KARMAS

New profession

At the end of this time, I was very sensitive to the sound of aircraft.

Although far away, but my ears seemed sensitive to hear the sound of aircraft engines.

I like to guess, what kind of plane is up there? Where is the goal? I like Scandinavian .. ah it feels awkward when boarding, looking for a seat number while accompanied by an inflight advertising movie..

And at night, while I was drying my clothes, I heard another rumbling noise up there. Again the sound of an airplane engine. I don't know as if no other sound could be heard in my ear other than the sound of the plane..

I squeezed out the laundry, as his eyes looked up at the sky, many star stars scattered in the sky, yet there was one that was twinkling. Thought.

How high is the height, the magic sound is still heard clearly here. His inner.

Ahh. The miss I want to Fly

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At 1pm the new star came home. Red eyes. Go straight into the room and sleep.

“Mas, change clothes first. Hand wash new feet sleep.” My tempest.

But apparently Bintang was too tired to wake up, he immediately fell asleep quickly.

I looked at my husband's face. Either there is always a deep sense of pity every time you see that slumbering face.

No matter how the Star's treatment always provokes my emotions, only pity and pity exist. Even if sometimes I was lured to scold her, I would regret my anger and go back to pitying and forgiving her.

I accepted the Star for what it was, and I never gave up on loving it.

I put my body on her sleeping shoulder.

Reflek change his sleeping position on my back.

I hugged him from behind.

My eyes can't be closed. A song was heard softly, playing from the TV that had not been turned off.

Boulevard of broken dreams, Green Day.

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I felt slowly that my world was dragging me to drown. The various ways I tried it felt like luck seemed to be playing cat cat with me.

It seems like all the doors are closed to me. I feel like I'm working alone on that houseboat.

How difficult the Star is to communicate with. I always think and think, especially what I have to do to be able to make choices and change things, but so far it's been a dead end.

And it is impossible to expect others to change, all one can do is change himself. Change how he behaves and reacts.

Of course it is not easy, because every day they are always together. Every day it looks. As an ordinary human being there are times when I feel very comfortable with the conditions that exist.

“Mas, it's been a long time since it's been traveling, blood is freezing. Jalan yuk, .. the deket deket also gapapa” Rayuku on an occasion in the shop where Bintang has its own office.

“Traveling? Ga interesting and ga want” Short Star Words.

“Loh is it me who wants to.” Persuading me again.

“Ya already travel alone.”

“OK deh brother.. Where's the money.” My canda.

“Loh you who want to travel kok ask for money with me.”

“Then ask my girlfriend?” I said kidding.

“Ya have asked you there same boyfriend you” Unexpectedly unexpected Star replied so quickly.

“Kan my girlfriend, you”

Star of pura busy.

“Oo so yes. So max you don't want it earlier, don't want out money?” Ask me again.

“Traveling for me ga important” Clear Stars.

“But make me important. Travel is bawaku”

“Not something to be proud of.”

“Indeed not to be proud of traveling it to enjoy”

Silent. Silence has no sound.

Yes already.  Maybe the road is too expensive. If you can also watch, once for refreshing.

“Kalo ga watch yuk.” Take me next chance.

“Ga likes watch”

“Temenin.”

“Busy”

“Ga busy when?”

“Not yet tau”

“Not yet know what you don't want to know.”

“Typically also thought of another, this time again wanted to watch.”

“Ya watch it at home.”

“Watch at home alone also not exciting.”

“Kan at home is Bright. Rich less work.” Firm Star.

“What time are you home tonight?”

“Not yet tau”

“Indeed, why is it that the office is busy continuously.. go home in the morning and keep ga cape working?”  I'm trying to thaw the rigid communication.

“Try you find your own busyness so you don't suspect it continue to carry”

“Loh? Why suspect?  “Not suspect just nanya. You see, when called at night it is also difficult to connect.” I'm patient.

“That's negative thinking again”

“OMG!! Not negative thinking. If there is anything or anyone who has it let me know the answer.”

“Ah, be smart with you.”

I kept quiet and didn't answer, when to stop. If it continues there will be no end.

“Can't do it by ordinary talk. Don't use emotions.” My fizz to myself.

The stars did not respond. Maybe not listening, maybe listening but not caring.

“Mas borrow HP” I said later.

“Make what?’

“Ya make a nelfon lah.”

“Where are you?”

“This low bat.”

“Shortly, want to use”

“Tadi not used kok dipinjemin arrived so want to use.” Rarely do I borrow HP, once upon a time borrow the weight of not kelungungan. What are you afraid of? What is hiding. All this time I love to avoid what?

The star squashed his HP number and came out of the shop talking to someone.

Longtime.

I just kept quiet.

An airplane flying high above looks very small. Not blinking I stared at that point. I thought about the plane.

Strangely yes, the plane with an altitude of how many hundred thousand meters above sea level still heard the sound of the engine from here. Where my husband and I sit together, but his heart is not together. His heart was further away from the distance between him and the plane.

            I also left the shop, alone. Selflessly.

Along with the sound of the plane engine that disappeared. And out of nowhere came the song was heard again

*I walk a lonely road

The only one that I have ever known

Don't know where it goes

But it's home to me and I walk alone

I walk this empty street

The Boulevard of broken dreams

Where the city sleeps

And I'm the only one and I walk alone

I walk alone

I walk alone

*My shadow's only one that walks beside me

My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating

Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me

Till then I walk alone

Ah-ah, ah-ah, ah-ah, aah-ah

Ah-ah, ah-ah, ah-ah

I walk alone

*I walk a***...