Horizons

Episode 26's

-Kendra

The most cheerful face was the one that hid the most profound sadness.

Believe it or not, that's the reality. Sometimes the smile that people show is not a real smile. They keep wounds that people don't want to know. Grief that is closed and held alone. It looks fine when it's not.

I missed him.. The cheerful smile and mischievous chatter that the woman threw out was now gone already. Since Wa'i's death, Khanza has shut down. She cried and blamed herself. His cheeks looked more thin and his face was deathly pale.

"Khanza doesn't want to eat anymore?" I asked Regina as soon as she saw the woman's bodyguard come out of Khanza's room with the plate intact.

The woman shook her head, "Try lo who persuaded. Maybe Khanza wants to eat"

I took the plate and went into Khanza's room.

"Sa, eat first. It's chicken satay, you like chicken satay?" persuade me.

The woman wrapped in the blanket did not budge.

"Sa" I pat her shoulder softly. She's looking.

"Gue ain't Ken's laper."

"But you have to eat"

"What do you want to eat? Let me make it"

"No need. I don't eat anymore."

"Sa, don't torture yourself like this. It's not your fault that Wa'i died. Wa'i has been sick for a long time"

Khanza. A long time ago, the cry turned into a cry. That woman was crying, but why does my chest taste like it's sliced?

"This will not happen if I can be more confident and careful. I made Wa'i die, Ken.. I am not a doctor.. How about Malahar.. After Wa'i dies who will take care of them.. I'm ashamed of Ken.. I am ashamed to meet Malahar.. What would I say to him? I couldn't meet the boy.." he groaned at length.

"Sa, terrorize me" My fingers cupped his cheeks, wiping away the tears that fell down, "Everyone has his own destiny. Death has been recorded. If God had willed, no one could have preceded him and no one could have slowed him down. You've done your job as a doctor, but still, we're all just ordinary people, we can't refuse God's will"

"But Wa'i was my first patient who died Ken. And that's because I gave the drug wrong"

"Lo also gave the same medicine to Malahar, but Malahar was cured. And when you find out Wa'i has a drug allergy, you've been trying to find her instead, right? Suppose God still allows Wa'i to heal, everything must be facilitated, Sa. But what can we do if God wants Wa'i to leave? Even though we have medicine and tools as sophisticated as anything, when it's time, humans can't do anything"

The girl's cry eased a little. Her eyes looked swollen probably from crying too much.

"Follow me now" without waiting for approval, I pocked his body out of the room. Ignoring the strange gazes of some barracks occupants who happened to cross paths and whining Khanza who asked to be taken down, I took the girl into the car.