July [ Soobin ]

[ Episode 4 ] of July.

..."Don't worry, I'm with you"...

...- Na Da -...

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"If this is what you want, I can no longer refuse Jihna" Soobin spoke up.

Jihna who heard that, turned towards Soobin unexpectedly. He would let go of Jihna just like that, without any coercion like yesterday when Jihna asked Soobin to break up.

"But before you go, there's something I want to say"

"Then, just say it" Jihna.

"Go away from me as long as you want, but when you're disappointed, never hesitate to look for me" Soobin smiled "Because I'll always be in the same place when you leave me" he continued.

Jihna was stunned for a moment. His gaze was fixed on both of Soobin's deep eyes.

"Goodbye, Soobin" Jihna stood up, then immediately came out of Soobin's room.

Why did his feelings suddenly become mixed like this? Jihna felt something different when Soobin said something sweet, even though she had never felt this before.

Jihna couldn't possibly love Soobin, she loved Kyuhyun.

Ah, nevermind.

Jihna better get out of here.

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Mother enters with eyes. Staring at Soobin who was closing her eyes on the ward. Just seeing a scene like this, his heart felt very sore, really.

I'd love to say everything, but the woman couldn't. He couldn't afford to openly leave Soobin alone here.

But he still has to go.

Mommy approaches Soobin, then kisses her forehead briefly "Im sorry mother, Soobin" he said in his heart.

Quickly, the mother went to pack her things, then left Soobin's room before the child woke up.

Just as he was about to open the door, a young doctor also entered Soobin's room. Perhaps, because now it was time for Soobin to do the examination.

"Doctor, can we talk?"

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At 12:00.

Soobin awoke from her sleep. He looked around, feeling that something was strange. Why does the room feel so quiet?

Oh yeah, where's mom? has he not returned from the minimarket yet? why so long?

I don't know, you may also feel bored if you just keep quiet accompanying Soobin who slept earlier. She will be back here, she thought so.

Soobin looked at the table. There is a lunch menu there. Maybe now he will start eating on his own without having to bother mother again. Poor mother, must be tired.

But when Soobin lifted the glass filled with mineral water, his gaze was glued by a paper folded under the glass. What paper is that? looks like a letter?

The man took it, and read it.

-📃-

Soobin, this is mom.

Earlier, you wanted to say sorry to you, son. Sorry because you can not take care of you properly, sorry because you often leave you alone in the room, so sorry this time that is really beyond your wishes.

Sorry, because you have to leave you alone for a longer time.

Son, you won't be able to leave you when you cry. Maybe you'd say, mother is so selfish. But, mother asked you to understand one thing.

Mother's gone, not without reason, son. Mother left, not because mother wanted to, but mother left because she was forced.

Your father, he had a single accident out of town.. I need a mother, son.

Mother will come back to you, someday.

I'm sorry, you've hurt your heart, Soobin..

-📃-

Soobin began to shed tears.

See, this room has only one occupant filled with silence. To whom should Soobin express his complaint later? who will Soobin tell her about her day?

All of them, go. Without the slightest concern for Soobin. Is Soobin not worthy of affection?why would someone soobin loves go without sympathy?

If no one cares, why is Soobin there?

If the mother had left Soobin, why would Soobin still be here? Wh-wh-what for?

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Drizzling.

But this did not deter Soobin's intention to leave her room for a fenced garden to be the separation between the ravine near the sea and the hospital area on the higher ground.

Soobin wants to go home, God. Soobin wants to see you soon. Please don't block Soobin's path.

The wheelchair was getting closer to the iron barrier. With a trembling heart, tears flowing, rain falling on the earth, Soobin hopes today is all over.

Soobin will not be able to live the day alone. Soobin won't.

He's right near the border. Grasping the cold iron barrier tightly, then prepare to advance his body to fall into a ravine full of twigs.

Soobin closed her eyes, and-

Grepp's.

"?!!" Soobin opened her eyes when her right arm was pulled slowly by someone.

"What are you doing?" Said a horse-painted girl with red eyes and a faint hint of rain "Don't you realize what's going to happen?" he continued with a vibrating tone of voice.

"What are you doing? let me go.." Soobin held back her crying deeply. But, no matter how hard he held it, one's eyes never lied.

The girl immediately hugged Soobin tightly with her back up and down. Soobin was crying.

"Don't, don't go. Please" she whispered in Soobin's ear.

Both were crying under the rain in July. With the roar of the waves that sounded raging like Soobin's emotions.

He let go of his embrace, then wrapped up Soobin's cheeks gently "Let's go home with me, you can get sick if you stay here"

The girl moved back, then brought Soobin back into the shade. He took Soobin away with him in soaked clothes.

Arriving outside someone's room, the girl went to front Soobin. Staring at Soobin gently, smiling.

"Wait here yes, promise me you won't go anywhere" Soobin did not reply.

A few seconds later, the girl came back with a towel, then thrust it at Soobin.

"Wear this," Soobin accepted, then wore it as the girl said "Where is your room?" The girl asked softly.

"Space 108" Soobin replied quietly.

"Let me take you, yes, you must change your clothes" The dry-dressed girl pushed back Soobin's wheelchair until she arrived in her room, where she was dressed, then told the nurses to give dry clothes to Soobin.

After changing clothes, Soobin is now on top of his ward. The girl also helped him. He is still standing on the side of the ward.

"May I sit down?" Soobin nodded slowly.

The girl then sat down, then looked at Soobin "What's your name?"

"Soobin" he answered slowly.

"Ah~ Soobin's.. My name, Nada" he said "So that, you remind me of the past.. Really, honestly my hand was already shaking seeing you want to jump from there, Soobin" Nada lowered her gaze.

Soobin silently looked at him.

"I don't know you, I don't know what your problem is either. But, please don't do it again Soobin" Nada looked at Soobin who lowered her gaze.

"You, you can tell me everything, whatever it is, I'll listen to it, never feel like you're alone, look, I'm here, I want to be your loyal listener, Soobin.."

Hearing that, Soobin tried not to cry. Although his nose was already watery, and his eyes were glassy, Soobin did not want to look weak in front of a girl.

"Thank you, Nada-yaa" he said, then smiled at the girl "Sorry because I can't tell you everything yet"

After all, Nada was a stranger to Soobin. He couldn't tell everything to Nada.

"It's okay, Soobin. indeed you should have kept things like this on a stranger" Tone smiled "I'm a patient here, too, a long time ago"

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[to be continued ]