okay."
Kavin only smiled as he looked back at the events he had done here with his wife. She could even watch how she hugged Mika from behind as the woman cooked.
"eat a lot so you're always healthy."
"swear, all your cooking tonight is delicious. Thank you, dear."
Even Kavin can still see himself having dinner with Mika in the same dish where he feeds his wife.
Kavin again smiled his tears one by one back down his cheeks. He walked a little to the living room.
"Where am I sitting next to you, where are Mira and Migu? "
Kavin chuckled as he looked at Mika who was doing sob with a sullen face and he increasingly laughed in tears as he saw himself pulling Mika, who was just a bit of a frown, until sitting on his lap replaced the popcorn that had been up there and had moved on top of Mika's stomach.
"you still have my lap, baby. So, don't be jealous of Migu and Mira. Don't you think, Papa's kids?"
Kavin lowered his head because he no longer wanted to see memories that looked like a real theater in every corner of his house.
The claustrophobic feeling returned to draw Kavin's heart, making the man's back tremble. He did not want to linger in a place that would further make him feel this pain.
Kavin started walking into the hallway where, his room was. Arriving in the room. Kavin again stood still in the doorway, his feet as if he did not want to go any further to get inside here, because of the shadow of his wife who fell asleep on the bed tonight, just keep bothering him.
But, as Mika said. He had to move on, because his journey was still very far away. He still has a career to pursue.
Kavin started to walk deeper inside. At first he intended to lay himself on the bed, but it was not done.
The man walked over to his wife's dresser, opened the drawer, and pulled out a photo album.
Kavin opened the album and a piece of paper suddenly fell on the floor, "Well?" kavin muttered in a hoarse voice because it was his first time making a sound.
Kavin bent down to pick up the paper. He turned it around as if he was looking, "For me? but who wrote it? What can't be this."
Kavin did not continue his words. He chose to put a photo album on his late wife's dresser and now his focus is on that piece of paper.
Kavin moved unfolded by fold of paper until his eyes re-glazed when he saw the writing there.
For Husband.
***
Kavin stared intently at the mirror in front of him. The look on his face that had been happy because he could read the last words that he thought were happy from his wife, but it made a fire grow in his body.
Kavin clenched both hands making the veins on the back of the hand printed clearly, even on his neck as well.
"True— my journey here is still long and all this is not the end. At first I'll learn to let you go, but I won't. I will never be sincere, because all this is not our destiny. I'm sorry I couldn't take care of you, but trust me I'll get back for all this. I will avenge those who have done this injustice to you, even though I will be labelled a murderer." Kavin spoke at length with words that sounded very, very creepy. Moreover, his gloomy face looked very, very sinister.
"I, Alfarizi Kavindra will not let you live in peace after doing this to my wife and my future son." Kavin immediately grinned like a demon filled with hatred.
"Thank you for raising the devil in me" said Kavin, grinning his hands tightly clenched to the point of turning his books white.
...The End's...
...I can finally finish this story....
...Thanks also to the readers who have been willing to stop by and provide all comments and likes along with support....
...The message we can take from this story is....
...For everyone, whether it's young or adult. Please, you change your mindset to someone who was born imperfect. I know many of you feel empathy with children who need special attention, but not a few people who do not have empathy for people like Mika. ...
...There must be many people out there who are not happy with people like Mika, even not infrequently we see people like Mika is kept away. Even worse people like Mika is used as Bullyan material. Didn't you? ...
...So for everyone start changing your mindset. No, no, no one is born imperfect and we keep away. But instead, we must embrace them, invite them to make friends, so that those who are born imperfect do not feel alienated....
...That's all the hell. Once again thank you, and we meet in the next story 👇...
...Also stop by my story this yah👇...
...See you, if it has been released I will announce here the story of Kavin yaj....
