He's Happy of Me He's Lukaku

Chapter 14: Why Does This Heart Sick?

Alan dared not ask Rosa anything. After all he who is now is not who Rosa is, he is just the older brother of her boyfriend. Alan's initial intention to go to the indomaret in his heart, because instinct says he must accompany Rosa here.

Alan realized that Rosa was waiting for someone to come pick her up. But whoever it was, the person Rosa was waiting for was not a woman. As a doctor, although not from the Psychology division, Alan understood very well that Rosa was waiting for it was a man.

Alan was standing right beside Rosa, he continued to notice Rosa in the male outfit, constantly looking at the road and occasionally looking at her watch.

It feels like Alan really wants to shower Rosa with a variety of questions that have been stirring in him since he knew klo the person who came out the night with the clothes of the man was Rosa who was known to him. No, Alan realized he had no right to ask anything. All things related to Rosa have been decided simultaneously every barrage of cruel words that come out of her mouth.

But Alan also could not help but question Rosa. Where will Rosa go? Make what? With who? And why should it be this way? Why cross dress? Why do we have to be at night?

That was the series of questions Alan wanted to ask Rosa. But he was also self-conscious before asking all those questions. What right does he have? Is he Rosa? By what status did he have the right to ask all that? Alan clasped his hand tightly until it was like a cold tremble. And Alan always told himself not to ask Rosa.

"Haisshhh..., why is this child so long? Where else is he?" Said Rosa complaining about Dian's delay, because from earlier she had not seen the trunk of her nose though.

Rosa checked her watch again, ten o'clock past ten minutes. "Am I the one who's too excited? Last afternoon, Dian said it was a clock.... What time is it? How could I forget? It must have been I was too nervous because Brother Alan was on the side. Is this a brain again? It must be short because there's Alan's brother on the side." Rosa said to herself while glancing at Alan occasionally.

"Hahhh, let's check, what time it is that people will call it." Rosa's own murmurs checked her phone. "Ahhhhh.., I'm dead tick.... How am I supposed to do this? Very canggungggg!!!!" Rosa screamed in her heart.

Rosa continued to pat both of her cheeks with her hands. He was very happy because Alan wanted to stand beside him waiting for Dian. Rosa is thrilled to find that Alan still cares for her. Rosa's mind began to be controlled by the dark side and the light within her, she could not think logically anymore.

"What are you waiting for? Let's hurry up before him. From the beginning, it was yours, right? Hurry up tell me you guys have had a very burning time before." The word demon dark side in Rosa whispers a tantalizing seduction for Rosa.

"Quiet Rosa, you can't act rashly like this. All that needs a process, that's how the principles of his world go. You can't make your impression on her worse. He can stand next to you with you here means you've got a little bit of progress, don't let him be surprised until he's away from you." Denying the angelic side in Rosa presents a good idea.

"Currently, what has been the little progress made? You better immediately nyosor aja say klo you love him as wide as this ocean ocean. You love her so much as if the world stopped spinning without her. Tell me your love is pure. Let's quickly say! Use that charm of yours, every man will definitely fall on the charm of a woman like you." Persuade the demon side continue to plunge Rosa.

"Don't Rosa, don't do that. Alan is not just a man, he is a straight man. You can't say you love her now. Even though she cares about you now, to Alan you are now someone else's fiancee. If you say your love is pure to her, she will only think of you as a cheap, despicable woman. You don't want history to repeat itself, do you?" The angelic side gave advice to Rosa.

"What history? It's so old." Said the demon side mocked the angel side and tried to fight the angel side.

"You, you evil demon. Rosa, don't listen to him. You hear me." Shouted the side of the angel once more, and resisted the attack launched by the side of the demon.

Rosa shook her head violently, she continued to brush off the air around her with her hands. Alan who saw Rosa like that thought Klo Rosa was very nervous waiting for the person who would pick her up.

Alan didn't know why but his heart was so sore. He held his left chest tightly, the burning and twitching feeling was clearly felt in his heart. "Why am I being weird like this? Isn't that my wish? Rosa moved away from me on her own, isn't it good that I didn't have to waste my energy pushing her away from my life? Why does it feel like this heart is so sick? Getting angry? Saddened? Stuffed up? Why is this feeling? Why do I keep going like this? Why do I always want to escape this reality?" Alan continued to wonder in his heart.

Alan couldn't keep lying to himself. This feeling was so clearly detected that it was the emotion he was feeling right now. Heartache, anger, sadness. Alan knew that clearly, let alone he was a doctor, he could not be mistaken for his own feelings.

Blurry memories of Rosa keep popping up in her head lately. Everything that concerns Rosa, she feels that emotion. Emotions that have never even been felt for Alan when he was with his fiancee, or with his fiance who is abroad now. There was not the slightest feeling of anger that Alan felt, let alone that miss.

Alan continued to pay attention to Rosa's agitation, he fanned his hands like a sultry girl, nervous fidgeting waiting for his partner. "Rosa, what poison did you actually use on me? Why do I keep feeling this pain? Why do I want to escape the reality I find? The truth is you have someone else in your life. Didn't you ever tell me I'm the most meaningful person in your life?"

Flashbacks

Alan and the twins were sitting in the living room. There were only the three of them and each of them was busy with his own matters. Alan is busy with his laptop for reading the details of the results of all the tests from his patients, Aldi is busy with scrolling medsos and Aldi is busy with his television drama.

"Whatt? What the f*ck with this story?" Shouted Aldi suddenly while scrolling his phone.

"What the hell are you, Di? Fun to pick up your work. Nothing else what?" Alan's question was upset because his focus was destroyed because Aldi kept shouting unclear when passing something on his phone.

"A little clear." Add Aldo again supported Alan, because Aldo also felt disturbed when he was watching the television drama.

"Diem lo, Do. Do not be smart in front of me, you can be yourself klo in front of me. I'm disgusted to see how irritate that vocabulary is." Aldi did not accept that he was criticized by Aldo. "Try lo lo see story sosmed lo, Brother Steve no upin history tuh. Still new, you see for yourself."

Aldo opened the story intended by Aldi. A photo with Rosa's family, and with Rosa dressed like a star princess at night. There are three pictures that the story raises, two photos with the family and one photo of Steve with Rosa, and the entanglement is, 'Honey, brother does not want you to go to a match tonight, brother wants you to belong only to one brother.'

"****, baby really want to go to this matchmaking?" Ask Aldi.

"Where I know, his brother is the most know, klo not his family or baby himself. But baby doesn't rise to status." Aldi replied after checking his history again. "Just ask baby." Finally Aldi decided to ask the person directly.

"Wait, Di. New baby has risen to new status. His words, 'Shhuuhhhttt, please be calm, beautiful people will pass by...'. Check it out yourself." Said Aldo to Aldi.

"Yes, I checked." Aldi looked at the photo that Rosa had just posted on her status. The same dress as the photo in Steve's status, only Rosa herself in her status, and with the pose of the index finger in front of her mouth. "Ah damn, she is so beautiful. Crazy, really crazy, she's like a star fairy at night." Upat Aldi when he saw the photo of Rosa. "But, btw what does that mean, huh?" Tanya Aldi is back in her moron mode.

"Maybe he doesn't want us to win it, he wants to calm down because he has to wear matchmaking night, that's the meaning of beautiful people going through. And please calm down, meaning we who already know he wants to matchmaking, better shut up than anyone else." Aldo's analysis was quick.

"I don't think I'm Do, you know, you know, huh?" Praise Aldi to Aldo. "But, Do. I can't wait for the next morning to come, I want to immediately run to ask this all to baby."

"Lo thinks it's just lo doang. I know that too." Sarcas Aldo answered Aldi's words quickly.

Alan also secretly saw the story that the twins were talking about just now. He sees Rosa's status, and a beautiful photo of her appears from behind the screen of Alan's phone. But strangely he did not get the same story that is being talked about by ai twins, the story of Steve. He didn't find it.

"Is it possible that Steve privates on certain people, huh? And this status is only reserved for the twins." Alan thought that dissolved in his own thinking. "And for Rosa's case, she did post a regular status, which meant everyone could see her. Marriage, huh? Isn't Rosa too early to make an engagement? Isn't he just about to enter 18 years one more week. Even the twins are almost 19." Alan thought he was trying to figure out and guess Rosa's age.

Alan went back to the present, he realized how hard he was to deny the fact that Rosa was engaged now was indeed difficult. Moreover, the figure of Rosa in a blue dress in the style of the stars was so imprinted in Alan's mind.

Moreover, the thoughts and memories of Rosa's engagement which coincided with her eighteenth birthday, were still fresh in her memory. The memory of the engagement ring pinned to Rosa's ring finger, the roar of the audience's applause as they had already exchanged rings, it was all still fresh in his memory.

Strange for Alan, he didn't understand why he cared so much about it? She always tries to push Rosa away from her. Even he felt ill-fated, when he had to bring a gift on the day of his engagement, it really hurt Alan. And the question was always the same, he didn't know why his heart was so sick.

"Anu..., where are you going?" "Where are you going?" Ask Rosa and Alan at the same time.

"Not yet." Rosa invites Alan to speak first.

"I want to go to Indomaret in front, I want to buy a snack." Alan explained his purpose. "Where are you going yourself? Why are the nights like this? Go with who? Make what?" Ask Alan with a question.

Rosa who heard the successive questions became speechless. He did not expect klo the person who wanted himself to stay away was asking a lot of things at once like that.

"So Alan wants to ask or introgate this criminal. So many questions." Rosa thought as she reached out to such a question. But it was no big deal for Rosa, all her questions were well-digested, and the question of answers, which could be told, told, which could not be told, just avoided.

"Oh, Rosa wants to go out for the night breeze. Go with friends and are waiting to be picked up. A spot? Sorry, but can not tell Rosa, please brother maklumin. And as for why it's night, it's because Rosa wants to get wind at night." Answer Rosa as it were.

"But it's unethical for a girl to go out at night like this." Said Alan who is frustrated about how the attitude of children today.

"Eat Rosa cross dressing."

"But that also does not mean that you have become a real man by doing cross dressing. Your body is a girl, your energy is still a girl. You didn't even think that, did you?"

"Well, why is Alan's brother angry like a gini?" Inner Rosa wondered because she was being scolded by Alan.

"Especially you go out at night like a gini, take care of everything else, udak like a thief. Must be uncle, same aunt Steve does not know if you run around like gini. Now home! Klo nak brother aduin you to uncle and aunt, let you locked up, just know the taste."

"But, brother...."

Rosa heard the sound of a motor speeding towards her, then saw her watch, five minutes and a half eleven, it must be Dian. Rosa became in a hurry, anyway with Dian so fast that he got in front of Rosa, Rosa must succeed in winning Alan, so that the secret does not break down to the ears of her parents, so that her secret will not reach her, let alone it getting to Steve's ears, that siscon guy.

"Sister, Rosa please don't report to Rosa's parents, yes. This is the first time Rosa has ever been gini. Rosa please, yes!" Pinta Rosa to Alan with her hands clenched in front of Alan. "Yes, Alan's brother, huh? Rosa please, please! Klo Kak alan did not report Rosa to Rosa's parents, Rosa promised Rosa would not bother Alan's sister again, sweat!" Rosa said seriously.