Love and Secret Identity

After the past is revealed

"It's not grandpa's fault!" vernon said when he knew all that

He immediately went to a private room, leaned back in his great chair, opened one of the drawers of the workbench and took something that made him frown with sadness.

"I'm sorry, all this time I didn't know if papa was so tormented!" he said he was currently looking at Mr Adhulpus's photo

"I'm sorry for hating too much about papa!" regretted it

"This truth you should have told me, but why hide all this from me?" lirih Vernon was eager to ask the Lord Adhulpus

The Big Move leader immediately got up from his seat, headed for the carport and boarded one of the luxury cars, speeding away from the residence of Lord Francois.

A few hours drive now he has arrived at a place that reminds him of his past, namely the mension of the lord Adhulpus. For a long time he did not visit his childhood.

Vernon looked at every corner outside the mension, some memories of the past as if twisted so real in his eyes, making one corner of the handsome man's lips lift up, smiling faintly. But the main purpose of coming to that place was to meet the father, who somehow did not want to explain his past to his only son. While a man like Vernon who is stubborn and firm in principle, really need an explanation.

He began to enter the mension, the cool air of the place was still the same and there was no change in it.

"Where's papa?" vernon said to one of the male servants

"Master hasn't been home for a week to mension sir!" obviously the waiter made the handsome man look worried.

He entered the office of his father, where only Adhulpus could enter. Every wall was on display with a painting of Madame Azqila that brought Vernon closer, looking at every corner of the face. Although this is the first time he saw the portrait of the beautiful woman, but the feeling of familiar will make him want to touch the picture of the mother.

Vernon's beautiful hands began to move towards the frame in which there was a photo of the mother.

"Is this mama?" with teary eyes

"Is this my mother's face?" tears that could not be contained anymore now slowly began to drip.

After being satisfied to look at the photo, Vernon turned to the work desk of the father who looked very neat as if he was just afraid to enter the room, their characters are both the same as men who are perfectionists, his self-esteem is very high because it seems selfish.

When he opened the safe, Vernon's vision was fixed on a box, and he took it, began to occupy the father's seat, opening the box which contained a lot of note paper and a letter. He began to read the notes one by one.

"I have prepared warm water so that you can relax the body, and do not forget after that dinner, I have prepared. Hope you enjoy it!" second note sheet

"Furnished lunch do not miss, if there is a menu that you want to leave a note on the table" the third sheet, and many other sheets that contain the concern of lady Ayeleen, and many other pages that contain the care of Ayeleen, he tried to remain concerned even though he had been ignored, but his efforts still ended up painful.

Vernon opened the letter and read it.

"I'm sorry, for having entered the life of the master and made things complicated, making the master feel even more guilty. I'm the one who's actually wrong in this, I've fallen in love with a man who hasn't been able to make peace with his past, someone who says that he I married is a dead man, and will never love this self, his feelings have been buried with his first love."

"But this stupid self, this cold and indifferent attitude to everything made me fall more and more in love with him. I love the attitude that makes my heart hurt, I can't resist that feeling because if the heart makes its choice to someone, it can't be stopped."

"I don't need a confession from him, just not disturbed by my existence it has made me very happy. Looking at it from afar had already satisfied this longing. I'd be lying if I said okay, when he always dissolved in the sadness of his past. But whatever my day I cannot be the antidote to that wound, if this self approaches it I fear it will be a thorn that makes the wound bleed even more."

"I was so happy when I found out about this pregnancy, I was eager to feel like a couple in general, telling their partner the happy news, but whatever my day I'm just a woman married without love and based only on pretence."

"Don't ask how hurt this is, just ask if I'm happy with her, if I enjoy all this. Surprisingly I enjoyed it and was so happy, I couldn't blame him because in this case I was the one who was wrong. I love him too much, I don't want to part with him, I miss him so much."

"I know I lost to women in my past, so I don't want to compete and just want to have it from afar, and it's more than enough for me to satisfy this feeling."

"I love him no matter what his attitude is to me, until whenever this feeling will remain the same. He is not a romantic guy and always acts cold, but he values me as his partner. I'm sure he loves me not in what I want, but in his own way."

"If I don't love him the way I want to, I will love him with all my heart. If sadness brings me closer to her then I will still choose that. Because I know far from him it's more painful and self-torturing."

"Maybe this feeling of love came to him because I knew how hard he had made peace with his past, how often he shed tears and hid it with a smile, I know how hard it is to get through his days, know how often those tired eyes wake up every night remembering his first love."

"Maybe because I am his spouse therefore God gives me the same feeling, that I may understand him, to feel every bit of his sadness. Because in every prayer I want to be a partner who complements him, wants to be his true partner even though nothing is eternal in this World."

"I will always love her even if that wait is so long, if she will never give me her love, then I am happy to have been a part of her life."

"I know it's the cruelest feeling in the world, it makes me justify something I love, and blame something I hate. The feeling kept me going despite the bad attitude I knew, the feeling that made me not want to leave even though he had hurt me so many times, and because of this feeling I couldn't tell which one I should have kept and I left behind."

"I just want him to know that I will always be there in every difficulty and sorrow. I love you all the time!" the letter that lady Ayeleen addressed to Mr. Adhulpus