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LONGS

After everything is done. I want to feel like I'm coming home soon.

Where's the...

I could see a smile from my mother

I am indeed a turtle who is so naughty and has done a lot of wrong and act.

But I still have a soft heart

The one inherited from my mother, for myself.

My mind is so vibrating.

As if it wanted to explode. Sustained...

Stifled.

That day also after the distribution of reports and diplomas that I received in completing the farewell event. I enjoy everything. Events and togetherness with parents. Mom and dad.

I went home to Bandung after the school break-up. Don't forget to say goodbye to my friends. Especially zimy and rey. For us this is a heartwarming moment where we might take each other's journey. But that was not the end of our friendship.

We encourage and pray for each other. We'll all go to college.

I remember all the things that happened to me over the last three years. So many lessons and experiences I have learned. Diamana.I can understand how to get through and live this life. The events I had with my chaidir made me a person full of prudence. And my experience during school, made me independent and not easy to judge someone with a bad view. That not everyone, students or young people who do juvenile delinquency is a bad human being, does not have values or conscience.

Sometimes they have a soft conscience. Faithful. And also full of concern for others. But what I see. They have different lives in general. They are more free to express themselves. They don't like to pretend and don't like to pretend. They look more like what they are. More instinct than prestige. I don't like to listen to what people say. Well that's us. Me and my friends.

I am grateful for what I experienced. I am so grateful to the chaidir and April. Because thanks to them I get life experiences that maybe not many people experience.

And maybe I wouldn't be full of caution if I was friends with a woman.

After I got back to humming as usual I helped mom wash her clothes and go to the market every morning. To buy the kitchen. Like that I was from the first High School until now went to college.

Remembering all that. I became a little changed after getting to know the Chinese woman. The innocent girl who had a flash of light on her face.

I repeat I am tired of women. I don't know why I miss him so much right now.

Actually, I hate the longing I feel. I think the feeling of longing for the opposite sex is not halal, is a disaster and not a blessing. How not! This miss cannot be channeled. And will continue to tear and tear at the heart. We will wonder if the person we miss, misses us too? Or if we think of him, does he think of us?. Often longing that comes to interfere with all kinds of activities in one's life.

If anyone says that missing someone is beautiful. Then everything is a lie. I miss more pain than beauty. It is beautiful if it is halal and living together. It's beautiful if we miss it. But..what about longing that is not halal? Or an unrequited miss? Can it still be said to be a beautiful longing?

Day by day I have been living. Amira and I never met again. Well because I decided not to meet before I legalized it. It's for me and amira. I don't want us both to fall into bad things. I know Amira is a good woman and also beautiful. But what power when we already have feelings for each other if not ready to justify each other in a marriage bond. Close relationships are also based on feelings of like or love in general. If it is not halal then the legal sin in the religion of Islam. Well this is to maintain the dignity and honor of women.

Because women are like crowns and jewels that are kept beautiful, you know jewels? The gems are stored in a thick glass-lined box. All around him are given a limit like a red rope so that strangers can not have it carelessly. Only certain people can have it. Of course, they are not ordinary people.

Just like a woman, who is kept beautiful and honorable like a jewel, and if scratched just once, the value will fall as much as a jewel if scratched a little then the value will go down. If the gem falls in value. Then women will drop their respect in the eyes of men.