Love Or Debt

*Part 38 Better to love

On the other hand, Sean is getting closer to Meta. Right now, we don't just meet outside. Sean also often visited Meta's house.

Sean's movements are realized by both Meta's parents. And, they were so happy and so hopeful, that Sean could be with Meta. Because Sean looks very soft camp in treating Meta.

Well, regardless of Sean's past who is currently a widower. It was all the special things Sean had. Good family background. Good job anyway. The future of Meta will be assured.

And the most special thing is, Sean is so gentle, caring, and abundant in affection in treating Meta. That's what makes Meta parents so hope Meta can be together with Sean. Because after the failure of the marriage Meta experienced, they were very afraid of their child being let down again.

"Met, being loved is better than loving, son. For example, because there already is. Mama thought, all this time you have been satisfied to feel the name of love, right? Until in the end, you are forced to accept what is let down."

"Yes, Son. Love will come slowly too. Sean's young master looks really good, Met. He seems to be eager to have you as his wife." Papa Meta also confirmed what was previously said by the wife.

Meta who was holding a spoon and intended to put food into the mouth, suddenly petrified due to the speech of his parents. That made his brain think hard.

'Well, Sean's been pretty good to me all along. He also said that one day, he wants to have another wife. He wanted to replenish the emptiness of his heart after the separation of that time. But .... ' Meta is busy with his own thoughts.

All this time, he had indeed been aware of Sean's excessive treatment of him. But he didn't want to respond to that. Because his heart is not Sean in it. Alias, she still doesn't feel that she loves Sean, either. Because so far, there is still Jaka even if only a little.

Well, it's not easy to forget love. Moreover, the first love that he had so much hope for him to have. Even though that great expectation made him feel quite a disappointment anyway. But, to get rid of Jaka completely. Of course it takes a long time.

Mama's words made Meta round his eyes. At once he remembered his great debt. If it wasn't for Sean, then he probably wouldn't be living the way he is today. Either life or death, obviously, will not live as it is now.

"I ... know lose I owe it to Sean's brother, Ma. But, I am still confused as to what I should do. Do I have to act contrary to my little heart?" Meta asked with a face that really showed confusion.

Seeing that, his father then touched his daughter's shoulder slowly. "We don't want to force you to do what you don't like, Meta. But, remember one thing. What you've been through all this time, you should be able to make a valuable lesson, son. Don't make you take any more wrong steps."

"Yes, Met. My mom will support whatever you choose. But remember, don't choose the wrong thing. Don't let anyone get disappointed, son. Since you already know, being disappointed is really painful. So, I hope you know what you choose."

Meta did not answer. He knew what his parents really wanted at this time. Although they are not pushy, but they want it very much. And, the huge debt of gratitude left Meta with no choice.

'Alright. If God permits, then I'll be with Sean's brother. Although there is no love between me and her, maybe living with someone who loves her is better than living with someone we love, but not to repay our love.'

'Mom and dad are right. I know what it's like to be hurt, let down, and dumped. Therefore, I cannot make others feel what I feel. Let alone that person is, Brother Sean.'

And, in the end, the dinner ended the family instantly finished without waiting for Meta to finish his meal first. Because now, he was busy with his own thoughts.