KARMAS

Coming too fast

The next day, Mesya was allowed to go home. And now Mesya has been sitting in the car owned by Bisma with the owner of the car sitting next to him.

The atmosphere in the car greeting looked cold and gripping, not because of the presence of astral beings from another world. But that's how Ferry has been driving with two passengers behind him.

Ever since Bisma and Mesya got into the car, Ferry had not heard a single word escape from their lips. That's what makes Ferry feel uncomfortable being between two humans who are silent to each other.

"Thank you Fer" said Mesya when the Bhishma car had entered the yard of his rented house.

"Sama-sama Shah"

Although it had been silent since then, Bhishma also came down to follow Mesya into his house.

"Are you sure you still want to stay here??" One sentence finally came out also after their silent action.

Indeed, since the incident last night where Bisma kissed Mesya, there was awkwardness between the two of them.

"Yes, brother, I've been staying here"

"You don't want to move into my apartment??"

"I want to be here. I don't want to bother you anyway" Mesya replied with a smile.

"Yes, I told you that I don't feel bothered. I made it clear last night that we're going through all this together. I admit Sya, my wits haven't completely forgotten Alya, but I don't want to be away from you either"

Mesya's heart trembled at the honesty of Bhishma.

"Convince your heart first Brother, give your heart time. We just go like this, while we follow the current"

Bhishma is really made to mess up with the woman who was never in her tomb.

"Okay, I follow you. But don't ever forbid me to do whatever I want for you and our future son!!"

Mesya goosebumps himself to hear the words of Bhishma so emphasized it.

"Yes, it's up to Sister Bisma"

"Now enter. Get enough rest, don't go anywhere!! Now I have to get back to the office"

"Yes Brother"

Bisma turns to return to her car where Ferry is still faithfully waiting for her there.

"Be careful at home, if there's anything call me" Bisma said after turning back to Mesya.

"Yes, Sister Bisma was careful" For some reason Bhishma felt her heart warm up until her lips covered a smile so thin that Mesya just did not notice it.

"Fer Road!!"

"Every Boss!!"

Bisma's car began to leave the yard of Mesya's house even though Bisma's eyes did not want to be separated from Mesya who was still standing in its original place.

"Where's the Boss??"

"Your relationship with him"

"He who??" Now Bisma reversed Ferry's speech at that time.

"Yes, who else if not Mesya" Kesal Ferry.

"He refused my invitation to live together"

"That means living together??" Ferry was puzzled by the ambiguous answer of the Bisma.

"Yes we are both big on our children that way" Ferry felt like he wanted to step on the brakes suddenly so that Bhishma's head hit hard.

"What does that mean??" Tanya Ferry wants clarity.

"Yes, but he doesn't want to" replied Bhishma disappointedly.

"Why not?? Not that he had always loved dead with the Bisma Dirgantara whose charm was matchless. To the point that he could do so vilely just for the sake of love. Why when you offer yourself he refuses. Something's not right like Mesya's brain"

"He said that if we lived together only for the sake of our son, without my love, the result would not be good" Bisma still remembered Mesya's words last night.

When Bisma decided to get out of the room in Mesya's room, Bisma just silently contemplated alone.

Bhishma really wanted to read his heart at this moment. What he felt for Mesya. What he did was only for the sake of their son or his heart was completely knocked by Mesya.

"Gue understood what Mesya Bos meant. He just wants love from you. Not only because pity or you just want your child" Bhishma also thinks the same as what Ferry said.

"Well now I ask you, really not in your heart that there is no feeling at all Mesya??"

Bisma held her chest. His hand could feel his extremely powerful heartbeat when he mentioned the name Mesya.

"Gue didn't know, but I was obviously angry when Mesya refused my wish"

"Gue knows the boss, if you're still worried about your own feelings. If I were lo too, where the woman we love for years left us forever, it would be hard I understand that even though I can't afford to be lo. But life goes on, Boss, there's blood in Mesya's stomach. He is not refusing but he is afraid of being disappointed because you are nearby but your heart is not for him"

Along the way Bisma only heard the ramble Ferry only.

"So I as your friend from this High School era, I don't want you to be trapped in the shackles of losing it continuously. I also don't want to forget Alya so soon. But I hope you can be aware of your feelings at this time. Although you try to deny your statement, but the look in your eyes does not lie boss. Mesya seems to have been able to shift Alaya slowly in your heart" Again the long sentence came out of his secretary.

"Alya's position will never be replaced by anyone in my heart Fer, remember that!!"

"It was this that made Mesya doubtful. If you still can't forget what you used to be, why do you want to grab another hand??"

Bisma was silent again. Can not be denied if Ferry always can make Bisma speechless.

"But Mesya seemed to have his own space in my heart Fer. The more I tried to resist him, the more I was tormented. Especially if I remember how I ruined his whole life, I'm sick if I remember how he cried and begged for my forgiveness"

"Don't misunderstand your feelings, boss. I'm afraid that it's just your guilt, same Mesya. One day if Mesya really accepts you, but with that uncertain feeling, it will definitely hurt Mesya even deeper Boss" Ferry felt dizzy with the feeling of his Boss. On the other hand he also feels kasian with Mesya.

"Then I want to stay near Mesya. Only then can I know which one my heart wants"

"Actually I realized that I was starting to love Mesya Fer. But I'm afraid to admit it because this feeling comes too soon" Inner Bhishma.