Mother's Love All the Time
fragile beginning
when I was afraid it happened, I had to see that the long hair now began to fall out.The process of chemotherapy made my child's body as fragile, his mouth dry and his hair fall out.
"doctor, how will my son be like the old days?I went to see the doctor and asked everything that happened to nia's body."the doctor replied with a heavy heart"bu ana, the cancer is very thin to be able to heal completely, but you have to be patient!although his hair fell out or his mouth was dry and his body was also thin not as fresh as it used to be."many times I remember what the doctor said to me."
Nia comes up to me and sees her face on my little glass."mama, she's ugly now! While wiping her tears nia cried as hiccup."nia darling, for mama,nia still a beautiful mama's child" I replied.later if nia healed, surely nia's hair can grow again.I always try to calm nia's heart, nia,starting to be fragile it feels like there is no spirit.
Aunty and the government also encourage them all love the same nia"mungkas ku.ini already chemo the 5th time for nia, the doctor said there is still no development whatsoever.even weight nia getting down.
at home nia asked me to buy meatballs, but I refused it. Because nia abstained from eating meatballs".pity you son, still little can not enjoy a good meal out there."I endured her curiosity even though in my heart I still wanted to give her good food.
Tok....tok...rudi has arrived at the house, so he happened to buy hodgepodge and somay."rudi asked nia, does she like to not eat somay??nia nodded her head assuring.alright if you want to eat a lot of ya!I think that eating is also not okay for nia.but pity that all I forbid continues, once nothing.
It seems like this one year nia never snacked outside, especially her unstable body forced our family just at home.fear something bad happened to nia.
This lip feels his complaining unable to say anything, when there is another call from his mother"ana, how are you?ask mom heni to me."I'm good mom!ana, now that Bima is in foreign affairs, maybe she's three or more days there.Hopefully the bima can forget you."why did bu heni say that?all this time I've been quiet mom, and always received all the treatment mom had on me, mom was also cynical towards me." in a firm tone I expressed all my resentment towards her.
How dare you ana, I actually forbid bima to meet you.but bima always said that you are a special woman!what do I want to answer?he's my son and I only respect the bima"sahut bu heni."I know my mother is only a widow, I am aware of that, but I also love pak bima, I know,not because of the treasure or anything, but because pak bima is good and can protect the family, and I'm sure he can be a good papah also for my son.
"already ana, I do not want to argue.I just convey the message bima to you!later after returning from abroad he will propose to you, but do not feel proud and happy first, because I have said.I only respect the decision of my son, and that does not mean I accept you as my man-in-law."bu heni hung up the phone.
And I thought of his words that pierced my heart, what I could be.happy on top of his hatred for me, was I able to see him pretend to be good in front of the bima sir alone.oh, I was,ana everything that is in front of the eyes is a charade, like I have to eat simalakama fruit.
As fragile as it feels like I want to scream as loudly as possible.so that everyone knows, so that the world hears my cry.this is really crazy love
