Horizons

Episode 99's

"Sa, eat first" I'm still silent. The voice of Papa who asked me to speak was not ignored at all. It's been a month, no word yet about Kendra. After that incident, Satriya and her platoon members who served in the north returned safely aboard the same military helicopter as me. So did Mas Tristan and his troops who served in the west. Only Kendra and her army have not heard from him at all.

Papa forbids me to review directly to the location. Day and night I spent worrying, waiting for news that never came. After the disaster subsided, the evakuai team was immediately taken down. Including Satriya and Mas Tristan who immediately went down to evacuate the mining area. Several bodies in TNI uniforms were found lifeless, but none of them were identified as belonging to Kendra. There are also some that can not be identified, because of burns caused by post-earthquake fires.

"Receive the reality of Sa" Papa said after the evacuation was completed.

"Kendra hasn't been found by Papa. Even after identification and autopsy, the victims near the mine were not Kendra. So there's a chance Kendra's still alive"

"Sa, not all victims can be found. There is also a drifting current into the sea. There was a landslide. You have to accept the truth. Kendra is not there."

"No. Khanza believes Kendra is still safe. Anyway Papa should find Kendra until we meet."

"Khanza's! Conscious! Accept reality."

"Father, now! Papa Seneng Kendra is no longer deket Khanza! That's why Papa doesn't want to find Kendra"

"It's not Sa-"

"liks. Khanza hates Papa. Khanza doesn't want to talk to Papa anymore."

"It's up to you to keep going! Don't eat all of them. Papa doesn't care!"

But Papa's anger did not last long, because the next thing happened was I fell ill. My body is hot, no food will come in. No matter how much I am forced to eat, I will vomit again. Not because intentionally, but somehow my body feels no passion to heal. Seeing my plight, one night Papa sat near me.

My body feels hot, cold sweat continues to wet the body. Even though my condition is between conscious and not, but with my eyes closed, I can still faintly hear the sound of sobs crying the man. The hand that always banged bones to make a living for my needs is now grasping tightly. Never once have I seen that steel-hearted man cry. Even if never. And now, like a little boy, he's spilling all his emotions beside my helpless body.

"Sorry Papa, Sa. Don't punish Papa like this. You're Papa's only son. Papa please. Papa promises you won't marry the same choice Papa. But you wake up Sa, wake up.. So Papa's happy son again. So Papa's son is wayward again. Don't think of Gini Sa.. Papa please.."

Papa... Where has Papa been all this time? Deep down, Khanza always loved Papa. Papa's the only one Khanza has. Any man can never replace the services of Papa who raised Khanza alone. But Khanza loves Kendra Pa, why won't Papa understand? He's the only man who can replace Papa to look after Khanza, but why won't Papa accept it?

Papa's.. Papa's late. Kendra now knows where. And it feels like Khanza can't live without Kendra next to Khanza.

Maafin Khanza Pa's..

Khanza dear Papa.