
Part 44 " Disappointed "
Hosh hosh hosh
Morgan's gasping breath was heard after running as fast as he could to get to the airport but the results were disappointing, because my plane was already flying to Canada.
No matter how much I cover my departure to Canada to start a new life, Morgan still knows it at the last minute.
" Why didn't you say anything? You said you wanted to wait for me. " Murm Morgan was disappointed and upset in his heart, yet tears of sadness just flowed down his cheek.
Monica and Steve, who had just turned around after saying goodbye to me, were shocked to see Morgan in the airport crowd.
" Sister Morgan. " Sahut Monica ran over to her sister.
Without a word, look at Morgan's tears.. Monica immediately hugged her brother who was heartbroken.
" Why don't you hold him? " Said Morgan as a hiccup wept on Monica's shoulder.
" I'm sorry, brother. " Answer replied Monica who couldn't do much for Morgan, and could only cheer up with a gentle pat on Morgan's back.
Morgan was like a loss of direction, his feelings were mixed between feeling sad, disappointed and hurt with the decision I had taken.
He walked slowly to the airport exit.
The circumstances make Monica and Steve even more worried.
" Morgan's. " Call Steve stop Morgan's move.
" What else do you want? Are you satisfied to see me part with Sesil? " Sindir Morgan who became sensitive especially he knew Steve's feelings for me.
" I don't want to fight with you. I understand how you feel, but this is Sesil's choice for the continuation of his life. " Steve's voice justifies what I did, not to wait for Morgan.
" Shut your mouth. I don't need your opinion. " Snapped Morgan back into her arrogance mode and left them.
Monica also became worried to see the attitude of her brother, with immediately he followed Morgan and temporarily accompanied Morgan who was hit by problems with tubi.
While me..
Focused my eyes out the plane window.
My mind continued to drift like my current existence which was above the clouds.
On the one hand I feel guilty for not keeping my word to wait for Morgan. But on the other hand, I want to keep the feeling of my family not being able to see my life ruined.
I lost my job, in the blasphemy of many people, even people I never knew.
If given the complexity of my relationship and Morgan would be like this, it brought a lot of bad effects.Shouldn't be, I ended our relationship settings before our feelings related this deep.
My tears were dripping with my own, the more I moved away from Morgan and closer to a new life.
Hiks hiks..
My crying broke at this time..
I tried to hold it as good as I could when I said goodbye to Monica and Steve, but this time I didn't manage to hold it back.
For a few hours, I'd finally get to Canada.
Sure enough, everything has been prepared, sister Shelo and brother Arvi for my move.
Starting from a beautiful minimalist car and house that is covered with snow because it enters winter.
I brought some of my stuff and went into my new house.
It looks so quiet and so empty.
I have to do what.
I have to think about what.
I wish this calmness could take my mind off Morgan.
Especially at this time, I hope Morgan can focus on taking care of her newborn daughter and finding the best solution about her relationship with Rosa.
In addition, I also hope that people will gradually forget the name of Sesilia which has been stamped negatively since Morgan and I were in a relationship.
When I was busy pulling out some stuff, someone knocked on my door.
Immediately I opened the door, it seemed that a woman of my age and beautiful parachute was already standing in the doorway.
" Hey.. Welcome Sesil's. " Who is the woman named Tiara.
" Hi. um, do you know me. " I doubt it, because I don't know anyone here.
" Of course. I'm Arvi's friend, your sister-in-law. As well as his company manager in the Canadian branch. Can I come in? " Said Tiara who was so friendly.
" Oh. sure, please. " I let him in.
" Arvi gave me a message to help you during this time. I heard, you decided to stay here?" Tiara asked curiously.
" Well, that's how it is. I guess. " I doubt.
" If you need anything, call me. This is my business card." Tiara said while giving her business card.
" Thankyou Tiara. Um.. I still don't know what to do here.. Maybe for a while, I just need to spend some money?? Haha. " My joke melted the atmosphere and continued our conversation.
Move on
Many people always say, immediately move on from your disappointment is the best way, but to do it is very difficult, especially when we have so many memories that imprint in our hearts.
Right now I can also feel how disappointed Morgan is to me.
I said I'd wait for him..
I said I was ready to accept his situation..
I said I'd accompany her..
Just leave without a word in the middle of the condition he was struggling to solve all the problems..
I feel like a coward, yes, that's how I feel..
I seemed to be swayed, between my feelings but also the worries of my family..
One thing that made me relieved was to realize that I never said..
" I love you Morgan. "
The words that were stuck in my heart, I had not been able to reveal to him..
But I think it's better that way, Morgan's only going to get disappointed in me if he hears it..
" I'm sorry Morgan. "
I'll just walk where destiny takes me..
Even if one day things are under control and we meet again..
Will you forgive me.. We can at least be friends to say hello to each other..