IT'S JUST MY SHADOW

Kiki = Zi's

Arra splashed his body on the bed, staring at the ceiling of the room with a blank look, thinking about his disputation earlier with Reza “Am I outrageous, I shouldn't have said such a stupid thing” covered his face with both hands.

After cleaning up Arra still thinks of Reza, guilt still shackles her heart “I didn't say the wrong thing, but why do I feel so guilty to her”, view the city at night from the apartment.

“I no longer have any feelings for him, but why still feel tight” presses his chest that feels heavy.

“This cannot be left” said Arra then grabbed the phone on the table, searched for Kiki's name on his phone screen, then contacted Kiki, the connection was heard.

“Kiki” says Arra after his phone is connected to Kiki.

“What did you say to Mom, why did Mom say she wanted to move to your house” asked Kiki to Arra, without giving a pause.

Kiki did want to contact Arra after hearing her mother's words earlier. But Arra called him first.

“Can we talk about it later only” Arra does not respond to Kiki's words, he does not want to talk about anything else at this time, this matters of his congested heart must be resolved now.

“You why” asked Kiki to lower his voice intonation.

“So I met Reza”

“You meet again today” exclaimed Kiki happy, in contrast to Arra who sounded lethargic “But why your voice like that” asked Kiki later.

“We had a chance to argue”

“Berbat !, why ?, did you make trouble”

“Why me ?” arra asked because Kiki sounded the blame.

“Because Reza couldn't possibly do that”

“You said Reza couldn't have done that” Arra couldn't believe hearing Kiki's words “You forgot he used to look for trouble with me” Arra protests.

“It was then, now it is impossible to do anything that will hurt you”

Arra scrunched his forehead hearing Kiki's words “Maksurtu apa”

“Forget” did not answer Arra “So what you guys debated” asked Kiki.

Arra told her debate with Reza from beginning to end “I was a little rude to say it to her but it was true” continued Arra at the end of the story.

“Just !” can't believe the thought of Arra “How can you say like that, he used to leave before entering the house, but he had no intention of leaving home out of disgust but thirsty to pick up his sister that time”.

 

“How can you know”

“Faki said it and Reza has come to my house several times during your go” explained Kiki.

“Cannot” Arra don't believe.

“To believe or not. But I'm confused why you're not happy to hear what I'm saying. You should be happy because that's a sign Reza never forgets you”.

“Don't talk carelessly, I've forgotten about it, don't reveal any more of the problems that used to be”.

“Really, you really don't have the feeling of pain”.

“Of course, if that feeling still exists, I can't possibly be here now”.

“You are serious” Kiki is not sure of Arra's words.

“Yes, I seris” Arra reassured.

“Huhhh” exhale heavily “That's your choice, I will support whatever your decision”.

“Including moving to my house” said Arra taking advantage of Kiki's words.

“That's different story” reject Kiki “I and Mom won't move”.

“Why”

“I don't want to trouble you, I don't want you to feel responsible for me and Ibu”.

“I'm alone now, Mom in Japan, Sister and Arul prefer in the apartment. I'm the only\ who wants to stay home. A house as big as it is impossible to be inhabited by one person”.

“Stay I don't want”

“Come, I've agreed”

“You just said you will accept all my decisions, you and Mom can not be a burden, I need you guys not vice versa”.

“Raaa” Kiki tries to stop Arra's words that start to shake his stance.

“So long ago you wanted to do this, please just accept my request” Arra expressed his hope.

“You are stubborn, well I accept your offer, but on one condition, at home there are only three of us.”.

“Ok”

“There are no helpers or anything like that, only the three of us Kiki said

“Who\-\-\-“

“Three of us, didn't you do it” you cut Kiki to know what Arra would say”.

“Security I don't want to do that, I want Mom really\-right break at home. But if that's all that makes you want to be with me I can what”

“If you agree, aka and Mom will be there this week”

“Iya, I agree” said Arra, feeling a little heavy agreeing.

“Alright, then see you” Kiki disconnects.

 

***

Reza walked over with a reddened face as he restrained his annoyance, the people he passed by were astonished by his tinkah. Reza didn't care, he kept walking in a room. A place to vent his frustration.

 

“What are you doing here” asked to have a room when Reza entered the room.

“I had a fight with your sister” Reza told Zi who was busy checking reports.

Zi stopped her activities hearing the words Reza “What problem are you guys fighting about, she was only two days here” Zi did not believe.

“He sees me as just an *******, a despicable person, could\-can he think of me like that” said Reza memgebu\-gebu.

“Pelan\-swallow only her story” Zi calms “she will not think like that”.

“But that's the truth, he used to be quiet when insulted by people\-people. But now even I have no intention to insult him he already considers me a disgusting person” Reza spilled his body on the sofa “He is very much changed now”.

“He is indeed a little bit of a bodied, now he cares more about himself, more opens his heart to others, unlike the old days who hid himself behind Kiki”.

Reza listened to the words of Zi who was now sitting in front of him.

“seperinya every trip these three years a lot of thinking about things, until he turned into a different Arra, the change was even he emphasized on his appearance, the appearance that describes freedom”.

“Ka, did I wastefully wait for him these three years, it seems like there is no feeling to him” bangan berahan staring at Zi expectantly.

Zi shrugged her shoulders not knowing “it, only bida answered by Arra himself”.

Reza lowered her head to the floor, then held her head that was not dizzy.

“already, let's get up, you're thirsty home, it's night” pull Reza out of his office.

“Your sister it makes me really\ absolutely crazy”

“You two are both\-sama crazy”

“I want to meet him”

“Tomorrow, you must go home now”

“Huuff” Reza breathes heavily “Alright, I'm home now, Ka Zi also has to go home now” said Reza left Raung Zi. “wel my regards to her, say I miss her a lot”.

“Do you get drunk” surprised by Reza's behavior “ Suah there rumah”.

Reza waved his hand, Zi continued to look at Reza's departure until the life door closed.