Love Aksara

47. Beliefs

"Would you like to eat something?" Tawar Tian, since returning from the market last afternoon the pregnant mother had not filled her stomach. Ressa just shook her head then daydreamed again.

"What the hell was that?" Tian asked gently with his shady gaze. His outstretched hand stroked Ressa's hair, carrying the wife in arms.

"Nothing" replied Ressa, shaking her head slowly.

"There I am if you want a story, share your burden with me. It's not good to daydream, Honey." Ressa is still faithful to her silence.

"I'm not a good man, but I'm going to try to be a good husband and father to you and our son." Said Tian when Ressa never spoke.

"Are we going to be good parents?" Ressa stared at her husband.

"We'll both learn to be good parents, Sa." Just this time Tian regretted already being a useless person. He never thought he would want to have children. Now he's worried that his children will find out how bad his father is.

"When my sisters got married, my parents smiled happily, Tian. But yesterday, I didn't want to."

Tian could see the tears that had fallen on Ressa's cheeks and was instantly wiped away. He didn't even have a stock of words anymore to calm down. His embrace is getting tighter.

"I'm sorry Sa. Because of me, you have to fight your mother. Ever since I was a kid I never felt what a father or mother hug felt like. So I don't know what it's like for you to lose all that." Said Tian wryly who considered Ressa's feud with her mother because of her presence.

"Hey, I'm sad again. Why are you crying." Canda Ressa, wiped away the clear details that had almost fallen from Tian's eye bag. Ressa kissed the two eyes with tenderness.

"You're the best, so don't be sad anymore. I'm not going to be contagious, too," Tian said with a small laugh.

"Is it really sleep?" Tian took a lying position. Tilting her body while looking at Ressa.

"Well, keep doing these nights. Playing chess?"

"Don't want to exercise first, hm?" Tian raised his eyebrows teasingly.

"What should be every night?" Ask Ressa innocent. That's not really the question. What Tian usually does every night with different women. Remembering that made his heart suddenly ache.

"You can do it, if you can't, papa." Said Tian, considering Ressa is pregnant young she can not be too imporse the energy of this mother-to-be.

"How come I'm not the same you want to sleep with who tonight, hm?"

"Hey why do you talk like that?" Tian Shocked. "After I slept with you, I never slept with another woman again Ressa." Frustratingly, it seems like this kind of question will often repeat itself. He must be patient in responding to it.

"Well, I'm not sure!"

"Yes, if you can't believe I don't mean it" Tian relented. Defending yourself will have no end. "It's hard to believe in someone like me Sa." He said he patted Ressa's head three times and closed his eyes.

Ressa felt guilty for offending Tian. All of this was purely due to his worry. How could he believe Tian wasn't sleeping with any women anymore, while that man couldn't be idle for a day. Ressa rubbed her puffed face and closed her eyes.