Hijrah Love Kanaya

Not easy to realize

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"Umi, today all the friends go for a walk with their papa and mama, will Umi not go for a walk with Syifa today?"

The little boy looked so hopeful, his face looked so begging. He knew Uminya was very busy and he shouldn't have said this.

"Darling, Umi had a meeting this morning. You go with Oma and Opa huh? Hem.., later in the afternoon Umi promised to go home quickly and we take a walk," said Kanaya. His hand paused for a moment from his breakfast, looking at Syifa who was obviously very disappointed by his words.

Syifa no longer answered, her face was lethargic. Though he had told his friends that he would also go for a walk but in fact all that could not happen.

"If Syifa had Abi, Syifa would be able to travel with Abi if Umi was busy" he said. Syifa immediately went up, left her breakfast and ran out of the house.

Huff...

"Darling, dear Syifa!" calling Kanaya, she turned her head after she also let out her long breath. What happened to Syifa, she's not this ordinary.

She didn't usually bring up her Abinya, she never said that if she also wanted Abi, she was always enough with her Umi_ alone, then now?

Syifa kept running out, it seemed like she was very disappointed, obviously she felt that way. The children at his age wanted to be able to play and walk with his parents, but Syifa did not get it.

Oma Uswah also Opa Hasan was silent to each other in a look filled with confusion. They were also at a loss as to how to explain it to Syifa.

"Nay excuse me first," Kanaya immediately stood up, intending to catch up with Syifa who might be sad or might even cry outside the house.

"Hem, talk to Syifa" replied Oma Uswah.

"What we have to do, Abi, we have done everything to make Syifa always happy. But the truth is, he still wants something that's right."

"He's just a kid who wants what his friends have. If only Dirga..," said Oma Uswah.

His eyes were already teary, saying it made him remember his son who had gone first and died.

"Already, Umi. Everything is destiny. Dirga had calmed down there, "Opa Hasan tried to comfort his wife, wiping away her tears that still flowed even though they had been held.

"Sometimes Umi still hopes all this is just a nightmare, a dream that will disappear when you wake up. But it turns out not, Umi was right to have lost Dirga," he said pilu.

"Already, Mi. Sincerely, Umi must be sincere. All the living will die, and so will we."

Opa Hasan still tried to entertain although still could not stop the tears of Oma Uswah who had already come out.

"Ikhlas," he added again. His hands touched and even stroked the shoulders of his grieving wife every time he remembered his son Dirga.

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"Honey," call Kanaya. Seeing his son sitting in front with a sad face and hands that were wrapped in chest made Kanaya immediately sit next to him.

Kanaya should be able to explain and comfort Syifa before she goes to the office. He won't be able to work properly later if Syifa is still like this.

Although demanded to go to the office every day but Kanaya will not be able to if Syifa like now. He had to convince Syifa first.

"Darling, I'm sorry Umi. Umi had a meeting this morning, but Umi promised to go home early and would take Syifa for a walk, "Kanaya started talking.

Syifa still turned her face so sad, not paying attention to Kanaya at all who was talking to her.

Syifa is indeed a child who does not demand much, but still she is a child who sometimes always wants something the same as her friends do.

He also wanted to feel what his friends were feeling.

Hearing any word Syifa immediately turned her head, the two hands that were in front of her chest also directly lowered her.

"whatever?" ask Syifa. His eyes were so fixed on Kanaya, it seemed like he wanted something from Kanaya.

"Yes, anything. Umi promised to give it to Syifa," replied Kanaya. Kanaya smiled, she thought the way would succeed in making Syifa's heart melt, she would be able to go to the office quietly after this.

"Then give Syifa Abi. Will Umi give it."

Kanaya gawked, unable to speak anymore. He was very confused to answer. How could he possibly give Syifa this one request, he could not.

"Why, can Umi not give?"

"Umi, Syifa will never ask for anything again, Syifa only wants Abi. Syifa please," whine Syifa. His hand turned to hold both of Kanaya's hands and continued to pull her out. Syifa was really expecting that.

"Dear syifa, Umi..."

"Why, Umi won't give it? She said Umi promised to give her whatever Syifa asked, but where! Syifa does not ask for anything, does not ask for toys or food that is difficult, Syifa only wants Abi Umi."

How can Kanaya explain, even finding food or toys that difficult it would be easier for him than giving an Abi to Syifa.

"Darling..."

"Umi was always like that, Syifa kelas same Umi!"

Syifa's hand was released, she also directly came down from her current seat and went back in with a run, and that too with a cry.

"Syifa, dear Syifa! Umi first, son!" Kanaya turned her head but Syifa was already far away from her.

"Astaghfirullah, what a trial this is," Kanaya began to get dizzy if it was like this. Moreover, the thing that Syifa asked for was something that was very difficult to accept.

"Once you go. It's noon you'll be late for a meeting later. For Syifa, let Umi and Abi comfort her. He will understand, you do not worry" said Oma Uswah.

Although actually his own heart also feels torn when he hears Syifa's wishes but Oma Uswah must still be steadfast. He would not likely let Kanaya be grieved by protracted like this.

"Nay, it's been five years since Dirga left, and it's not a short time. Umi and Abi don't matter if you can continue your life, Syifa also desperately needs the love of an Abi, Nay."

Kanaya who continued to flinch and did not move made Oma dare to say that after sitting next to her. It's true, isn't it? Kanaya should be able to move on with her life.

"What the hell did Umi say. Kanaya can't, Umi. It won't be able to" Kanaya refused quickly.

"But, Nay. Syifa is in dire need..."

"No Umi, Syifa doesn't need anyone but us."

"Nay, Umi knows you still love Dirga very much but you can't be selfish like this. Don't shut your heart to anyone, Nay. Who knows God is still preparing a soul mate for you, you are still young, and do not rule out the possibility that you will get back to love."

"Open slowly your heart, Nay. If not for you at least for Syifa's happiness."

Kanaya shook her head, she seemed to disagree with what Oma Uswah said. He is still very comfortable with his current situation, and will always be like this.

"Sorry, Nay has to go" Kanaya said. Of course, Kanaya did it because she did not want to linger in a conversation that could not be welcomed by her heart.

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