Heartfill

Heart Fill ep 1

 

Mesya again read a short message from Hisya. How nice, Nisha brought news of the whole family. About mama, papa, also the school of Hisya who this year will enter the university in Jakarta, so the message of Nisya who wants to continue his college, not work like Mesya.

Mesya smiled to himself, at the thought of how spoiled his youngest sister was. For months they have not met. Last saw lebaran yesterday. It hasn't been a year, but it feels like a long time. If he was missing people at home, Mesya felt very lonely, felt sad and wanted to cry.

Mesya includes a woman who was born with a fairly well-to-do family, but because she wants to live independently and does not want to rely on her parents' possessions, Mesya decides to work, and she only has a little sister Nisya who is quite spoiled by her Mama and Papa.

Fortunately he had a good contractmate, Meta. Also have a lover's heart who is always attentive and cares for her, also loves Mesya, Danish. Those two guys are really sepals.

From Nisya's message, Mesya's gaze turned to the wall before him, hanging a portrait of Danish there, smiling gently and lovingly. He was so handsome, so alluring with his tall athletic body.

 

"Cool and macho," Meta commented when first Mesya introduced it.

"But not yet working, he still nganggur just finished college. And here he goes with his oom," said Mesya

" She will also work. And I'll make sure you're happy with him. I see she loves you so much."Mesya just smiled.

There was a subtle knock at the door, Mesya's daydream was broken, and he immediately stepped there and opened it. And how delighted he was, the young man who had just been in his daydreaming was now standing before him with his dazzling sweet smile.

"Hi," said sweet Danish

"Hi,"Mesya replied no less sweet.

" Get in, yuk,"he put on his sturdy arm Danish then carried him inside.Danish again pulled off Mesya's hand and hugged him tightly.

"Sleepy kok?Which meta?"

"Meta go watch with Radith."

"Why don't you come?"

"If I go, tonight we don't meet dong" said Mesya spoiled."Even though a day does not meet you, it feels like a long time.

Danish smiled, then gently embraced Mesya's body into his arms.

"Me too, a day not seeing you, it feels like a century. Therefore, if I had worked and had money, I wanted us to get married soon, so that we could always be together, and could meet at any time.

Even at midnight when I wake up, you're on my side."

Marrying. Can't Mesya describe how happy it is. Can be his lover alone Mesya has been very lucky, let alone can be his wife.

 

Danish is really the man of his dreams. Danish almost has everything that girls dream of. And being near him Mesya not only felt the warmth of his love, but also felt protected.

 

"You want kab to be my wife?"Danish stared into Mesya's face.

Mesya nodded, moved.

Danish embrace it again, tighter, more friendly.And Mesya also reply no less friendly. Mesya's lips are denounced*p friendly by Danish.

Mesya did not want to lose, he returned the fondling of Danish, even with his arm tightly wrapped around the neck of Danish. And their lips continue to blend with passion.

At first Mesya was washed away, but it felt Danish acting more distant, Mesya jerked his body.

" No, Gi. Not now, "prevent it sad

"When then?" ask Danish disappointed."Now or later it's the same."

"Of course it's different."

"No, I want it now" urged Danish.

"Danish, you love me, right? So help me keep my honor for the sanctity of our love."

"Mes, please, I want it now" Danish asked again."Can, huh?"mesya persuaded him with a soft kiss on his lips.

"Come on, honey."

"We are not married yet."

"But we'll get married later."

"Therefore we will do it. I'm scared, Dan."

 

"Fear pregnant?I'll take responsibility."

"I fear sin, I fear God

" okay! Think about sin, but don't think about me and our love!" Danish turned.

 

"Danish...."

" I don't like holy-spirited women. We disperse. We're not in line.

Mesya bit his lips sadly. He doesn't want to lose Danish." But he also did not want to lose his honor.

And in that very short time he considered, which one he wanted to sacrifice. And it turns out, the first choice was heavier on his side, until he called Danish once again.

And when Danish turned his head, he said softly, "I love you, Gi, I don't want to lose you...."

Danish smile.

"But you're really going to marry me, right?"

"Yes, I promise."

And Mesya also let Danish embrace him. Let Danish take all hers. Under the pretext of love.

 

***

 

Meta saw Mesya rather quiet these few days. His face looked somewhat gloomy and agitated.

Mesya looked sad. It was so sad that it hit his heart. He gave up something he should have kept until he married. Mesya let out a heavy sigh, trying to relieve his burden-laden chest.

 

Mesya suddenly sat down, silent, and did not answer Meta questions.

 

"Mess...," Meta sat down."Is there a problem with Danish?"ask Meta softly.

Listening, Mesya dropped his head on his bent knee.

Meta stroked Mesya's hair slowly."You always tell me all your problems. About Mama, Papa, Nisya also Danish."Every time you feel happy, you always share it with me. And now, I want you to share also your sad."

Mesya raised his head, turning slowly to Meta's face.

"Tell me all your burdens to be reduced."

"You love Radith?"ask Mesya, far beyond Meta's expectations.

" Why ask that?"ask Meta confused

"Jawab first, Met," said Mesya lethargic

"Yes, I love Radith

" It's too much?"

"And for your love, you want to do whatever he asks?"

"If you stray, of course not."

"For example?"

"For example, he asked me to profitably plunge from a very steep cliff." Meta tried to joke around to relax the tension on Mesya's face.

 

But Mesya hasn't changed, he's still moody

 

"What's the matter exactly?" Meta touched again Mesya's long hair.

"How far are you from Radith?" again Mesya asked, but he should have answered Meta questions.

 

Meta shook his head in confusion."I don't understand what you're asking that for.

Mesya muddled up again, "if he asks for something that means a lot to you, you'll give it to him, Met?"

Now you speak clearly, huh. What's your problem?"

 

Mesya nodded again.

"I love Danish so much" he said softly." I'm afraid of losing him. So scared.

"But your relationship with Danish is fine, right?Even last night he came, right?"

"Yes." Yeah."

"Then what's your problem?"

"The problem is that I feel too much about him. Because of the magnitude of my love, I gave up my pride, my honor for her...."

"What?!" Meta gasped, not believing hearing that. Indeed, many women have sex outside marriage today, but Meta does not want Mesya also do it. They have a religion, and a norm that forbids such relationships before marriage.

 

" Danish forced me, and he would break me if I refused him." Mesya said regretfully.And only with such a threat are you willing to give up something of your value?"

 

"I...."

"You fool, Mes.If he loves you, he will take care of your honor, because someday you will be his too."

"So you don't think he loves me?"

"Love, but her love level is very low and shallow. The dominant one is lust. And that love was used as a pretext to get you."

"Radith never asked that of you?"

"Radith not only loves me, but also respects me."

"Mesya bit her lips poignant.

" If he had gotten everything out of you, the only thing he would have done was run away from you.That's impossible, I know his feelings for me."

"He only loves you, doesn't respect you. He can even humble your dignity by taking away your sadism..."

 

"He didn't snatch it, I gave it to him," Mesya defended Danish."But I'm really sorry."

 

" Sorrying is useless. Now, try not to repeat it. You don't want to get pregnant out of wedlock, do you?And pray, and ask Allah for forgiveness, Mes.You have committed a great sin."

"Mesya quiet.

" Can you refuse if Danish asks again?"

Mesya.

"Also if he threatens to leave you?"

"He can't leave me" said Mesya fretfully.

"Hopefully."