Love In The Wound

Pt_30

I saw Mas Dikha frowning at my words.

"Don't tell me so deck, I know, you're a good girl" she replied. "Only your parents would want to protect you from evil" he added.

Sorry, Mom," I said guilty.

"It's okay" he replied calmly. Not showing any jealousy.

I looked back at the wound under Mas Dikha's right cheek as I turned to look at her.

"That's what you got!" I asked while pointing at his wound.

Mas Dikha looked nervous, trying to cover his wound with a palm. " Oh, last night there was a lot of wind on the deck, I closed the window accidentally so scratched," he said who was seen putting on a forced smile.

But it's true, wounds can come from anywhere. Maybe I was too hopeful Mas Dikha was the one.

"Naima!" Shouts someone calling me.

Mas Dikha and I turned to the source of the voice.

I saw Bang Rohman running towards us.

"What's up, Mom?" Ask me.

Not yet had Mas Rohman replied, Mas Dikha immediately said goodbye, his face looks dim, He was like he did not like the arrival of Mas Rohman who met me. Ah I don't know what's right I think or I just make GR.

"Nai, go first!" Her speech.

"Yes," I replied. He bowed his head to Mas Rohman and left us.

"You why Nai? do you not approve of our matchmaking?" Ask the sad looking Rohman.

"Then what?" Ask again.

I stopped my steps and looked at Mas Rohman. I still hold this holy book in my chest. I was confused, I had to answer what to Mas Rohman.

"Sir, I've been very suitable with you," he said..

Rohman is also handsome and authoritative. That's. The reason why you think he is a good man for me.But how else, I also do not want to make it even more painful if I know I am not holy.

Sometimes, my thoughts are sharpened for what I hijab and teach teaching, while I have done adultery with the mysterious man.

"I'm not a good girl Mas would be nice to find another girl," I obviously tried to be ordinary.

"But I already like you, Nai. Why your father even decided our matchmaking, I can accept really, if the reason you disappeared is still want to strengthen the heart" he said.

My heart suddenly seemed to be sliced, lucky to be loved by a young man like Mas Rohman. But baby, it all makes me feel more guilty. "Sorry, I can't" I said.

Rohman was silent to my words.

"Find a better girl Mas" I said. I also left the Rohman mas still stuck in his place.

I passed in front of Mas Dikha's house, I saw him smiling at me while planting fruit trees in the yard. I smile back, as a sign that I appreciate it.

She's my girlfriend, but why is this? will my life always be like this? as soon as I thought I was raging continuously. It's weird, but that's the truth.

I feel ashamed, surely Mas Dikha is heartbroken to know that. But why did Mas Dikha not propose at that time. Now it feels useless, because I don't want to hurt his feelings about what happened to me.

Sorry Nai, Mas. It's not worth it to live with you. May God replace the better than me.