Me and my Husband's Storage

94. Surrender

Hezkiel*

I decided to go back to the hotel where I was staying. I'm calling Joe. Tell Joe if he'll see her at night. Right now, I don't want to meet anyone and go anywhere. My mind is messed up, my heart is full.

I kept wondering, has she been okay all this time? and I already knew the answer. She is very nice, she looks more beautiful and happy with other men. Different when he was with me.

How, this? I am very sad and disappointed. When my mind wants me to apologize and my hope is that we will get back to fixing the relationship. But the answer I got made me realize. If all I wish for was a dream.

That's not gonna happen. Our relationship ... Our relationship has really been destroyed. There is nothing left, except a shred of bad memories from the past. I always hurt her, always say rude and scold her. My unworthy treatment and also toying with his feelings without thinking about the consequences. All of this now traps me like a rope hanger.

From the look in his eyes. Seen once, if he didn't want that meeting. Yes, even if it was an accidental meeting. Boldly, he opposed me talking alone in private. From there I knew that Celine had great respect for Jihyuk, who was now her husband.

I closed my eyes. I recalled all of Celine's words and facial expressions. The more I remember, the more I think. My chest is getting crowded. My eyes suddenly felt hot, I let out something called 'Tears'.

Yeah, I'm crying. I weep for my unlucky fate. One sentence that represents all of this. That is, 'My swallowing is too late'. I can't reach it anymore. It will not be ....

Hicks ....

Hicks ....

This is the punishment I must accept and bear. I who used to waste it, no longer deserve to expect it. I leaned against the wall until I was on the floor. I closed my eyes. The memories of the past that kept haunting me then, my hope of being able to repair this broken relationship, all I had to end up here. I also have to give up. I have lost this war.

Hahh .. she is happy. I won't bother him anymore. He said, I should try to forget this feeling, right. Yeah, I'll do it. I'll take everything out slowly.

As I struggled with my thoughts and tried to calm my claustrophobic heart. My phone in my pocket rang. I received a call apparently. Who, huh? I took my suit and I grabbed his pocket to get my phone out.

I was quite surprised. Because it turns out Dion called me. Wh why? is there anything? this guy always confused me. He is very mysterious and unpredictable. As my phone kept ringing, I was forced to take her calls.

"Hallo" I replied.

"Hezkiel, I heard you left, yeah. I'm in the same place where you are. Oh, ja. Maybe it was more precisely us, not just me." the strange man said something I didn't understand.

"What do you mean, Dion? don't twist with me. I don't want to think much, because I'm tired" I said.

"Hm, so. So, you've met my sister, haven't you?" said again. He's making me curious.

"What is your purpose in calling me. If you just want to talk nonsense, then forget it. I'm not interested. I'm tired, I want to rest." I don't want to talk much anymore and want to end this call.

"Come down, meet me at the cake shop not far from the hotel you're staying at. It won't be long, I just want to see you for a few minutes" he said. He's getting suspicious.

"For what? just talk on call, if you want to talk about something." I said.

"This is the last one" he replied, ending the grill just like that.

I frowned, "What, this? he makes me curious and upset. What a man who can't be guessed by his thoughts." you murmured.

I keep thinking. What I should do. Should I go see him, or ignore him. But I'm curious too. Why would he want to meet me. How'this?

***

I also decided to leave. I arrived at the cake shop not far from the hotel where I was staying.

"This is just a cake shop around the hotel. Right here, right?" muttered.

I put my foot in it. Justright. I saw Dion and .. wait, who's the woman with him? the woman sat in front of Dion. Short haired woman with a body shape that is quite similar to someone I know.

"You've come" said Dion standing up from his seat.

"Yes" I replied.

"I'll leave you two. Speak well. It's your last chance to meet, isn't it." said Dion, causing further confusion.

"Thank you, brother" said someone. It's a woman's voice and .. This voice sounds familiar.

Don't-don't .. when I turn to see someone who speaks it. I'm appalled. It was Monna. As expected. Because I remember his voice so well.

"Mo, Monna.

"Speak you two. Excuse me first." said Dion. He approached Monna, "If it's over, meet me. Don't cry alone anymore. If you ask me to beat up this ugly man, then I'll do it." he said again and left.

What is Dion talking about? and ... when did Monna get that close to Dion? what's their relationship? they can't date, right. Don't-don't .. ahhhh, crazy. My guessing mind is uncontrollable.

"Rather than guessing, shouldn't you just ask, Kiel?" monna looked at me.

I'm surprised, "Ah, what? I don't understand what you mean." my dear. I don't want to look stupid in front of him.

Monna smiled, "Sit down. I won't take much of your time. Just five minutes" he said.

Deg .. deg .. deg ...

Her beautiful smile always made me flutter. Even though she was the woman who had betrayed me, I could not deny it, if she was the woman I loved so much in the past.

I also sat as he wished. He put a file of documents on the table in front of me. He looked at me and smiled again.

"Thank you and sorry" he said.

"For what? I didn't do anything" I said.

"I'll apologize first. Because in the past, I've used you a lot for my personal interests. To be honest, I have someone I should protect. But, that I can't do. I was forced to approach you because I wanted to ensure the safety of my Mama who was held hostage by someone who helped me a lot. Sorry, Kiel. I know you're very disappointed. These are the shares and money you gave me. I'm giving it back to you, because I don't want to owe you anything. Thank you, for coming to see me. If I don't ask Dion for help, there's no way I can see you, right. Hahhh .. Now I'm relieved. I'm saying goodbye. I'm going to move and settle in Japan. This is our first meeting in a long time. This will be our last meeting. I'm sorry I did all that, Kiel. Ii'm sorry. I hope you're okay and happy. It's okay, if you can't forgive me. I didn't expect that much either. Because I realize my mistakes are too much for you. Sorry ... " Monna tried to give an explanation even though it was not detailed.

The point is he did it all because he was desperate for his mother. That's right, isn't it? I also tried to digest the story. As I was thinking, suddenly Monna said goodbye.

"Because you're just quiet. I don't think there's anything you want to tell me. I'm leaving, yeah. Again I'm sorry. I'm sorry, Kiel." she stood up from her seat and just left.

I can't stop him, nor can I continue with him. How, this? again I was surprised by an unexpected encounter. Unknowingly, I thought of Celine. This is what it feels like to be in his position. It is hard to accept, but cruel to refuse. It's like standing on a brittle piece of wood.

I'm rattled. I don't know what to do. But, for sure I feel relieved, at least he also looks fine after parting with me. He's going, yeah. To Japan?

May you also always be well and happy, Monna. This is my prayer for you. It's hard to forgive me, but I'll try to do it. Let all this disappear with the wind.

In the end, it all gave up! We have to live our own lives.

*****

Note:

"Life is a choice. Want as good as any choice you choose, there must be a risk that you will be borne."

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