Heartfill

Liver Contents ep 5

"I'm glad we finally got to live together. There will be nothing to disturb our relationship" Danish said

Finally, Mesya obeyed more what was said by Danish, rather than listening to the advice of his own friends.

"Let's go in," asked Danish to Mesya.

"Where did you get this house, Dan?" ask Mesya.

"From my friend" replied Danish.

"Do you like the house?" ask Danish.

"Yes, I like it" Mesya replied briefly.

"Do you regret your decision?" ask Danish.

Mesya just looked down sadly not answering.

(Flash back )

" You've gone too far, but you can turn in the direction you're supposed to. It's not too late, Mes."

"But I don't want to lose Danish."

" Your love is too much."

"Of course."

"Wantas? what are you gonna do?" ask Meta.

"Yes, like I said, I'll follow Danish. I want her to know how much I love her. And hopefully that way he will give a balanced reply to my feelings."

Meta took a deep breath, and Exhaled it hard.

"I can't believe it's like hearing your recklessness this time, Mes."

Mesya just kept quiet.

"Think about it again."

"I've been thinking about it carefully."

"Messiah...."

"But keep being my best friend, huh?"

Meta could only nod, "But I'm very disappointed with your decision."

"Also hate?" ask Mesya while crying.

Meta shook his head, then reached Mesya's body. He felt compassion and pity for his friend. So innocent and funny. He was willing to sacrifice everything just for a love that was not yet clear direction and purpose.

(flashback done)

" Mesh, why are you daydreaming,"

ask Danish.

"Don't worry, I'll pay for it. I'm working now" Danish said again.

"Work? What work?"

"Help Rey in her office. Not good, while not getting a suitable job."

Mesya looked at Danish with love.

" This is all I'm doing for you, Mes. And later, if I get a good job, we get married, I buy a rather large house. Or stay at Om Pram for a while. Now I'm out of Om Pram's house, I said if I wanted to live alone, but if Om Pram knew that I was living with you, he'd be mad too. Like Meta, Om Pram is also against our ways. So you don't have to be sad, we're the same, OK. We have lost someone close to us. We also lie to our parents who are far away and do not see what their children actually do. But never mind, now we just think about our lives, because we're both going to live it, not them."

"Let's get back to your contract, and pack your things now."

"Now?" mesya was surprised.

And he felt so scared. Will he really be living with Danish? If only they had been married, he would have been very happy.

"Yes, now, when else?We've seen the house rent I've also paid, besides the place is also not too far from where you work."

"Give me some more time to think yes, Dan?" pinta Mesya.

When talking to Meta, Mesya felt ready to stay with Danish, because he felt he could not live without Danish. But after he confronted the Danish, he hesitated.

Since Danish did not want Mesya to change his mind, he shook his head.

"No, we talked about this yesterday, right? at that time I asked you to think, did you choose to stay together or did we break up? And now it's time to answer, not think. Anyway we've seen the house I've also paid the rent, it's impossible to refuse anymore, Mes."

"But, Dan, what people say...."

"Don't talk about anyone else. I know everyone blames us. No one will justify our ways. But why think of them? Are they the ones who feed us?" Twitch Danish, "Jawab now, will it or not? I want a definite answer" said Danish.

Mesya was so worried. So upset and unable to think.

"if you reject me now, it means there's no chance for you to correct your refusal. Because maybe I didn't live in that place, but went back to Surabaya, to my hometown. Maybe it'll stay there forever, what it means to live here without you. I feel at home in Jakarta despite being unemployed, it's because of you."

"Because of me?" asked Mesya almost in disbelief.

Danish nodded.

"How many times have I said and sworn that I really love you."

"Love? Meta says, between himself and Danish there is no more love that there is only lust. Do you really still love me?" inner Mesya asked him like a dazed person and looked stupid.

"Why you, Mes?"

Mesya shook his head gently, remembering Meta's words, he often hesitated about his own love for Danish. Because the most powerful thing he had in his heart was the fear of losing, the fear of being abandoned after his current state.

"How, Mes?" ask Danish.

"What?"

"What?" danish's voice began to rise.

"What do you think we've been talking about? of course my plan was to get you out of that rented house. Hows it? Do you want it or not?" ask Danish again feeling anxious.

Danish's request really put Mesya under pressure, he didn't know what to say.

"Are you not going to give me time to think again, Dan?" ask Mesya.

"Think, and after thinking, you won't find me again in this city" replied Danish annoyed.

"You forced me, Dan."

"Forced how? I've asked you to think."

"By the presence of a threat, it means coercion."

"Suppit. So you don't say I forced you, I went home. Maybe tomorrow morning I will go to Semarang. And looking for a job there. And about us, if you feel pressured to be my lover, we break up."

Breaking up, so easily Danish said that word. That is what Mesya fears most.

"How's it?" ask Danish.

Actually Danish was a bit anxious as well giving Mesya another threat. But he knew very well how weak Mesya's heart was. And how much the girl loved him. And his weakness is exploited.

***

They decide to return to Mesya's contract, after seeing the house rented by Danish.

"Alright, Mes, you can't decide now. I'm going first. Maybe it's just up to here our relationship."

"And. All right, wait for me to pack my clothes, okay?" mesya.

Danish smiled triumphantly, "i'll help you."

Mesya shook his head, "There's a meta inside, I don't want you guys to fight."

"All right, I'll wait here, okay? Don't take too much with you. What needs to happen first, we can go back later."

While Mesya went inside, Danish came out of the guest room towards the other side of the street. Danish crossed the street to buy cigarettes.

***

"So go with Danish?" ask Meta, when Mesya goes into his room.

"Yes" said Mesya.

Meta doesn't say anything anymore. There is no point in advising. Now Mesya needs no one but Danish.

"But if one day I want to come back here, accept me, will you?" mesya said pleading.

"Yes, of course Mes. Even if anything happens to you, don't forget to come to me."

"Thank you, Met. You're so nice."

"You're good too. I'm gonna lose you."

"No, we'll still be friends."

Meta smiled grimly. At first he was very happy when Mesya said that if he also could not follow the wishes of Danish, it means that Mesya can still think rationally. But last night Mesya again changed his mind and said he was going to go see a rented house with Danish. Meta can not say anything more, his best friend has indeed been blinded by his love Danish.

"Don't get pregnant Mes" said Meta, "Don't let your child be born out of wedlock."

"And you, take care of yourself, okay? don't let this happen to me, come upon you too."

"Hopefully I'm stronger than you."

Mesya then packed his things that would be brought. Meta helps him with his erratic feelings. Should he have prevented, he should have strongly opposed the folly of Mesiah. But he failed, now he helped him pack his things.

"You gonna tell your parents about your move?" ask Meta in their busy lives.

Mesya who was putting clothes in his suitcase shook his head, "I won't be that close, Met. They can come here to drag me home."

"I know, but that's not what I mean, it's not about you coming with Danish I asked, but about your exit from this house. You should tell them, right? So that if they write a letter or come here, don't stray anymore."

"No need to do it?" mesya said confused, he stopped putting his clothes in.

"Then what if Nisha comes?"

"Now I can't think, but I trust you. You must know how to convey it to Hisya later. If he just sends an easy letter, you will tell me later. But if he comes, help me anyway. Can ya?"

"Hopefully" replied Meta.