Love for santriwati
Worried
The afternoon has changed, I greet the twilight with anxious thoughts, love that so culminated to make my head filled with the shadow of the woman named Halimah. Although the sunlight that has begun to fall to the west seems red and makes the twilight in this city more beautiful if viewed by people who like to see the sunset but not for me who is feeling concerned about my state of mind that is increasingly focused on Halimah's answer, the answer from the letter I gave to Halimah through Rika his best friend has made me more worried, anxious to feel the heart with this situation. How not a cigarette does not make me feel calm, maybe my heart can calm down if I have received the answer or I will feel the pain of love that is still mysterious to me. all that is possible, nothing seems to calm my troubled heart except the answer from Halimah, indeed this story makes me even more chaotic, if I may choose then I will choose not to have this story first until I am fully prepared for the consequences that I will have, but I could not choose because love had come to me, through the graceful figure of a woman who, when smiling like an angel, had come to me.
Will I be able to fall asleep tonight before I receive a letter with an answer from Halimah, the woman I've always wanted to be my companion in wading through life in a world that's beginning to forget this love.at least that's what's always on my mind right now, the tempest of love is so stifling, sometimes it is so perfect but sometimes it torments me with everything it gives for its perfection. will this love fall like a withered flower or will this love blossom like a flower that blooms in spring or will this love continue to torment my heart, I don't know if I really understand my way of thinking right now, I just hope that she, the woman who has made my taste so turbulent, blooming like a rose in the garden, will be, receiving this love sincerely is not out of pity for me who always expected it.
Today seems to be the most annoying day for me, all I have in mind is Halimah, no errands, no friends and no one, just Halimah, The thing I want. Alif that I usually look for today does not want me to meet because I am not wanting anyone to disturb me even though I want to escape from the shadow of Halimah that always haunts my mind. The burden I face seems to be getting bigger with this kind of unreasonable feeling, it feels crazy that I love him, until I expect him too much. I always expect him at my every step now although I'm not really sure he'll love me the way I love him.
While I was relaxing in the coffee shop where I used to hang out to enjoy coffee and cigarettes which have been my habit since long ago, Alif came and followed the steps of Rika and Halimah who looked so graceful, they smiled at me while greeting me,
"eh Di, wes souwi Kowe Nang kene (you've been here for a long time)" Alif said hello first,
"Yo iyo, Kowe tak golek'i Ra enek, Yo I coffee dawek(yes yes, you I look for nothing, yes I do coffee myself)" I told Alif,
"that's Iyo, I went to the campus to find references" Alif told me,
"Oh yes Lif, there is what Lif kok tumben here three of these same graceful angels" said I as I smiled towards Halimah,
"it just so happened that I wanted to come here, they kept calling me, he said nyariin you" said Alif, according to the newspaper,
"eeeeh where there is, we want to find a side dish to eat malem ntar" said Halimah,
"so he said kangen" ledek Alif on Halimah who saw Halimah smiling blushing shyly, she said,
"tenanan poooo, kangen ro me, I wes Ket want Nandang kangen ro Halimah, tawa'e Halimah tok seng enek Nang ati ku saiki(seriously what, kangen same me, pakan, I've been holding back longing for Halimah, the only thing that is Halimah in my heart right now)" I said smiling at Halimah,
"hahaha, someone is seducing" led Rika towards me,
"that's my brother I've read brother's writing, this is for brother, read it later if the evening activities are over" said Halimah while giving a white paper containing her writing that I had hoped for since then,
"okay Mah (i take paper from Halimah) later I read" I told Halimah,
"cieeee" Alif mocked me and Halimah,
"what's Lif, don't be greedy" ketusku because not too like ledge Alif, I don't want to,
"eh he said he wanted to pesen side dishes for later malem" said I diverted the conversation, he said,
"uh yes, Mom we pesen sambel tempe 10 thousand ya Bu" Rika said while ordering a side dish to the owner of the stall, said Rika,
"Come on, wait a minute" replied the shop owner,
"okay Bu" Halimah and Rika answered simultaneously,
"eh Di, by the way you will come to Bali later" Alif asked me,
"it's clear that my Lif will come, anyway pay you, hehehehe" I replied with a smile,
"yes, just calm down, as long as you can meet your idol I will be happy to pay you to Bali" ledek Alif while playing his eyes towards Halimah,
"hehehehe okay Lif, I'll meet him later" I smiled at Halimah,
in the midst of our preoccupation with chatting, the shop owner has finished preparing the Rika and Halimah pesenan, sambel tempe, and,
"this is nduk, the message is ready" said the owner of the stall to Rika and Halimah while giving a packet of sambel tempe, which is not yet available,
"thank you ma'am, this is the money" said Halimah,
"we went back to the dormitory first, sister" said Halimah again while waving at me and Alif, waving her hand,
"yes be careful on the road yes, later if it falls standing alone yes" said Alif joking at the two of them,
"yes my brother" said Halimah,
after the two of them left and just stay me and Alif at the stall to continue enjoying coffee and smoking before returning to the dormitory santri putra and follow the evening activities that will soon start, and do not forget Alif immediately ordered his favorite sweet black coffee and took out a cigarette for us to enjoy both in the middle of the beautiful twilight today.
