Guardian angel (best secret of my life)

Different Way

I wriggled feeling the warmth of the sunlight that warmed my body. But I had no intention of opening my eyes. Since my head is still throbbing, I just want to rest all day. No matter how angry I am or how, I just want to rest my body. And it's true my guess, my bedroom door was opened violently by someone. But I did not dare to open my eyes, I just clasped my arm under the blanket.

"Son, no brain!!" Shouted my father who made me jump in shock and immediately sat down even though I became a bit unsteady because my head throbbed violently

"Aren't you looking at what time?? Don't think the school doesn't continue to malesan!!" Shouted my father, I just lowered my head while holding back the vibrations in my body.

"You don't want school to stop there!!" The high voice filled my ears.

Tests

Without feeling a drop of tears fall just like that without me being able to prevent it.

"Wake up!!" My father immediately pulled me rough so I immediately slumped to the floor. My heart was already crying roaring Raung but that's all I didn't show.

"Take it there!!" Tell my father to leave me still on the floor.

"Hiks... Hicks..." My tears broke right then and there.

My head that kept pulsating added with my father's screams and insults made my situation worse. But I didn't get late for fear that my father would come back. With a staggering situation I walked limped towards the kitchen. Soon I see materials I can cook. I chose to make sour vegetables only because it was the easiest and fastest.

I want to quickly finish everything, it does not take long my cooking is finished. I went back to the room, but not to go back to sleep but to get a towel and a change of clothes. After that I rushed to the bathroom to clean myself up. After cleaning myself, I immediately took the plate and filled it with rice and also the side dish did not forget I also brought drinking water. Then move back to my room.

I saw the basket of clothes I had ironed last night was gone. I'm pretty sure my mom took care of it. Well, even though my mother's words were sometimes hurtful, and her attitude seemed indifferent. But the mind of a child cannot be wrong, he loves me so much. It's just that I don't understand why his attitude is different from his other children.

"Bismillah.." I'll eat my food soon.

Although bitter taste in my tongue, but I still have to eat because I need energy. For a few minutes I finished my meal. My intention is, I want to rest a little while leaning against the wall after it has just settled. But just leaned back again my room door was opened. Making my whole body tremble to see the figure I fear so much and may have ingrained hatred in my heart.

"aa.. Aaa... Aayah..." I watered with a stutter.

"Not waking up either!!" It was my father's scream that immediately attracted me.

I struggled for forgiveness, but was not heard at all. My roar seemed inaudible as I returned the figure that many girls adored again gave me red and blue black prints all over my body.

My voice had even run out to shout, the energy I just wanted to gather seemed to vanish. My gaze was empty like it was no longer alive, the light in my eyes dimmed. I closed my eyes while curled up on the cold floor. My tears are no longer flowing because they have been wasted too much.

"I want to die..." My inner.

"I want to die..."

With all my strength left, I got up and headed for my closet drawer. There's my stationery, and there's some cartons and stuff. I picked up the cutter that was there, with a blank stare continuing to stare at the cutter..Without thinking anymore I immediately slashed my pulse using that cutter. Even the pain no longer feels, the pain in my body is less painful with the pain in my heart.

Before long my head felt spinning, I collapsed on the floor. But my consciousness is still a little faint, and my hearing is still clear. There was a clear sound of footsteps coming towards me. There was also a faint faint voice that called out my name but it was already not so clear. Slowly but surely my consciousness disappeared, and everything went black.

The noise made me piqued, I tried to open my eyes but I couldn't. It felt so heavy, even though I kept forcing my eyes open but my eyes remained closed. My ears were sharp enough to hear the noise.

"Now satisfied you!! Kill the children do not torture as you torture me!!"

Deg

As soon as I heard my mother scream.

"You can only beat the wife of the child!! What kind of husband are you!! No work!! I can only get angry at home!! Even a child has to be a victim!!" I heard my mother's screaming voice that hinted at incredible emotions.

But not a single word came out of the mouth of the person he was talking to. But I'm pretty sure that person must be my father. I let out a rough sigh, because my suicide attempt failed and my body just felt like it had no energy. Even to open my eyelids there was no energy at all.

"why don't I die!!' My inner.

"I know it's a sin!! But I really don't want to live anymore" My mind raged back, the day I roared Raung wanted to cry.

But my tears seemed dry and could no longer shed.

"That's how it hurts but it doesn't bleed!!" My inner.

I kept hearing the screams of my mother who kept wearing. I don't know how long it's been until my mother ends her speech. Then I heard a pretty loud voice.

Brakkkk

The sound of the door closing was so loud, I'm sure my mother did it. I'm just him because I haven't been able to open my eyes. I didn't expect a hand to slowly wipe my hair which made my heart shake.

"Mother..." My inner.

I felt it warm at the top of my head as it softly kissed there. He said nothing and I heard his steps starting to move away from me. The sound of the door opening made me even more convinced that he was leaving me. with all my shock.

"Does mom love me??" I don't know if that silly question came to my mind.

I know there is no mother in this world who does not love her child. Even a wild lion never hurt his own child. But everyone has a different way of showing affection to their child.