Let me be hurt

Episode 12's

But I want to stay here, you (my word while holding his hand)

Kak mending kak Reza came home aja deh,kan brother Reza already nemenin me from semalem. Clara knows brother Reza tired so mending sister go home, Clara can take care of herself kok (say to me)

No matter I do not want to go home, I want to keep you until tomorrow (my word to him)

Hmmm, tomorrow Clara can go home alone to pick up the driver Clara kak.So mending sister go home first aja deh, kasian aunt Kirana alone at home (say to me)

Come on Clara let me here with you, besides mama kok who told me to make you until we go home to me (my word to him)

Hahh..go home brother, brother Clara does not have his own house (he said to me)

Not anyway as long as you are sick you have to stay with me, at my house (my words snapped at him)

What the heck sister, Clara is already big brother so no need to be guarded. What part of the matter is the same brother anyway(saying while yelling at me)

You're why you're so stubborn, Clara, if I knew you would have avoided me better that time I planted a lot of my seeds in your womb so you couldn't get away from me (my words snapped at him and clasped his arms very firmly)

Aww..sick sister, off sick.If I am pregnant sister's child I will not want to meet brother, better I alone and raise my own child than with a selfish brother, I will not want to meet my sister,want to win alone and also rude (say shouted at me)

As long as you know yes, meeting with my sister again was a mistake in my life.I don't know why fate led me to meet my sister again and long ago you know I regret this situation.If I was given a choice between dying or living with my sister I'd rather just die. Rather than being tormented living with my brother (he said while crying)

Did you say Clara?? you better take back all your words before I get really mad at you. I can do anything to keep you with me (my words snapped and strengthened my grasp until he grimaced in pain)

Aww...sick brother.please...please.

His screams were so loud that finally someone entered Clara's nursery.

Mr. Reza stop (apparently Doctor Fadli)

Clara and I looked at her, Doctor Fadli approached Clara and I let go of my hand to Clara.When I let go Clara immediately hugged the Doctor. My heart ached when I saw him hug the doctor.

You okay Clara?? (the Doctor said)

No Fad, Fadli please drive out brother Reza (the Clara that makes my heart sliced)

Sorry Mr. Reza you heard it, so for the convenience of my patients I ask you to come out (he said to me)

Why should I, should you come out (my words are upset)

You heard it, Clara asked you to get out of here. Please, you don't want Clara to drop again. So I ask you to come out, let Clara calm her mind (she said to me)

Finally I relented and came out of his room, I went running to the hospital. I stopped by one of the chairs there. I thought about what the boy said when he was angry with me, my heart ached like it was sliced and my chest felt tight as I remembered it. I came to the tree next to the chair I was sitting on, I clenched my hand and beat the tree mercilessly, I beat the tree until my hand bled, but I did not stop there.I just continued to release my frustration on the tree without feeling pain even though there was a lot of blood coming out. I don't care about the people who look at me, My crush stops when a woman comes up to me.The woman wears a white coat like a Doctor in the hospital.

Reza stopped (yelling him and ran to me)

How do you know me?(?I asked him but I haven't stopped beating the tree yet)

I followed him, I sat in the chair with my hands bleeding.

You wait here (he said to me)

I just obeyed what he said, not long after that he came back with P3K equipment. The woman immediately cleaned my wound very painstakingly, some time later she finished with my hand and wrapped it using a bandage.

Why are you Reza?? (ask me)

You who?? (took me)

You seriously don't know me (he said to me which amazes me)

No, who are you?? (again, I ask him)

I'm Rara za!! (take it to me)

Yes now that I remember her, she was the woman who broke my heart. She was also the woman who made me no longer believe in love. Rara was my boyfriend when I was in high school. When graduation was announced, I no longer met him. Rara left without telling me, Rara left so I became frustrated because of her disappearance. I was so depressed and desperate that I did not want to continue on to the college bench.At that time I actually fell in a very deep valley, the valley was not only deep but also dark. I felt the silence of the valley. I thought about trying to save my life, but my mom and dad encouraged me. I finally rose from my despair and continued my life. My mom and dad told me.

Reza you have to be strong, mama knows you can definitely (pronounced my mama at that time)

Yes Reza, you have to prove to Rara that you can rise without her (pronounced my papa at the time)

Those words raised my spirit back. I stood up again, I continued my life. I can finally achieve what I want without having Rara in my life. It's just that I'm now turning into a male******, which treats women very badly. I made a woman as my lustful.But now she is back again, I do not understand what she wants.

Ohhh I remember!! you still know me (my words were sniffed at him)

Why are you so tired, Za?(?ask me)

I really think it's gini. jaudah I want to go first (me said to him)

When I stood up suddenly he pulled my hand, I was surprised by the pull because the pull made me sit back in the chair.

Sorry for me (said to me)

Sorry for what?? are you wrong with me?? (my words don't care)

Come on, I'm sorry, I didn't mean to. At that time I left you because I want to continue my S² to become a Doctor (he said trying to explain)

I'm sorry for you, but I'm gone (me said to him)

But za I want us to like first again, I want us to be together again like before (he said to me)

Sorry Rara if for that I can't, yaudah I go first (talk to her and leave her)