Last Wait

Episode 37's

Axel p.o.v

This is the first day I've been living with Flo. I decided to stay in the apartment Flo occupied.

Mom actually asked us to stay with her at home. But I refused. My reason I just want to be alone with Flo. But in fact it's not.

I just want to live freely, even though Flo and I are married, but me and her are just friends. Not more.

I'm honestly very happy right now. The woman I love is back. He hasn't changed one bit. It's just that she's getting pretty. I love her more and more. I will fight to maintain our relationship. I'll marry her after I divorce Flo later.

The sound of knocking on the door blew my daydream.

Tok.dok...

"Axel want breakfast?" Flo's voice from outside. My room and Flo's room are separate. I don't want to sleep with him. And he doesn't mind either. Maybe we didn't want this marriage.

I walked to the door and opened it.

"Breakfast?" Ask again. I just nodded my head and followed him towards the dining table.

"sorry. Just bread. I can't cook." Nervous speech.

It turns out she can't cook. How to be a good wife.

I didn't answer his words. My hand stretched out to take the bread that had been smeared with jam and eat it.

In the midst of silence I opened my voice.

"Flo. Remember what I said a few weeks ago?" I asked without looking at him.

"Which one?" Ask back. He forgot or pretended to forget.

I nodded and looked at him.

"What I said. We are just friends nothing more than that except in the presence of our families." I keep chewing bread. For a moment he stiffened, but it was only for a moment. Then he smiled.

"Oh that. Of course I remember." Her speech.

"It's good that you remember it." I told him. His memory is good too.

"When you start at the office." I asked after a moment of silence.

"Tomorrow." Answer me briefly. As mama has said. After marriage I will lead the company of papah relics completely.

Ting.tong...

The sound of the bell made me and Flo turn towards the door.

"Who comes early." Flo muttered which I still clearly heard. He moved to open the door. But I hold it. Because I know who's coming.

"You're here. Let me open it." Saying to him. Then I got out of my chair and walked to the door.

I'm so happy to see who's coming. I kissed her forehead. I honestly still miss him a lot. After seven years he left, he finally came back to me.

"Bag sweetie." Sweepings.

"By the morning too, dear." Answer me." Let's go in." Take her. I grabbed and pulled her hand but she held it.

"What's wrong?" Ask her.

"Will your wife not be angry?" Ask with that innocent face. Jeez Nadya I love you more.

"No. He won't be angry. And I'll introduce you to her." I answered with a sincere smile and rubbed her hair.

She smiled and I grabbed her hand again to enter we stepped together with the clasped hands towards the dining table.

"Who's coming xel." Flo said then he turned his head towards me and Nadya. I can't interpret Flo's face. But I don't care.

"Oh this is Nadya." I answered by holding Nadya's hand.

"Nadya loves to know him Flo." I said to Nadya and rubbed her hair gently. Nadya reached out her hand but Flo did not welcome her, after I called Flo's name she was like a surprise. He's daydreaming maybe.

"Oh. Ja. I'm Flora. Call Flo aja." He then greeted Nadya's hand.

"Nadja. Axel's girlfriend." Nadya said then she looked at me with her beautiful smile I nodded my head and returned her smile.

"Oh.iya.iya. Come on Nadya let's sit." Flo said kindly. Flora is understanding. I salute him he can be friendly to anyone. She's a good woman. Unlike the ones in soap operas if you see her husband bringing another woman his wife immediately rampaged like a lion. But Flo isn't.

"I'll change my clothes, baby." I said to Nadya. Because I promised to take him for a walk today. Nadya nodded her head in agreement. I left them both at the dinner table.

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The darling?

Axel called Nadya with a greeting?

I laughed in my heart.

I don't know how my heart is right now. Seeing Axel clasping Nadya's hand, rubbing her hair, calling her with a call of affection.

It's ruined!!!

This heartache.

But I try as much as possible. I knew this would happen after Nadya came back. After all, Axel has said that he and I are just friends. Not more.

I tried to accept his words but I couldn't. Can't do it at all. Because I already love him.

Nadya's words made me look at her face sitting right in front of me.

"It's a shame your fate. Marry someone who doesn't love you. Not even taking you." He said cynically. But I didn't reply to her. I just stared at him flat.

"If I were you, I would divorce Axel. Oh yes, I forgot. Axel said he'd divorce you. Ckckc ain't gonna be a widow long time. Poor thing."

I wish I could stuff his evil mouth with this bread in my hand. So that he can't talk anymore. But the pain in my heart was far from what he said.

You knew. Just yesterday I was Axel's wife. And only today I live with him. We should enjoy our new day, right?

But in fact it's not. He brought another woman into this apartment. Does he not know how much my heart hurts? Does he not know how broken my heart is? Does he think I have no heart?

If you want to meet. Why not just meet outside? Was he on purpose?

Akhh. I want to calm my heart first.

"sorry. I'll go to the room first.'' I said to Nadya. I left him without waiting for his answer.

And in this room I am now. Sitting on the bed, hugging my favorite roll. Staring at the glass window, but an empty look.

I laughed cynically.

Actually laugh at me.

"City, Flora. It's so sorry for you. You were never wanted by anyone! You will never be destined to be happy. Your destiny must suffer, perhaps, to the DEATH!" I said in my heart.

My daydream was broken when I heard the laughter of two humans out there.

Sounds like they're very happy.

Can I feel the same way as them? To be loved, to be desired, to be happy? I don't think so.

Without me noticing the water dripping on my cheek.

I wept.

I crybaby?

Yeah, I admit I'm a whiny. Can only cry. Lamenting fate.

But I'm really not strong with all this. Can someone replace me?

The laughter I heard was no more. Maybe they're gone. Never mind. Let it.

Maybe you think I'm a stupid wife. Letting my husband introduce his girlfriend to me. Without getting angry or forbidding it. Strange indeed. But I can't do anything. Obviously you know Axel doesn't want to be with me, he doesn't want me. What can I do?

If they don't want me, I'll leave them.

If I leave one day, never say I'm a loser. Maybe your shoulders aren't strong enough to support this burden that I have.

Never mind.

Candy's song "Crazy" interrupted my daydreams.

Kulirik mobile phone that is on the nightstand, Kevin's name is there.

What's the matter with him calling this early. Not usually.

I immediately answered the call.

"Hello."

"Hello Flo, where are you?"

"In the apartment, what's up Vin. You don't usually call early in the morning."

"Open the door to your apartment. I'm in front."

Whahuh?

Kevin up ahead? Why him.

Without disconnecting the phone. I walked out of the room and towards the main door. I opened the door with the phone still attached to my right ear.

sure enough. Kevin is here.

"Kevins. What the hell are you here for? Not usually." I said with a face slightly surprised by his presence.

Pips

Kevin disconnected the connection. And then he smiled at me.

"You want to keep asking and not bring me in?" tanyakanya. I jerked. Then let him in.

"You alone?" tanyakanya. I closed the door and followed her walking towards the sofa.

"Yes." I replied briefly. Kevin sat on the couch. While I stand before him.

"Where's your husband? Shouldn't you still be enjoying your first day of marriage?" tanyakanya. I stiffened hearing his question. What I should say. There's no way I'm telling the truth.

I switched the conversation, asking Kevin what to drink. So that he does not suspect.

"Ehh, what do you want to drink? Coffee, tea, or something?" ask as often as possible. I saw Kevin smiling cynically.

"Tea" he answered. Immediately I walked to the kitchen so that he would not ask any more.

When I finished I brought a cup of tea and a light snack to the living room and let Kevin drink it. Kevin smiled and nodded his head. He put the phone he was holding on the table.

"Flo. Sit here." he said by patting the sofa next to him. I sat down and prayed that he wouldn't ask any strange questions.

"So you haven't answered my question" he said suddenly.

Smear me! Apparently he remembered it.

What am I supposed to say?

I was nervous not knowing what to answer. Looks like Kevin noticed my nervousness.

"Why nervous? Are you afraid to say that your husband is going with his girlfriend?"

My eyes glared perfectly at Kevin's words. What'd he say?

Where does he know that. I didn't tell him.

"Why Flo? You're surprised I know the truth?" ask her with a cynical smile. I try as much as I can and look for the right reasons.

"You said what the hell Vin is. Don't be so upset. Axel again went out for a while." I replied casually. I hope Kevin believes.

"City, Flora. You don't have to find such a reason. I already know everything "he said with a small laugh.

"Kevin this is no excuse." I replied with a little seriousness.

"Seriously? " Kevin knitted his two eyebrows. I nodded my head stiffly.

"Tell me honestly what's hard" she said, which made me nervous.

Does Kevin know the truth? Where does he know. Why did he speak as if he knew everything.

"I know everything Flo. At your wedding reception. I saw and heard all the talk between Axel and a woman. In the end, I knew that woman was his girlfriend. I met them in the lobby. What other reason do you want to give?"

My body doesn't seem boned hearing Kevin's words.

What am I supposed to say?

I can only turn my face away, I don't want him to see the destruction implied in my face.

"Why did you let it".

Silent.

I didn't answer the question.

"Why are you quiet? Answer my question."

"Until when do you let this continue?''.

"Flo answer me!". Kevin shook my shoulder. I urged him to answer his question.

I'm puffed. Really careless.

"Enough Kevin! Don't force me!" I said in a slightly raised voice. I turned to look at him. Now the water is down again.

I wept.

Kevin took me in his arms.

"I'm sorry. I didn't mean to force you. Don't cry Flo. It's been.." he said gently. Looks like he feels guilty.

"I just don't want you getting hurt later. You guys just got married but she's already hurt you." she rubbed my hair.

"You don't deserve to be hurt by Flo."

I just cried without replying.

"If I wanted to. I could have easily taken you from him. But that's not what I did. It's the same as forcing you and hurting you. What a difference does I have with him."

"Listen Flo, maybe we're just friends. But I will never stop loving you. Whatever happens I'll be there for you."

Kevin's. If only Axel acted like you. Maybe I am the happiest woman in the world.

Hearing her words, I became strong again.

I feel the figure of Zack present in him.

Always give me strength.

Always cheering me.

Always there for me.

Being married to someone who doesn't love you is painful. You must be willing to be hurt for a promise and love.

Is this what we call destiny?

If so, can I make peace with him?

Or help me tell God to take this away from me.

I'm tormented. So tormented.

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