It turns out I'm on my own...

Chapter 25; Bella

"Vania, are you okay?" Tanya Bella who accompanied Vania packed up.

"Yes, I'm fine." Vania said with a smile.

"Vania, don't be soaked by yourself. I'm right here." Bella.

"No one cares about being one of the overflows of heart, for the solitude felt in living everyday."

Bella approached Vania and gently rubbed her back. Although Bella is not as close to Vania as Puput. But, Bella knows a little about the story of Vania.

"One of the deepest desires of every person is to be loved and cared for by others. We all want to feel our life and presence in this world is important to someone." Vania said with a smile as she tried to hold back her tears from dripping.

"I.., I don't even have anyone else. One by one, the people I love are gone from my life."

"Vania, you still have me. You can stay with me for a while. We'll find work together." Bella said

"I'm sure after this you'll definitely get what you always dreamed of."

"It's not that easy, Bella."

"What do you mean?"

"What happens if you feel like you don't care? You feel as if you're alienated in the middle of the hustle and bustle of life." Vania.

"What you do or do is not considered. Your words and voice are not heard. You feel lonely among the hustle and bustle of life that keeps rolling." Its effects.

"Vania, I know the road you're going through right now is filled with pebbles. But I believe if in front of the road you have been through, there is a very beautiful resting place. You just need to be patient to reach the top of your journey." Bella.

Vania fell silent, without feeling her tears dripping. He wanted to complain, but he didn't have anyone.

"There are times when you want others to care about you, to pay attention to you. The desire is certainly reasonable because humans are social creatures, a figure who needs others in his life." Bella.

"Even now you feel that no one cares about you. Keep believing that someday you will be surrounded by people who care deeply about you."

"Nobody cares about this you'll realize that you're not alone with the feeling no one cares about you."

"The truth is, I'm still alone facing this bitter life." Pekik Vania's.

"That feeling is very painful and painful especially when you expect a lot from your friends and family." Imbuh Vania while walking towards the window and opening it.

Vania closed her eyes and let the breeze adorn the falling tears soaking her cheeks.

"The awkward moment is when you talk and you realize no one cares what you say..." Vania.

Without feeling Bella also shed tears, she can feel the pilunya life that is being borne by Vania.

"My mind is killing me, but no one cares."

"Vania. Being lonely doesn't mean there's no one around you, it's a feeling that no one around you cares."

"Bella, without you knowing if that's the reality that's going on in my life. I'm surrounded by people who claim to care about me. In fact, look at it for yourself. I'm still alone."

Bella approached Vania and immediately hugged her.

"I hate to know that I care more about others than anyone else will care about me." Vania.

"You feel lonely not when no one cares about you, but when someone you expect doesn't care about you." Bella said as she let go of her embrace.

"If no one understands you, if no one cares about your feelings, if no one appreciates you, never waste your time and energy again. Just go away."

"If only I could, I might have gone to a place where I would have the happiness I wanted." Vania said with a smile and rearranged her things.

"When you're depressed, hurt, or sad, no one cares. But when you become famous, rich, and popular, everyone is your friend. Come, step with me to be popular."

"Nobody cares about your reasons. No one pityes you for procrastinating. No one will hug you because you feel lazy. That's your life. Change it."

Vania looked at Bella.

"When no one seems to care, God cares. When there seems to be no one there for you, God is ready to listen. Never assume that you are alone. You still have God."

Vania again felt touched by what Bela had just said. Vania approached Bella and hugged her back.

"Sometimes when you're sad, nobody cares. Sometimes when you cry, no one sees you. Sometimes when you leave, no one notices. But trust me God sees all that."

"Thank you Bella. Thank you for listening to my thoughts and giving me words that make me realize that I can still fight for my happiness."

"Life is a choice. You will definitely find a variety of difficult choices as time goes by. Therefore you must have a decision, not to doubt or worry. Because every decision you make will have a big impact on your future. But there are times when severe problems make you upset and confused."

"You're right. Maybe all this time I just assumed that my life was too sad because no one cared. Now I know I have to fight for happiness. Happiness will not come by itself." Vania.

"Life does have a unique phase, especially for humans. No one knows what will happen to us tomorrow. It could be today laughing, tomorrow the heart is so broken and the tears do not stop flowing. If noticed, people live filled with many colors, all kinds of problems sometimes come and go with different portions of each human."

"Yes, you're right."

"Actually what happens to humans is a common thing in life. It's just that, as a human being there is a strong face to face, some are giving up. Keep in mind giving up is not the best solution in dealing with problems, because whatever it is there must be a way out."

"Bella, where'd you learn about all this?"

"Yes, you will learn a lot when you are matured by circumstances." Bella said with a smile.

Bella, he's a broken home kid. Bella is the type of child who rarely speaks at length let alone give life advice to others. But with Vania, Bella seems to have the same attraction. Perhaps because their fate is not much different. To make the two close.

Bella decides to accompany Vania to sleep in the mess for the last time, before they finally have to vacate the place.

Lord, give me a way so that I can get the happiness I want.

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