Legionaries

Typhoons

October 26th, 2018

At 20:48

In a given political climate, a stakeholder must have faced risks that arise as a result of his or her own policies. Throughout the history that has occurred in this country, any risk that arises due to wrong policy patterns will have a very broad impact on society. Not only are the stakeholders harmed, but those below them can suffer a similar fate, or even worse.

As the person most authorized in designing and assigning missions, Juragan has been known as a very brilliant leader. In general, I never doubted his skill in devising plans and strategies. However, lately suddenly my belief in the Juragan as tested. In recent months, I have often received unnatural duties. And, of course, that line of work is not without risk.

The most obvious example is what happened the day before. Because I was assigned with Teja to do a rescue mission against Rama, I had to suffer injuries in the ankle. Rescue and escape missions are not my specialty. I'm not as agile and shrewd as a very young Teja. Obviously I was hassled following his movements that were as fast as angina.

The injury I suffered was not a severe injury, just twisted, but still this is disturbing. And, most of all, the Juragan sent me on one more mission tonight when I was in this condition. I'm starting to think he's overdue. I can't rule out the services that have taken care of me since childhood, but I can't think naively either. All this time, me and the other students were only used as dairy cows for the benefit of the ophthalmologist and his friend, the opportunist general.

It seems that my fate line is not far from the work of a proletarian worker. Already squeezed out from morning to evening by the capitalist factory, the night I still had to bleed according to the orders of the Scouts to carry out a dangerous task. The risk I have to bear myself. If I really want to change my future, from now on I have to dare to determine my own future. I started thinking about leaving this place. After all, that wasn't just my wish either. Rana also wants us to have another more promising future.

This afternoon, while waiting for the task hours, I painstakingly straightened my right leg in the prone position. The pain immediately hit the part of my ankle that was still wrapped in bandages. I'm worried that, with my fitness condition not yet in full swing, I won't be able to complete my last mission tonight. Fortunately, I can still expect a lot from Rana to back me up. Besides, I promised her tonight was the last night we did this job. After this, the two of us will go as far away from this place as possible to start a new life.

"Where are your legs?"

I turned towards Rana who was suddenly standing behind me. Turning my back, I smiled at him. "Already lightened. It's not a big deal. How are you yourself? Ready already?"

"If you're still sick, you don't have to push yourself" he said, putting a glass of warm tea on the table for me.

"It's okay. Besides, I can't let you work alone? For the last time, let's finish this job together."

"job? Meanin?" Rana asked back.

"If I don't come, who do you want to work with?"

"Me?" Suddenly, Rana snorted cynically. Oh, naw. He started again. "Don't I tell you before?"

I scrunched my forehead. I don't understand what Rana's saying. "What about?"

"You always have been. Never cared about my words."

"Sorry, Honey. But I really don't understand."

"Have you ever tried to understand me?"

"Darling, you are not aware. I always try to do that."

"For who? For your own sake, right?"

Slowly my blood began to boil. "Enough, Rana! I don't want to fight. I really don't understand what you mean!"

Rana looked at me with a pushy face. Instantly I caught another aura emanating from him. His normally sharp eyes were now becoming weak. The flowing water slowly drenched his cheeks.

"sorry. I didn't mean to..." Suddenly my tongue was gone.

"You're yelling at me, Pan?"

"Where?" I tried to force my tongue to speak, "What's really going on with our relationship lately? We can always solve every problem by communicating. Why is the situation different now?"

"Everything needs a change, Pan. You said it yourself, right? That life is dynamic. Just like the ever-changing political situation."

I was stunned to hear Rana's quite painful words. Gradually, I began to understand the meaning of his last sentence. "I understand now."

Rana's eyeballs again closed in on me. His face that was beginning to sink into it seemed to lose its charm. No more lipstick or other facial makeup polish on the surface of his skin. However, all this time I never had any trouble keeping the perfection of my feelings towards her. Instead, this time I doubted his ability to keep his feelings towards me.

"Topan, I've wanted to say this for a long time" Rana said in a heavy voice.

"Who's that man, Rana?"

"I can't say, Pan."

"I deserve to know."

"I also have the right not to tell you. He's innocent anyway. Maybe he never even knew about my feelings."

I'm starting to give up. Even though my chest was about to explode, I still tried to control myself. My healthy mind seems to still be able to work using ratios. I realized that a moment of anger would not solve the problem. After all, we still have responsibilities that must be completed tonight. I don't want everything to fall apart because of the commotion that just happened.

Meanwhile, the main wall clock installed on the ground floor of the bunk house was clinking loudly, making my attention shifted even though my view still did not want to move from the face of Rana who tonight revealed a different aura. Time has shown at 9 p.m. We must complete our final mission. After that, I will start talking to Rana, heart to heart.

As I got out of bed, I immediately prepared myself. Slowly, I lowered my right leg that had not fully recovered.

"We'll continue this conversation later after duty."

"I can't go with you." The shutter spoke, short and stunned me for a few seconds.

"What did you say?"

"I've told you before. Someday I want to stop doing this. I want to be a normal human being. I don't want to hear your reasons anymore. You always said this was the last mission many times, but in fact we still do it today."

you don't believe me anymore?my many. "Don't you trust your new crush more?"

"I told you. I said this to you once, didn't I? But you always promise, and the ends are bullshit. You also promised one day you would take me away from this place to open a new page. It's been years. I no longer have the taste to collect on your promises."

My gaze at Rana was getting emotional. My teeth clashed with each other, squeaky. To be honest, this was the first time I had almost lost my patience with Rana.

"alright. Just do what you want."