In Slander

chapter 22 (waiting for )

I was waiting for them to take care of the oath of pocong, while I waited for them I asked people who are more familiar with religion about the issue of pocong oath and what will happen if I do it

assalamualaikum bude my hello

I call him Bude because he's a Javanese

waalaikum salam warahmatullahi wabarakatu answer

bude if we do the pocong oath what are the consequences?ask me

astaghfirullah answered

indeed the problem is as complicated as what to do the pocong oath?ask her

instead of answering my question, I asked my heart

I also told the problem that happened to Bude, just reluctant to feel his story about his own disgrace but I have to know about the pocong oath that I will do, dude just hugged his head hearing my story

in fact, your problem does not need to be like this, it can still be solved either well or in a family, Bude replied

bude, we asked everyone but they still do not believe the same I answered

actually, the pocong oath is not to play, the result is fatal if we do the pocong oath either do or do not, let us rightly still be affected by what else if we are wrong, even if we are wrong,everyone who does the pocong oath remains exposed from doing the pocong oath only the difference is the weight and lightness that we receive explained Bude

so if you can not do the oath because the child also suffered from the consequences, explained Bude again

yes ica just resigned bude with what will happen if indeed they still want to do it, so they are satisfied my answer

there was doubt in my heart to do it, not because I was afraid for myself but I was afraid when exposed to my children too, those who did but my children also felt it

thank you bude for the explanation, then ica pay back first already afternoon said and my saying goodbye

yes the same if there is any story just the same bude, God if you can help him clearly

yes bude answered me while kissing his hand

I went home thinking about what Bude said

adzan reverberated his sign when Maghrib prayer arrived I immediately took ablution and carried out my duty to perform Maghrib prayer, Maghrib prayer,I prayed and cried out to the owner of this life to show me the way and lead me to the right path for what was going on I brought all my heart to the owner, he said,that's what I used to do if there were problems in my household and my life, the color of God must give trials to his servant not from the limits of his abilities

my husband knew about this matter but he just kept quiet without asking or blaming me, maybe he was confused as to which one to defend,but when they came home to tell me to take the vow he answered

good do let us know what is wrong and right so there is no regret the next day he replied angrily

I still remember clearly, there was a sense of relief in his heart he was still beside me but there was a sense of disappointment as well because he had not trusted me wholeheartedly,but I leave it all to the creator that's all I can do because I'm just a kara here without family

there's a lot of my dad's family here actually, but it's like they don't know me this is probably because my dad and I don't have people while they're people,only one of my bude is kind and still cares about me and my father, too,but I'm ashamed to complain to her while she's an amazing woman who can support her children without a husband and without family help as well,maybe he sympathized with me because he was once in my current position that I excommunicated the family